tldr: you can hear it in the silence
a/n: listen to taylor swift's "you are in love" if you want the full effect of this one
one look, dark room
meant just for you
youād been at this party far too long. the fabric of your dress was starting to itch and the heels you were wearing were making your feet scream. it was time to go home. the only problem? this was seungcheolās birthday party. he expected everyone to stay until well past midnight to help him welcome in his new year. it was just past one and you wanted to leave. being here all night after working all day was not something you wanted to do. you knew convincing wonwoo wouldnāt be hard. he was never one to want to stay out late, always preferring to be home anyway.Ā
you placed your half-full drink onto the counter of the kitchen island and stretched your neck, craning it from side to side looking for your date. just as you were about to give up and ask someone, you felt eyes on you and turned.Ā
there, from across the room was wonwoo. eyes locked onto yours, a single brow raised in a question.Ā
a little nod of your head was all he needed. the conversation he was having with soonyoung was immediately forgotten. you watched as he excused himself and headed straight for you.
holding a hand out, he reached for you, understanding without words exactly what you needed.Ā
āletās go home, peach.āĀ
you know heād been keeping an eye on you the whole night, despite not being right next to each other through the whole night, gauging your energy levels as the party progressed from opposite sides of sungcheolās apartment. and right now, he could tell you were completely worn out, ready to be home, together and in the quiet; the opposite of what this party was providing.Ā
he was sympathetic to you, knowing youād had a full day and still put on a brave face for him and his members. he knew you wouldāve preferred to stay home tonight but he also knew you knew how important seughceolās birthday ws to him and you love his brothers like your own so you wouldnāt have missed it for the world. he loves you all the more for it.Ā
he gently tugs your hand, ācome on, the car is waiting for us.āĀ
the smile you gave him was dazzling, albeit a little tired, āthank you, woo.āĀ
āanything for you, peach.āĀ
you keep his shirt,Ā
he keeps his word
he left on tour 6 days ago and its been agony for you. itās not like you weren;t used to time apart, but every time he goes, it feels like part of you goes with him. an important, bright part, something essential to your being.
you wandered around your shared apartment like a ghost, meandering from room to room, searching for that part of you that he took with him. the only thing keeping you grounded was the scent of him, still lingering on the clothes youāre wearing, his clothes. his shirt hangs off your body, shoulders stretched wide from his broad frame.Ā
youāre pulled from your daze when your phone starts buzzing incessantly on the coffee table in the living room. you chose to ignore it, not wanting to talk to anyone right now. it feels like relief when the buzzing finally stops. but it shortly starts again, persistent and intense. you glace at the screen and there is his name. his call at this moment feels like kismet, like he could sense your anguish from across the world.Ā
you answer, āwoo?ā
he breathes out your name like a prayer, āpeach.ā
thatās all it takes, and suddenly youāre a puddle, tears streaming down your face, the longing too much for you to bear.Ā
āoh, peach. donāt cry for me. iāll be home to you soon.ā he says it so surely, like he would move heaven and earth to get home to you, and you know he would if it came down to it.Ā
āi justā¦ā you sigh, āi miss you.āĀ
you can hear the emotion in his voice, āi miss you, too. thatās why i called. iām in this hotel room all the way across the ocean, and all i can think about is home. all i can think about is you.āĀ
and suddenly youāre crying again, ādonāt say stuff like that. iām too emotional for it.āĀ
he laughs despite himself, feeling the exact same, āi know, peach. iām emotional too.āĀ
the first week apart was always the roughest, learning to be normal without each other to ground yourselves. itās hard every single time he goes away and you wonder if it will ever get easier.Ā
āiāll come home to you soon,ā he says softly. āi promise.āĀ
that missing piece in you still feels immense, but hearing his words and knowing heāll keep that promise to you makes it easier.Ā
and he keeps the picture of you in his office downtown
he felt your gentle tap on his shoulder and pulled his headphones off, letting them rest around his neck. he paused his game, and turned his chair to look at you, āyes, peach?āĀ
