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“i live in my dreams - that's what you sense. other people live in dreams, but not in their own. that's the difference.' - hermann hesse

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am I—am I getting too old for tumblr.com?

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I decided, I’m not leaving the house for less than $150 per hour/session

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Watching the light go out of your friends eyes when the relationship they thought would go the distance ends..

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I am either having a really really bad evening or an allergic reaction to a mango

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AI braids. This just pissed me tf off

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someone on here said if you want healthy romantic love you have to deal with your shame. And yes

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notes from my journal on March 5th: “what a great pen! Thank god for Mariah Carey!”

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Santigold - Starstruck

d00mscrvll out now https://hypeddit.com/diplo/d00mscrvll

this era is unmatched

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I want to dig a hole and crawl in today

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Backrooms written by black people would just be him seeing that light in his basement, being like “naw” and then the credits rolling.

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petition for Kane Pixels to enroll in university take and take African American Lit 101 in hopes that he’ll stop writing racist portrayals in cinema

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Black men still have male privilege over white women and can abuse white women btw. Everyone understands how white women have racial privilege over black men but ignore sex privilege.

I’m not saying abuse cannot happen in intimate spaces between interracial couples.

What I am saying is that in the United States (where the film takes place) black men are not privileged over white women just because they are male. Historically this is untrue (think Emmett Till). As a lived reality it is untrue. Racism is very much intact in America. Black men having systemic dominance over white women is a violent fantasy that gets black folks killed in REALITY.

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I liked backrooms, but the more I analyze it the more it pisses me off that Clark was the only black character, the only POC (I know that girl was half Asian, but she’s white passing let’s be real) AND he was the villain. Not villain—MONSTER. The black man in this movie is the monster. And there are scenes of him chasing a white woman, pushing himself onto a white woman, and luring people to their death + he’s an alcoholic and a wife beater…..the online series has ZERO black people or people of color. Even the scientists (!!) were white. Wtf doctor’s office, chemistry class, or room full of engineers can you walk into and not see some Asians?! Honestly, it’s lazy. And historically speaking, inaccurate for this kind of behavior to come from a black man exacted on white people. It just doesn’t happen. It’s a reach. Would a Clark ever exist in the real world? No. In the real world, Clark is a white man. THATS why he is so angry, can’t move past anything, and tries to take everyone around him down with him.

Part of the horror of the film was Clark chasing his white therapist down and a black man hunting down a white woman is Racist Fantasy 101. Imma need for Kane to go to college.

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settling for nothing less than being loved and cherished and respecting my boundaries

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I had an experience today that has caused me to raise my standards in friendships. Moving into a season of reciprocity.

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I think my new schedule will be wake up 5am sunrise, afternoon nap, 10pm bedtime