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My coming out story - a funny yet shameful (?) anecdote

OK Pride Month is over but let me tell you my COMING OUT STORY.

I'm pansexual. I've known that since I was 13ish. My first relationship ever was with a woman (I'm AFAB) at 16. She was a classmate and I was crushing on her SO BAD I didn't freaking believe my luck when I realised she was flirting with me.

For a bit of a background, my parents have always been pro-love and open-minded, but I did try to come out to my dad when I was 14 and it went... meh? Basically my dad told me I was too young to know who I was attracted to, and that he wanted grandchildren (??????? lol never wanted any but ok). So I kind of forgot all about my sexual identity until I was like 15 and started telling my lesbian friend "oh if I was attracted to women I'd definitely be into this lady but well too bad haha hahaha ha". So yeah, coming out a second time wasn't gonna be easy.

Anyway. I go out with this girl ; let's call her Jenny. We've been going steady for like, 4 weeks (lol). It's HALLOWEEN. She invites me at her place. Her parents aren't home. Well, she knew it, I knew it, we were going to SMASH. (spoiler: we did smash, it went great)

Anyway, a few week after the fateful night, I decide to come out to my parents.

I'm stressed OUT. I'm 16. My parents are difficult conversations-avoidant (meaning they'll yell whenever but will never sit down with you to have an actual talk about issues, unless someone died). I sit them down, inform them I have something important to tell them. And it goes like this:

Me: Do you remember my friend Jenny? She came at my birthday last week?

My parents: yeah?

(I'm nauseous, my heart is beating so quickly it's almost flying out of my mouth at this point)

Me: Well, she's not my friend. She's my girlfriend. We're going out.

Mom : Oh, I knew it.

(cue my dad and I turning our head around at the exact same time to look at her)

Dad and me: ???????????? how???????????????????????????

(malicious smile on my mother's face)

Mom : Well, for Halloween, you went to her place to """watch a movie""".

(ok alright)

There were only the two of you.

(I see what you mean there)

Oh, and the day before, you waxxed your legs for THREE WHILE HOURS.

Yeah.

Cut to me crying of relief and my parents hugging me.

so yeah. not only did my mom figure out I had a girlfriend, she also knows when I lost my virginity.

(we've never talked about it again)

#pansexuality #pride #lgbtq #queer #lesbian #sapphic #coming-out #comingout #coming out #i love my parents so much #thanks mom #bisexual

The link between TTRPG (and especially Dimension 20) and audio drama is so thin and interconnected that the Silt Verses creator called for Brennan Lee Mulligan during the release announcement of The Silt Verses RPG, and Brennan played in an AD played by some of my favourite audio drama writers.

All interconnected through anticapitalism and queerness and great acting.

#audio drama #dimension 20 #ttrpg #audiobooks #audio fiction

resonancepodcasts

Hey audio drama fans, do you speak French?

If you do (or even if you sort of understand it, it's fine, we don't speak too quickly) you may want to give our show, Thanatoscope, a listen!

Thanatoscope is a 6-episodes multi-genre anthology. Its theme is Human(ity) facing its end. There's science-fiction (a lot), dystopia, drama, sadness, and some episodes even have a poetic side to them!

Already three episodes have been released!

Oh, your French is limited, you tell me? NO WORRIES, DEAR BARELY-FRENCH-SPEAKING FRIEND, for we have ✨subtitled videos✨ on Youtube, right there : https://www.youtube.com/@R%C3%A9sonancePodcasts

You can listen to it on any platform!

Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/thanatoscope/id1802342702

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/3SmBdxmEN4kliRa31wa2k9

Deezer (French people will know this one, no worries): https://www.deezer.com/fr/show/1001720761

And other podcatcher apps, like Podbean, Podcast Addicts, etc.

Hope you like it ✨

coming back onto tumblr after years of not publishing and fiding old posts of suicidal/sort of depressed/lonely me at 18/19

Hey buddy you're 26 now, you went to therapy and you're feeling great. Feeling this lonely and sad regularly isn't normal.

