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Met Kate Mulgrew today. She shoot my hand as my husband gushed about what she means to me. I have a funeral to go to in the morning, and this woman, without knowing it has helped me through this and worse.

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I did a thing and actually left the house this weekend. The six mile hike was worth it! We got high enough up that everything is still frozen! Lizard Lake is so beautiful and calm. My writing brain knows there's a story here!

#hiking #always a battle #frozen lakes #nature #the way down was just as bad #lizard and lily lakes #washington

I'm back. Kind of.

So yeah guys, depression is no joke. I've been on hiatus from most of life including social media. It's helping me reset and ground myself. I finally feel okay enough to actually get online.

Things always get better, I know.

But in the thick of it, in the suicidal ball under the covers when one side of your addled mind is encouraging you to get your surgical kit and do your worst and the only thing holding you back is the tiny voice of exhaustion and not wanting to have to get said kit or make a mess, it's hard to see outside of yourself.

I've been battling with anxiety as a fun companion too. Throwing up on my doorstep on my way to work, finally getting it together enough to drive (I haven't been riding the motorcycle, because it would be just too easy to let go) just to get to work shaking, crying, and utterly confused as to why it won't stop.

And just to stir it up, it's all been interspersed with three hour long panic attacks that leave my nervous system misfiring so bad that it feels worse than the flu.

Medication has literally saved my life. Therapy has saved my sanity, and I feel solidly grounded and very okay. It's an uphill battle. But you know what? I'm still here.

#trigger warning #depression #anxiety #it gets better

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“Healing doesn’t mean the damage never existed. It means the damage no longer controls my life.”

— Akshay Dubey

thecaptainandhercommander

“I don’t even have blood in my veins anymore. It’s just coffee.”

— Ravenclaw (via shitthehousessay)

cheyfwriting

True Story.

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agni-bi

I… I… definitely thought this was about some fucked up fetish involving racism and cannibalism and not like, comparing POC skin tones to chocolate and caramel and shit

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Let me add that cannibalism is also wrong.

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I’m seeing so much hate going around and it makes my heart ache so here are some adorable pictures that will hopefully make your day a little better even if it’s only for a few minutes.

And along with that, here’s a friendly and gentle reminder for you:

Reblog to make someone else happy.

Have a good rest of your day/night.

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(via Tintu-Mon added 11 new photos)

“Respect to Nature.”

Humans adapting themselves to nature rather than forcing other species to adapt to us. This is what we must do in the Anthropocene. Trees are the most important three dimensional structures of many ecosystems, and they are the central design features of most permaculture gardens. They provide many products and services to other species, from housing to food (acorns, insects, pollen), shade and shelter from the wind. We ought to respect their importance.

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THIS IS WHAT LIFE SHOULD BE AM SO FUCKING ABOUT THIS

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How it should be.

Honeymoon Snorkeling

We've decided that turtles are my spirit animal. Every time I get in the ocean, they gravitate towards me!

One of my favorite memories was when I was body surfing when a storm was coming in. I looked beside me and I had a turtle buddy for quite a while catching the good waves.

We also went sea kayaking and snorkeling off the coast!

<3

#maui #turtles #honeymoon #snorkeling #oceans #hawaii #don't touch the turtles #just surf with them #all photos are my own #please ask to borrow #nature #underwater photography #it's so quiet #undertow

Apparently I need to stop forgetting I have two tumblrs. I keep ignoring this one by accident. To anyone who has mentioned me or asked me something in the last few months, sorry!

#so bad at this #but the other one is rocking #ugh #some day i'll find balance