āiām sorry to interrupt but i need your license. iām trying to arrange the rental car for our trip and they need the license number for the driver, and that would be you. soā¦ license? can i have it?ā you smiled and held an expectant hand out in front of you, palm up.Ā
he put his hand on yours, intertwining your fingers and bringing the back of your hand to his mouth. he pressed a kiss there and murmured slowly, voice deep, āyes, peach, you can have it.ā
you blushed, looking down at him with a soft smile, āwhere is it, woo?āĀ
another kiss pressed to the back of your hand, another murmur, āin my wallet.āĀ
the blush deepened, āand where is your wallet? hmm?ā
a final kiss, āthe nightstand.ā
this time you brought your connected hands to your lips, pressing a kiss of your own to his skin, āthank you, woo.ā you dropped his hand, and left, on a mission to finish all the paperwork for your upcoming vacation.Ā
his wallet was right where he said it would be, on his nightstand. the brown leather soft from constant use. immediately upon opening it up, you found what you were looking for. you pulled the card out, giggling at wonwooās goofy ID photo, so serious and stern. glancing back at the empty ID slot, something caught your eye. well, someone. there was a photo of you looking back at you now.Ā
you had never seen this photo before; it was slightly out of focus, your back to the camera but your head was turned, a big smile across your face, eyes focused on something beyond the lens. he must have taken this photo on one of your night walks.Ā
the tradition began when you started dating. the usual hustle and bustle of seoul was somewhat dampened at night, the whole city slightly muffled by the cover of night. you and wonwoo had quickly discovered long walks around quiet neighborhoods were a really good way to get to know someone. the long meandering conversations you shared built a sturdy foundation for what was to become your relationship together. although he was a man of few words, wonwoo found little trouble divulging his secrets to you on those evenings.Ā
now that you lived together, the walks are less frequent, but not gone completely. whenever one of you needed to vent, or just feel close to the other, youād ask to go on a walk, letting your inhibitions down under the cover of night.Ā
āwhatās taking you so long?āĀ
you jumped, not having heard wonwoo come up right behind you. now that you were aware he was there, you could feel his breath on the back of your neck.Ā
āi found this photo,ā you explained, still feeling a little frazzled. you turned and held the wallet out to him, showing him the small picture of you.Ā
you watched a smile slowly stretch across his face, āitās pretty, isnāt it?ā
you still felt a little dazed, āi didnāt know you kept a photo of me in your wallet.āĀ
āwhere else would i keep it?ā he asked, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.Ā
wanting more answers, you pressed, āwhen did you even take this?āĀ
he rolled his eyes playfully, putting his hands on your waist and pulling you close, āforever ago, peach. i donāt even remember putting it in there, thatās how long iāve had it. pretty sure iāve shown it to all the members too. i canāt believe you didnāt know it was in here.āĀ
it was your turn to roll your eyes, āyou never told me.āĀ
āwell, you never asked.ā
suddenly your eyes felt misty, you are so touched by this simple act of love heād decided to show you. but that was how wonwoo loved: quiet and constant, unwavering.Ā
tldr: little ways he shows he loves you
a/n: i am...back? i've got some stuff cooking...
seungcheol: inherits your beef
heās ride-or-die for you. if someone wrongs you, they wrong him too. it doesnāt matter how big or small the grudge is, heās siding with you, ten toes down. youāre his baby, nothing beats that. heās standing by your side, no matter what.Ā
jeonghan: never yells at you
he just canāt. heās not really a yeller to begin with; heās generally a soft-spoken guy and even more so around you. he speaks to you in dulcet tones, even when heās pissed. he treats you with care and respect. heād never raise his voice at you, not in a million years.Ā
joshua: heās on the outside
when youāre walking in the street, heās 100% walking closest to the street. he wants you on the inside so he can protect you from stray puddle splashes or rogue bicyclists. he wants you safe. he even sits on the outside edge of the booth at every restaurant on every date.Ā
jun: cuts your meat for you
you are perfectly capable of cutting your own steak, but you havenāt in the years since dating jun. it started one afternoon when youād just gotten your nails done and didn't want to mess them up. after that, the habit stuck and you havenāt had to lift a knife in years.
