I feel
As hollow
As this tree.
I gave you space in my heart.
You failed to honor and love that space.
It’s ok; I made the choice, I only have myself to blame.
So why am I angry at you?
At least I have my daughter. She is the only person worthy of my full love and affection. My love for her is unconditional.
So many men have disappointed me.
First He chose his friends and substances over me.
Another showed so much anxiety, then disappeared like the chicken he is.
Another also chose substances and couldn’t get it together.
The last eventually couldn’t follow through on any of his promises.
My heart is so tired. I have to stop giving love to these men until they can really prove their worth. It sounds mean. I don’t think I’m perfect or have it all figured out. But the disappointment is so great. Is it me? What can I do better? All I can do is continue to love myself. Spend time alone in self cultivation. Growing in my own art and time.
So sad. Knowing this is what is best. Still breaks my heart.
