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THE HUNGER GAMES: CATCHING FIRE (2013) → deleted scene

#THEY CUT THAT SCENE OUT?!?#that was one of my favorite moments of Finnick in the book #we were deprived #finnick odair #the hunger games #thg #catching fire

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my goats met!!!!!!!!

#kurt wagner #nightcrawler #adam frankenstein

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That Caroline portrait is so fucked up, man.....

It is and while most of my interpretation is speculation and based on a fairly pessimistic reading of Alphonse's character I can't help but think of the implications. It's his favorite portrait. But he's not the only one who has to look at it. Caroline would have had to see it every time she went into the library. There in plain view, in painful detail. Her as a child weeping over her father. I wonder if that might have been painful for her? I know it would be if were me. Having a picture of any of my family member's funerals would hurt me every time I had to look at them. Alphonse is described as a protecting spirit who came to whisk Caroline away from death and poverty but he keeps a reminder of that death and poverty hanging quite literally above everyone's heads at all times. Not only would that be a constant reminder for Caroline but also for Elizabeth (in the 1818 version at least) who was also rescued from a precarious situation by Alphonse. Maybe I read him as worse than he is but in a lot of ways Alphonse reminds me of people I've known and gestures like that were always deliberate. They needed to be your hero and would remind you daily of where you'd be without them. They didn't want to be loved, they wanted to be worshiped. They wanted adoration and to maintain the appearance of a happy and functional family. You were not a person with thoughts or needs, you were an extension of them. As if they were the main character of some story and you were just an NPC who's needs or wants were side quests they could ignore. Which, if we look at Victor as someone groomed to be Alphonse 2.0 as Elizabeth is being raised in Caroline's image, it's not surprising he says this about his race of creatures. "A new species would bless me as its creator and source; many happy and excellent natures would owe their being to me. No father could claim the gratitude of his child so completely as I should deserve their’s."

Gratitude. Not their love, their gratitude. The Creature cannot give him that. The creature is rebellious. Victor is not a "Protective spirit" to the creature the way Alphonse was with Caroline and Elizabeth. In his state of deprivation the creature has something the women in Frankenstein do not. Freedom. The agency to reject his creator's power over him and even turn the dynamic of parent and child completely upside down. “Slave, I before reasoned with you, but you have proved yourself unworthy of my condescension. Remember that I have power; you believe yourself miserable, but I can make you so wretched that the light of day will be hateful to you. You are my creator, but I am your master;—obey!” Caroline has to think of Alphonse as her savior and her protector because if she doesn't think of him as that then all that's left is her captor and her warden. Without Alphonse she has nothing. She has no where to go, no family, no money and no friends. So she has to look at a picture of her self weeping over her father's death every day and tell herself and her children that her husband is her savior. She has to build a fairytale out of it because the reality is that Alphonse is a rich old man with power and money and she was a vulnerable child with nothing but the clothes on her back and a dead father. In the real world that combination is never benevolent.

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Adding to this with symbolism in literature being deliberate I do want to point out the framing of the portrait in the scene where Victor mentions it.

"It was about five in the morning when I entered my father’s house. I told the servants not to disturb the family, and went into the library to attend their usual hour of rising....

... I gazed on the picture of my mother, which stood over the mantle-piece. It was an historical subject, painted at my father’s desire, and represented Caroline Beaufort in an agony of despair, kneeling by the coffin of her dead father. Her garb was rustic, and her cheek pale; but there was an air of dignity and beauty, that hardly permitted the sentiment of pity."

The location of the library, to start off, is a pretty public room in a wealthy household. In the regency era a library wasn't the same as a private office or study. It was actually a living space in many cases the living room and library were the same area. It's the room where children would have had lessons, where families would hang out. It was usually used on a daily basis by the family. The mantle portrait is the center piece of the room. It's usually a large painting hung above the fire place often it would have an elaborate frame and it would be the dominate piece of the room. Putting it on the mantle also places it visually above everyone else. Victor has to look up to see it. This historical event isn't just present, it's pervasive. It's inescapable and it is looming above their heads every day. The visual created by this is ominous and oppressive. The subject is Caroline, quite literally kneeling in humble garments. This isn't just how Alphonse sees her, as a helpless child, weeping in rags on her knees. This is how he wants her to see herself and how he wants his children to see her every day. And yet it is explicitly stated that we are not to feel pity. The image is carefully crafted so that we see her in her destitution but we are meant to withhold sympathy. We are meant to find her beautiful and dignified but we are not meant to think she is asking us for help. That belongs to Alphonse alone.

#frankenstein #marry shelley

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Stellaluna by Janell Cannon

"You could live a hundred lifetimes and never deserve that boy." ~Me, to Suren, about Oak

#oak greenbriar #suren #the stolen heir #the prisoner's throne #holly black #thg quotes #book quote #haymitch abernathy #susanne collins #self reblog #I no longer trust fans of this trash duology....or Suren fans in general #fans of the stolen heir duology DNI with me

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#tadc caine #tadc gummigoo #my boys <3

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Does Adam enjoy the big ass portions of modern day food? Like I'm sure he needs to eat a LOT to maintain enough calories to move such a big body. I can see others of the crew being like "Jesus Christ that's massive, who would even be able to eat that?!" meanwhile one of those mega burgers is a regular sized burger to Adam. 48oz is his 16oz beverage sorta thing?