soonyoung: hypes you up
got a new outfit? heās telling you how good you look. turning in a project or assignment? heās telling you how capable you are. he loves giving you praise, letting you know how proud he is of you. heās your biggest cheerleader.Ā
wonwoo: keeps a photo of you in his wallet
heās a classically romantic kind of guy. he keeps his favorite photo of you tucked into the back of his wallet, hidden where only he can see it. when you two are apart, it really grounds him to see your face. he takes so many photos and loves this one the most. itās slightly out of focus because he took it when he was laughing, and your matching smile is reflected back in the photo.Ā Ā
jihoon: holds your bagsĀ
those big muscles are not just for show, he puts them to use for you. and its not just your purse. heāll hold your backpack, your shopping bags, and the groceries (all at one time if need be). if you drive, heāll also hold your purse for you in the passenger seat of the car so it doesnāt get dirty on the floor.Ā
seokmin: always laughs at your jokes
like, genuine laughs from his belly at every single joke you make. he thinks you are the funniest person heās ever met. you two have matching senses of humor and you just love to laugh together. if his members think heās loud by himself, he's twice as loud when youāre around.Ā
mingyu: packs your lunch
heās in the kitchen every night packing you something to take to work the next day. he cares about you. he wants you to eat well and live forever with him. so heās packing you nutritious meals and little sweet treats to make your day bright. he also sneaks in little post-it notes of love confessions that make you blush in the office.Ā
minghao: never says no to you
you are his most treasured thing, someone he holds near and dear to his heart. he finds it impossible to say no to you when you ask him for something or to do something for you, and you know this, but you know better than to abuse this power, most of the timeā¦
seungkwan: always says yes to a sweet treatĀ
and heāll pay for it too. he knows if he says he doesnāt want one, youāll change your mind so he always says yes. he loves seeing how excited you get for an ice cream at the convenience store around the corner or a chocolate bar from a vending machine in the hybe cafeteria. heāll never deny your sweet tooth.Ā
hansol: adds your song recommendations to his playlist
he takes his playlists very seriously, and he takes your opinions very seriously so when you recommend songs to bim, he trusts you. immediately adding them to his playlist so he can listen to them when youāre apart and think of you.Ā
chan: keeps a list of everything you like on his phone
the list is long and divided into categories. He has food preferences from your coffee order all the way down to the hotpot sauce you always make. he has your menstrual product preference: type, brand, and size. he knows your allergies, your shoe size, and even the brand of cat food you buy. he wants to be prepared for anything you might ask of him.Ā
its really stressing me out cuz i graduated and now im a doctor
( im the one who needs a doctor)
any advice cuz im so fcking scared ?
btw love your writing so much hope you come back to writing š¤šš»
congratulations!!!
i have no advice, my life is running on vibes alone. iām tying to prioritize myself now that school is over and get back into the things i like doing (like writing).
yes! iām working on a couple things rn. fun fact about me, i just finished my masters degree so i have a bunch more free time now that im not in school. :)
tldr: all the way jihoon uses your nickname
a/n: can anyone guess where the nickname 'bee' comes from?
