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And words echo through my mind, like knives being thrown at me, my mind cant find any solace... the walls i had are now crumbling with fatigue... insecurities dance across my melancholy thoughts, poking fun of what someone might love about me, if that's even possible.... oh... the rhythm starts again it seems...

#poetry #im sorry #sad poem #sad thoughts

I'm just destined to live a life begging to be loved, yet never reaching that goal...

Fickle and feeble my heart may seem.. the realities that grasp my mind are tumultuous, poison fills the hole that you left.....piercing my soul only to shred it to pieces... the internal agony dances across the somber remnants that are referred to as scars... only to fade with time, never as they were...

...I thought this was supposed to make me strong...why is it that I feel so weak...

Dim lit somber meloncholies, which my heart identifies as rhetorical insights fill my mind with doubt and judgment, for I am the only perfectionist of my own creation

Writings of a rose whose thorns have hurt you, does this muse entertain you? Does it completely move you? Was it worth it to grab those thorns knowing you'd bleed? Does the rose become satiated? Did you commit to this rose knowing you'd get hurt? The bird... she tried to warn you... but you reached out and told her she's just a silly bird, she can't possibly understand..... the bird understood.. not only did the bird understand, but the bird tried to be just as arrogant as yourself... only to learn the hard way of what lie ahead... the rose turns from a porcelain white to an ivory red.. soaked with your blood.. though minor cuts, they still sting... the bird murmurs somberly.. "Was it worth it? Do you still wish to grab this rose? The beauty may be captivating... but the pain it causes.. you must end this and heal yourself. " You don't listen... you only sink your hand further into the thorns... "You couldn't understand.. this is what it means.. this is love. This has to be right..." you say tears streaming down your face. The bird pleads with you.. "You can't keep doing this to yourself.. it pains me to see. " You shoo the bird off, as you slowly realize the flower keeps taking more and more of your blood, you ponder if maybe that bird was right... then, suddenly, the flower speaks in an eerie voice.. "Is this all you have to give? Must I find a better suitor?" "No please don't go," you plead, the flower unphased while you are in distress, worried to go back to being alone, "I will give you my all," you proclaim. The beautiful rose cares not how much you give, just that it is given... the bird circles back, and to their surprise, you've aged horribly.. you look as a shell of your former self.. "You haven't let go yet, have you?" The bird asks, knowing full well the answer.. you respond, "I can make it work, I just have to give more." The bird somberly flies away once more... this time, you notice the scars on the birds' feet.. they oddly resemble the thorns of the rose... suddenly the light returns to your once dead eyes...

#muse writes #short prompt #somber #gothstyle #story prompt #poetic #deep thinking #relationships #love #literotica #literature #welcome to my twisted mind #intrigue #intricacies #intimacy #Spotify

I posted all my drafts oops

tarithenurse

Just a little heads up to the lovely readers of Nightingale and Spark:

Updates will be delayed this week due to something called “Life” and “Work”. Not sure what it’s about, but it seems to be taking a lot of energy at the moment.

Sorry.

(But not really, ‘cause it’s good to take care of one self)

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tarithenurse

Ahhh…the joy of completing the next chapter of a fanfic wip.

…too bad it’s not the one that’s coming up in the rotation :/ I just wrote chapter 40 for Nightingale…but I ought to focus on Spark.

Actually! I ought to sleep but it’s first night after nightshifts so: LOL! As if!

tarithenurse

I…I don’t know why you’re getting so agressive? Don’t you like when I post?

And also…YOU started it!!

maladaptive-ninja-returns

And there’s still more to come

tarithenurse

I’ll direct all the blame and tears from my few other readers over to you.

dbnostalgia

pukicho

times over pukicho. now its time you ask us ratfuck

Oh okay hey what’s your favorite movie

Starting up this blog again here's to hoping something comes from it

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makingmoss

i’ll look forward to hearing your statement if you ever make it out

hiveswap

Do americans actually live like this

shortgremlinman

Ai generated photo right. Right?

ruffboi-mags

that looks like an entirely normal suburban american neighborhood so if its AI-generated, it’s realistically done.

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bogleech

So the rest of the world watches our movies and in a lot of our movies we mock and satirize the eeriness and soullessness of these manufactured communities but I’m guessing you guys thought it was exaggeration

bogleech

Okay I’ll elaborate further:

America does have cute quaint little suburbs as well, but also many many gated communities and housing developments designed to be built as quickly, cheaply and easily as possible. They completely clear a patch of land first, literally they dig it down to an expanse of barren dirt and then they carpet it with grass and erect these literally mass produced houses on it. These places are expensive to live in and they enforce rules that you can’t decorate your yard or the outside of your house any differently from the other homes.

The area where I grew up used to be rolling hills and forests and is now 90% these places in just my lifetime.

Some non Americans also think the two hour walk is exaggerated but even without living in one of these, for most of my life walking to a grocery store in America would have taken longer than that. America is spread out over a gigantic continent and there are no laws or rules ensuring that there’s food for sale within so many miles of residences or anything. Public transportation doesn’t go everywhere, either. I didn’t even see a real city bus until maybe my later 20s.

In most of this country you’re completely fucked if you don’t have access to a car. None of this ever occurred to me as unusual until I saw so many people from around the world just aghast at it all. We grow up here just assuming it’s using the same template for society as everywhere else.

meckamecha

Very important to note that these places also very often have irregular street layouts to try and SEEM quaint, so unless you cut through people’s yards (which is illegal and likely to get the cops called on you in a lot of places), you’ll have to take a winding, often deliberately obtuse route. So a trip that would be 15 minutes by car if streets were laid out in a grid often gets extended to 30 or 45 minutes, because everything is so spread out and indirect.

Also, it’s not that there aren’t laws or rules ensuring there are places to get food in residential areas, there are laws and rules ensuring there AREN’T places to get food.

Most housing in the US is in areas that are zoned as R-1, which means the only things allowed to be built there are single-family, detached houses. No stores/shops, no multiplexes, no apartments. MAYBE a public park and MAYBE one or two administrative buildings, but don’t hold your breath on those.

If you want to go shopping, you’ll need to drive down to a shopping center. Because you have to drive there, the roads are designed for an extremely high volume of traffic, so many places have stores sitting on four to eight lane roads with traffic speeds of at least 45 mph (about 70kph), with no sidewalks, multiple intersections with other four to eight lane roads, and frequent places where drivers are entering and exiting the traffic flow to and from parking lots.

Those areas often wind up with their landscapes dominated by billboard ads for personal injury lawyers who will represent you if you’re in a traffic accident.

radicalurbanista

as an urban planner, I want everyone to know how much this hellscape is desired by the white middle class (the target market for these developments).

This is the result of

Individualist society whose driven purpose of settlement is becoming a “king of their own castle”

Settler colonial society needing to occupy and waste as much land as possible to initiate its colonization

Capitalist society that develops what’s cheapest.

Patriarchal society that isolates families to be ruled by a father.

Classist society that needs to create barriers to entry.

Police/war society that wants to maximize surveillance.

Cultureless white society that can’t imagine a built environment that fosters social cultural development.

I could expand but the USA has this lifeless surreal development because it itself is a lifeless simulated society that drives settler colonial expansion within the confines of capitalism.