#notestoyou

[chersome]

Don’t deprive yourself of happiness just because you've been hurt. And pain, and sadness is the only way to show what you've been through.

Try to be kind to yourself as well. Life is so precious, live happily.

[viewsfromvirginia]

I aspire...

To inspire. To be nothing but love. Understanding. Honest with myself. Honest with others. Stern. Stern enough to honestly express my concerns and cancel those that do not feed my spirit. Letting them go with peace, and as I close that chapter, never turn back to that page. I aspire to be happy. Genuinely and whole heartedly happy. I aspire to make others happy. I aspire to never judge, but if I can help guide someone to a clearer path, be as free minded as I can be to do so. I aspire to love.

[emrausch3]

Evening feels.

[4amsheets]

Mt vsvs

Don’t nag, scold or complain. Don’t keep checking up and being over protective about your signifcant others feelings. Focus on your own feelings and problems. Believe me if you dig deep enough you will find them..I apologize for allowing a codependent relationship to form. You pulling away from me. I get it. I put so much pressure on you feeling better sometimes. It was never how I intended to come off. I just wanted to figure out ways to somehow make things better for us and show you I cared. Saying that “I’m proud of you” or “good job” was a shit bag move. It can have the complete opposite effect intended and sound condescending. I should of let you face your own problems more. But given what we had to deal with around us.. it was harder than you think to take the backseat. I love you unconditionally. You never see these things if you don’t talk about them or until you have a view from hindsight.

[buncy495]

Let me burn

The sad truth about all of this is that you were the long term running dream I always had. The things you've said, the way you would look at me, the way I felt. All of it. Down to word for word conversations we had. I had those conversations so many times in my head and time after time they played out in front of me and I just couldn't believe it. How could I have gotten this lucky?! Their is no fucking way I could get this lucky... unfortunately like with most everything else in my life I wasn't that lucky. I never tried so hard for anything in my life then I did you. One day you posted a pic of a bracelet and earring set with the heart eye emoji, so what did I do? I replayed that snap 10 times to get the numbers off the tag and found it. And I was 50/50 on getting you that for Valentine's Day but I knew I wouldn't get a chance to see to to give it to you so I sent you Flowers. But their is still a bookmark on my phone of Macy's with that bracelet that I hoped one day to get you. But I doubt I ever will now. I will never get to take you to all those places we talked about. I'll never get to see you look at me like you did before. Its a sad day when you see the change in the thing you thought was to good to be true.. but life isn't fair, things don't work out. So goes the tragedy that we call this human condition. Even tho I know that all this is nothing more than a chemical trick your brain plays on you further along the human race. But that doesn't make it any less real, it doesn't take away the sting of seeing that beautiful face not smile like it did before. Knowing that when your phone goes off the excitement that once filled your bones is replaced with indifference and disappointment. And out if everything the thing that kills me the most of that I feel like I let you down, and god was that the one thing I never wanted to do. I would have burned the world down around me if I thought it would save you tear.. and now I have to burn myself..

[nomasgravedad]

Como todo y como todos..

Y aqui me tienen a la 1 y media de la manana .. regosijandome en la delicia de la insertidumbre, tratando de encontrar la mejor manera de hacer paz con mi propio interior y poner en order mi vida. encontrar lo que realmente quiero y ponerme en frecuencia con ello.

[asdfghjeca]

Feel free to leave me if ever you feel like doing so. 💔