chastises: when you goof off in the gym
ābee, donāt fuck around in here.ā heās stern when he speaks to you, interrupting your goofing off. you couldnāt help it. this happens every time you come to the gym with him. you always got bored about 15 minutes into his workout. and his workouts can stretch on and on.Ā
ādonāt act innocent.ā your eyes go wide, surprised at his tone, even when youāve come to expect it. the only reason you still come to the gym with him is because you like to see his muscles all sweaty. you couldn't care less about the expensive equipment around you. you only care about the grumpy man looking at you with his arms crossed.Ā
āi donāt know why you bother coming with me.ā heās walking closer to you, crossing the humid space to crowd you against the mirrored wall. once heās reached you, he comes in really close, and you can smell the minty toothpaste on his breath. your eyes slip closed, anticipating whatās to come, only to jump when his voice rings out, harsh against your ear, āgive me a mile on the treadmill, bee.ā
giggles: even though the kitchen is now a mess
ābee!ā heās bent over laughing at the surprised look on your face. the kimchi youād been fermenting in the fridge just exploded all over the counter when you opened it and he bore witness to the whole thing, even the way it splattered all over you, wrecking the skincare youād just finished after your shower.Ā
āi canāt believe that just happened,ā heās breathless, still laughing at the way your mouth dropped to a perfect āoā shape as the kimchi juices ricocheted across the small kitchen in your apartment. his laughing only redoubled as he caught sight of the pout on your lips, now that youād overcome the shock.Ā
āiām sorry, that was crazy.ā he only conceded when he noticed how deep the frown was on your face. he knew youād been excited to make your own kimchi and it had gone completely wrong. he did feel badly about that, but he also couldnāt wait to tell his members about this. he would tell them later, but now he smiled gently at you, ācome on, letās get this mess cleaned up, bee.ā
mumbles: when heās nervous
ābee,ā you barely hear it, but after years of being in these dressing rooms, you donāt miss it. the dressing room is a blur of motion. opening night of his and soonyoungās WARNING tour had arrived after months of preparation and hard work.Ā and it was all culminating in about an hour when they took the stage. you could already hear the crowd filtering into the venue.Ā
ācome here, please,ā he reaches for you, and immediately, youāre by his side. you pretend not to notice the shakiness in his hands as you hold them. you pretend not to notice the waver in his voice when he speaks to you. you know by now that calling attention to his nerves only makes them worse. it surprised you the first time you came backstage with him, how nervous he gets before a show, but now this is routine, silently sitting together, breathing in sync and calm.Ā
āthank you for being here.ā his lips barely move, and he doesn't turn to you when he speaks, but you know heās sincere. he always says thank you, like youād be anywhere else right now. like you didn't feel incredibly lucky to be his grounding, his rock. but you donāt reply, jut lean your head on his shoulder and smile when he presses a soft, quick kiss to your head. ālove you, bee.ā
grunts: when he grabs your stuff
ābee-ā heās huffing, but those big muscles are not just for show; he puts them to use for you. youād spread your stuff out all over the studio, and now it was time to go home. you usually travel a little lighter, but you knew youād be spending the entire day there with him and needed things to entertain yourself while he worked, so you had filled your backpack full of your various hobbies.Ā
āwhatās in here?ā he slung your brightly colored backpack over his shoulder, looking a little lopsided despite his own black backpack on the other shoulder. you just smiled at him, glad that you didnāt have to schlep that huge bag, and give him a little peck on the cheek, thanking him for carrying your things. he doesnāt need thanks, though; heās happy to do this for you.Ā
ādonāt forget your keys.ā he points to them on the table in front of you, knowing your mind was already elsewhere, probably thinking about the dinner you were going to order as soon as you got home. he watched you grab your keys and turn towards the doorthen taps your shoulder and puckered his lips, ādonāt forget this, either, bee.ā
monotones: and it scares everyone
ābee.ā this is how he answers your call and everyone in the universe factory goes quiet, trying to appear like they aren't listening when they absolutely are. he bobs his head from side to side and fiddles with the mouse on his desk, fidgeting while he listens to you with a serious expression. the studio feels tense.Ā
āyeah, do whatever you want.ā his voice holds no malice but the other guys in the room still exchange nervous glances with each other, unable to read his mood. only when he hangs up after a brief goodbye does he notice the shift in the room. he looks around, wondering if he missed something while on the phone.Ā
āwhy is it weird in here?ā when no one answers him, he shrugs, turning back to his monitor and the song, half-done, in front of him. a few tense minutes pass, no one sure if they should bring up his curt conversation with you when suddenly there's a knock on the door. the mechanical whirl of the lock is heard, and then there you are, food in hand. he turns, smiles wide, and everyone lets out a sigh of relief when he says, āhey, bee.ā
saw someone say they feel bad and awkward ācontributing nothingā to fandom (āno fics, no drawings, no theories, just gluttonyā) and to anyone who feels inferiority about this i gotta say us creators, doing things for free, love nothing more than your unbridled spiralling greed in our notifications aka genuinely be more unapologetically gluttonous 24/7 there is nothing wrong with enjoying something insatiably because us writers and artists feel empty and despairing without a passionate audience and feral surroundings so please and thank you and we love you
tldr: kinks i think each of the members have (MINORS DNI)
a/n: do not read too much into this, i was just having fun...(i want them so bad)
seungcheol: dominance
this man is a DOM. he requires submission from his partners. he likes to be in charge of basically every aspect of the relationship. heās planning dates, heās paying, heās driving, and heās commanding you around the bedroom at the end of the night. heās just a control freak, okay?