You'll be okay.

#therapy

the other night i dreamt i had a ✨liaison ✨ with Lou Wilson and it was the best thing ever and good lord what a crush I have on this man

#lou wilson #dimension 20 #dropout

I am genderfluid because I want to be this guy in fanfics and music clips who will unadvertely seduce the female character with his abs and arm muscles and big smile and who gaze intensenly at her

but also i want to be the female character seduced by the abs and the arm muscles and who is taken away from my boring life

but also i want to be the weird creature watching them from the darkness in the corner of the room

#genderfluid #nonbinary #yes I wrote this after having watched a shawn mendes music video

chickensswim

Hey #audiodrama team !

I have been writing a masters thesis for the last few months about the arrival of bigger companies (QCODE, Gimlet, & co) in audio drama, monetisation of AD, and its potential consequences on independent producers.

I have recently realised that an important part of this subject is about the audience -what they listen to, what their role is... Therefore I come to you with a favour and a link: could you please reply to this form?

Thank you so much !

fullmoonandstar

Here is something op didn’t ask about but I want to say:

I wish there were more podcasts that aren’t set in the USA. Yes, some of my favorite ADs and Tv shows are set there but I also feel a little burnt out by it. It feels like every single narrative is centered around one country and nothing else of importance happens elsewhere. The world is big, give me more stories from other places!

Yes, I have some podcasts that take place elsewhere/ are by none American creators saved but not listened to yet

Another thing: what is the state of non-English language AD? Do other countries have a flourishing AD scenes??

chickensswim

Hey!!

OP here, I am actually French (although studying English-speaking AD lol).

France has got quite a bit of an audio drama scene! Which is partly the subject of my PREVIOUS masters’ thesis so here it is:

- State funded radio drama, which you can find on Arte Radio and France Culture. They make some very cool stuff (especially Arte Radio which is a bit edgy, they like making more innovative and funny stuffs). It’s not really popular (radio drama is way more popular in the UK, as an example).

- The legacy of saga MP3. Saga MP3 was SO IN in the 2000s, with a very popular AD called Le Donjon de Naheulbeuk. Kind of similar to some of the current AD’s in the style of production, meaning produced by one guy who did everything, all of the voices and the editing and the music and everything. Cheap to make. It’s a parody of D&D, geeky. Saga MP3 has lost its popularity since, but there are still people who make some. It is however “amateur”, as in people are not trying to make money out of it. There is still this legacy of parody, but some people are trying to get out of it and produce more “serious” sagas. Check out Team Javras.

- The fairly recent arrival of American-inspired big companies, who mainly produce non-fiction podcast, but sometimes produce some. We can compare them to QCODE, Gimlet, Realm... Ex: Paradiso Media. (if I can however advise one of those bigger-budget podcasts: Le Nuage, by Nouvelles Ecoutes. It’s great, female main character. Think : the equivalent of Chernobyl in France, due to climate change)

- And perhaps even more recently, individuals that have experience in the cinema/acting field, and who are producing their own AD themselves, inspired by radio drama & saga MP3. They produce great quality content, and we should definitely look out for them in the future. Look up Medhi Bayad.

The great thing about France is that we have a rather good support system for artists and creators; lots of funds that creators can apply to. There aren’t a lot for AD right now, but I am sure that as podcasts are becoming more popular, there will be more sprouting around everywhere !

Hey #audiodrama team !

I have been writing a masters thesis for the last few months about the arrival of bigger companies (QCODE, Gimlet, & co) in audio drama, monetisation of AD, and its potential consequences on independent producers.

I have recently realised that an important part of this subject is about the audience -what they listen to, what their role is... Therefore I come to you with a favour and a link: could you please reply to this form?

Thank you so much !

what is cool with my tumblr is that I don’t have any relative there so I can say how much I feel terrible and how I feel like dying but no one will know and will want to talk about it with me