so. um. hello
it's been. quite a while.
i'm here to say, this. might be the permanent end of this account. it took a lot of thought, but. i think i'm going to delete this blog. and everything on it.
admittedly, this isn't because i hate this blog or who i was when it was created. but because i've come to terms with who i was. i was naive and edgy and sorta mean. i was also stubborn and never took anything seriously.
however, i've also come to terms with the fact that i was under a lot of pressure at such a young age. a rough relationship with my family, a toxic boyfriend who couldn't care less about my feelings, and a feeling of complete loneliness and helplessness. this blog was my edgy, not at all serious little coping mechanism. and honestly? i think i'm finally ready to let go of it all and move on.
to anyone who's been here from the beginning, thank you. you gave younger me more joy than anyone or anything else could have, at the time of this blog's creation. and i thank you for that from the bottom of my heart. people say online friends aren't real friends. but to be completely honest, i definitely considered yall my friends, back then. maybe that's stupid to admit, but it was a fun run.
i do still make art and stories [mostly fanfics] and talk about them on my other account if anyone wants to follow me there [@trashgoblincreature] and i also have a new jsab blog which. while i haven't worked on it often, i do plan to be more active there, once in a while [@jsabfreshnewbeginningsau]. there's also my discord [trash_g0blin] if anyone wants to talk
so. if i do delete this blog, it will probably be in about a week. until then, i hope yall are doing well <3
~ Goblin [p.s. Goblin is one of the nicknames i go by now. yall once knew me as Al back when i was still convinced i was cis lmao]
