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[chersome]

Finding strength in your weakest time is courage. Knowing that your on the edge but you always choose to keep going is strength. But what do you call a person who hides pain and poses a smile around the people who hang unto her? Hypocrite? Fake? Or just a person, being human enough to show that she can carry on despite the weight on her.

[chersome]

I’m stuck

But I know what to do

I just can’t to do it

Because it’s tiresome

And exhaustion can just lead me to settle

It feels safe

But not in a good way

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I love too much, and that’s me.

I don’t know if I’m giving more for them or I am doing less for my self. Or maybe both at the same time.

I’m scared I can’t do something about it, and that’s on me.

[chersome]

Don’t deprive yourself of happiness just because you've been hurt. And pain, and sadness is the only way to show what you've been through.

Try to be kind to yourself as well. Life is so precious, live happily.

[chersome]

The number of people who likes or reacts to my social meadia accounts does not matter to me.

But the number of people who asks "How are you?" does.

[chersome]

For those who are fighting an unspokable battle, this is for you;

Laban lang.

[chersome]

Oh boy, i feel you here.

There are times when you want to express what you really want to say but don't want other people to judge you if you say the wrong thing.

[chersome]

Totoo pala yung burnout nuh? I just realize it now.

Napakahirap nyang, maranasan.

Actually hindi lang hirap yung mararamdaman mo.

Pagod, sakit, at ubos.

Nakaka-miss yung feeling na gigising ka tapos alam mo sa sarili mo yung mga dapat mong gawin.

Ngayon kasi, pakiramdam ko madami akong gustong gawin pero wala akong lakas na gawin yung mga yun.

Magbabasa ka ng mga self help books, pero walang pumapasok kasi ramdam mo pa rin yung pagod.

Manunuod ka ng mga how to's sa youtube pero walang magagawa yun kasi iiyak ka lang din mamaya nang di mo malamang dagilan.

Titingin ka sa salamin tapos sasabihin mo sa sarili mo na kaya mo pero wala eh. Mararamdaman mo lang na down na down ka.

Nakakapagod na.

Gusto mong maramdaman ulit yung fire mo to do things you wanted but then you'll just suddenly see yourself watching mukbangs, playing mobile games, eating anything you crave for wishing it could help you somehow relieve the sadness you feel...

Nakakapagod kahit wala naman talaga akong ginagawa.

I know it's draining me inside.

And deep down, gustong gusto ko na sumuko pero kumakapit pa din ako kasi alam ko hindi naman ako nag-iisa eh. Nandyan si God alam ko, pinapanuod nya ko.

Masakit at nakakapagod man ngayon. Umaasa ako may maganda bukas or araw din ako na masisilayan.

Ayokong makinig sa sinasabi nila na wala akong ginagawa para bumangon. Hindi nila alam kung ano yung nasa isip ko, si God lang nakakaalam.

Kaya nakakapagod na araw araw kang maju-judge kasi nakikita nila outside mukha akong walang ginagawa, tamad na tamad, at walang ibang ginawa kundi tumapat sa cellphone.

Ayoko din naman kung ano yung nangyayari sakin ngayon, gustong gusto ko din naman yung may ginagawa ako paggising ko.

Pero..

Anong gagawin ko kung wala akong ganang gawin yung mga bagay na dati masigla akong ginagawa.

Anong gagawin ko kung hindi na ako masayang bumabangon araw-araw.

At anong gaggawin ko kung sa bawat araw na didilat yung mga mata ko, wala akong ganang kumilos kasi napagod akong umiyak kagabi?

Kaya sana, sana lang po. Matapos na tong mga araw na to. Miss ko na yung sarili ko na bumabangon ng masigla araw araw.

[chersome]

How to say "I want to leave" to someone, without actually telling them you want to leave?

[chersome]

Sometimes I void my own true feelings, just because I'm tired of explaining how i really feel.

[chersome]

Kapag napagod ka, pwede ka huminto.

Kapag hindi ka okay, pwede ka umiyak.

Kapag nahihirapan ka na, pwede ka magpahinga.

Sa lahat ng pagkakataon na pakiramdam mo susuko ka na.

Iisipin mo laging madaling sabihin na ayaw mo na, pero aalalahanin mo palagi kung bakit mo sinimulan yung bagay na ginagawa mo ngayon.

Bakit mo pinipiling gawin pa rin kahit alam mong nakakapagod.

At kung para saan itong ginagawa mo.

Kasi bawat sakit, bawat pagod at bawat bagsak may karapatan tayong huminto at magpahingi.

Kaya laban lang, kaya natin yan. Laban pa, matatapos din to.

🤎

[chersome]

You fly without thinking what's down below because your so happy at the moment. But then with a sudden repercussion you see the highest place you've reach become smaller and smaller as you're now falling down from what you thought a place you could forever live with.

[chersome]

Thissss emoji finally.

[chersome]

Here’s an album for you… CALM 5 Seconds of Summer

I badly needed to calm down somewhere far from home

[chersome]

[05.12.2020 01:03 (GMT+8)]

Breakfast at Tiffany's

Ang ganda lang. Sa una hindi ko pa maintindihan kung ano magiging takbo ng storya eh. Pero unti unti nagkakaron na ng kulay yung bawat character. Lalo na si Holly Golightly, sya yubg tipo ng babae na nasobrahan ng free will sa katawan. Yung tipong sasabihin nya lahat ng gusto nya sabihin. Opinion nya sa mundo open sya. And at the same time uses it at her own advantage to take benefits from higher people. Sa kagustuhan nyang magkapera at makasama yung kapatid nya. Then, come along Mr. Innocent looking guy on the outside but paid pushover on the inside. Paul Varjak, aspiring writer but not proud of it. At first, he was happy of what was seems normal of his life. He do things with the companion of his "friend with benefit" 2-E who "support his life". But since Paul met Holly, she taught her one thing. She said to him "you're a real writer"

[chersome]

Almost

Quite

Yet

Queue

Maybe

Words spoken when you're "close enough"

Words you pronounced when you "don't want to be left behind"

Words followed by "wait for me"

Words you say when you want "something yo happen"

I wish upon the star i had said it.

How i want the clock reverse.

Be the one your wishing for.

[chersome]

It so exhilarating

Look at the other side.