jeonghan: crying
he just likes seeing you cry, okay? seeing your eyes all misty and hazy with pleasure makes him feel so powerful. he might not be the most active in bed, he gets tired easily, okay? but sometimes he takes it so far that youāre sobbing around him, which pushes him to take it further.
joshua: bondage
doesnāt matter if heās tied up or you are, but he loves to break out the rope and play. when heās tied up he likes the vulnerability of it. he loves handing control over to you and letting his mind turn to mush. the same goes for when youāre the one bound. he loves that you have that much trust in him.Ā
junhui: impact play
has MANY toys to hit you with (lovingly). floggers, whips, riding crops, paddles, he has it all. he also likes receiving these hits. his favorite thing is seeing the marks on yours and his skin lingering for days after your intimate moments together, especially when youāre apart. gives him something to remember you by when heās away.Ā
soonyoung: dirty talk
his yapping knows no bounds. he says the craziest shit when you two are together. just the filthiest crap coming ou of his mouth. he doesnāt even realize heās saying it. when youāre basking in the afterglow, youāll ask him if he actually meant what he said in the throes of passion and he truly cannot remember what youāre even talking about.Ā
wonwoo: begging
he wouldnāt be caught dead begging but you on the other hand? it drives him crazy listening to your desperation. hearing your rushed words pleading for him makes him feel dizzy with need. the power he has over you mades his head spin.Ā
jihoon: public sex, more like, studio sex
heās not like, fucking you in a park. however he is fucking you in his studio with all the lights off but with the blinds open. heās fairly certain no one can see in, since youāve never been caught before, but something about the thrill of potentially being caught thrills him. and having you in the most intimate way in his favorite place? nothing beats it.Ā
seokmin: praise
giving and receiving, of course. he loves to tell you how good you are for him. how good you feel, how much he loves and appreciates you. but something about those words coming from you? knowing heās making you feel that good? god, he loves it. call him āgood boyā and watch him come completely undone.Ā
mingyu: being told what to do
i know a lot of people think this man is a dom, and he might be, but i think heās more of a service top. he wants to please you in any way imaginable. boss him around a little bit and heāll bend to your every whim. he puts your pleasure before his own so just tell him what you want and heāll obey.Ā
minghao: lingirie
he likes pretty things. seeing you in pretty things does something to him. he likes shopping for lingerie and likes seeing you in it. plot twist: he also likes wearing lingerie. he wants to feel pretty for you. so heāll slip into something lacy before your most intimate moments, knowing itāll turn you (and him) into a mess.Ā
seungkwan: phone sex
heās gone a lot okay? so heās gotten really good at having long-distance sex. whether it be text, a voice call, or a video, he can get you off anywhere. mostly enjoys having you all to himself on the phone in his hotel room but will indulge your needs if itās dire by texting you the nastiest things from the make-up chair with the brightness on his phone turned all the way down.Ā
vernon: orgasm controlĀ
heās a little evil, actually. he likes seeing you all strung out, whether it be because youāre completely overstimulated or begging to finally get the release heās been edging you with. he has a lot of control in the bedroom, prolonging his own release until he has you right where he wants you.Ā
chan: spit
he loves how powerful it makes him feel. looking down at you with your mouth hanging open, waiting for his spit on your tongue. watching you swallow so submissively makes him feral. he knows you feel the same way. propped up in his lap, looking at his blown-out eyes while he waits for you to spit on him makes you both go crazy.Ā