I feel like it's quite the opposite, Adam actually doesn't need much and in the book he makes references to living off of scraps and being able to eat coarser food than people can. I think the giant portions might overwhelm him a bit. And what was I? Of my creation and creator I was absolutely ignorant; but I knew that I possessed no money, no friends, no kind of property. I was, besides, endowed with a figure hideously deformed and loathsome; I was not even of the same nature as man. I was more agile than they, and could subsist upon coarser diet; I bore the extremes of heat and cold with less injury to my frame; my stature far exceeded their’s."

What Adam means by coarser diet is probably referring to things like unprocessed grains and livestock feed and he doesn't seem to need much of it either. No one ever notices any food or feed going missing while he's with the cottagers. Yet he doesn't ever talk like he's starving or suffer any kind of malnutrition. His digestive system is probably extremely efficient. You know who DOES need huge amounts of food? Edward Hyde and Lawrence Talbot. Transforming and staying in those forms takes so much energy and they burn through it really fast. Edward needs a full fry up for breakfast, followed by a carb heavy second breakfast, and elevenses just to stay on his feet. Larry was a bottomless pit before he became a werewolf, now he's eating 6 of those mega burgers.

#adam frankenstein

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I'm having Frankenstein thoughts again so I'm going to inflict them on all of you. Specifically I've been mulling around Alphonse Frankenstein and his relationship to people suffering or specifically, grieving. He definitely hates to see it but I always wondered why it bothered him so much. Superficially you'd think maybe he's a sensitive guy who hates seeing people in pain but I don't think that's it. He has a portrait of his wife grieving her dead father on his mantle. He sees it every day and it's a portrait of her suffering. My own interpretation/headcanon is that he loves that portrait because it reminds him of what he saved Caroline from. And if we want to skew darker, it might have also served to remind CAROLINE what he saved her from. So she'd never forget he was wasn't just her husband but also her rescuer. He also swoops in and adopts Elizabeth rather than leave her to be raised by a stepmother who might not want her. He likes to play savior and when he can't fix a problem right away he tells people to hide their feelings or calls someone else to deal with it. When Alphonse can't console Elizabeth after William's murder he summons Victor. Essentially posing Victor to "rescue" Elizabeth from her grief. “. She was very earnest to see the corpse. At first I attempted to prevent her; but she persisted, and entering the room where it lay, hastily examined the neck of the victim, and clasping her hands exclaimed, ‘O God! I have murdered my darling infant!’

“She fainted, and was restored with extreme difficulty. When she again lived, it was only to weep and sigh. She told me, that that same evening William had teazed her to let him wear a very valuable miniature that she possessed of your mother. This picture is gone, and was doubtless the temptation which urged the murderer to the deed...

“Come, dearest Victor; you alone can console Elizabeth. She weeps continually, and accuses herself unjustly as the cause of his death; her words pierce my heart. We are all unhappy; but will not that be an additional motive for you, my son, to return and be our comforter? Your dear mother! Alas, Victor! I now say, Thank God she did not live to witness the cruel, miserable death of her youngest darling!

“Come, Victor; not brooding thoughts of vengeance against the assassin, but with feelings of peace and gentleness, that will heal, instead of festering the wounds of our minds. Enter the house of mourning, my friend, but with kindness and affection for those who love you, and not with hatred for your enemies."

Maybe I'm reading too much into it but this feels manipulative if you consider Alphonse's past behaviors. He does everything he can to keep Elizabeth from seeing the body, from getting any kind of closure, and when he isn't able to console her himself he uses it as an opening. A way to get Victor to come back home and potentially stay home. He even invokes Victor's mother and something about it feels very calculated. Again. Alphonse is not overly concerned about people's feelings. He tells Victor to suppress his urges to grieve or cry openly. When Elizabeth is distraught about Justine he dismisses her by saying "Well if she's innocent the law will take care of it." Alphonse wants his happy family to continue to be happy and he likes to be the source of that happiness or the center of it and if he can't fix the problem then the problem needs to not be visible to him.

#Alphonse Frankenstein

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As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.

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"Potential" is such a manipulative word, in that it implies that if you weren't failing to maintain your personal responsibilities to society, you would not only be good, you would be great, you would be a success.

It shows that we are conditioned from a young age to believe that if we don't do what is expected of us, that it is a personal failing, regardless of if those expectations are actually achievable without inflicting harm upon ourselves.

Our mental health is in shreds because we're expected to live on a knife-edge of endless growing goals and painful failure, and we're supposed to get through it all as individuals.

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So, about Ominis' name…

I did some digging about his name, and his name seems to be connected to words like "omen," "omnis," or "ominous." All of them trace back to Latin roots with meanings related to signs, fate, or foretelling (omen). Interestingly, the original meaning wasn't necessarily negative at first. It became more associated with darkness or bad fortune over time because of language shifts.

Personally, I think Ominis' name doesn't mean "evil" or "bad omen" directly. I see it more as "a sign" or "a foretold fate," something that can be either good or bad depending on the situation.

And honestly… looking at his story quest, Ominis feels like someone who indirectly "reads" Sebastian Sallow's fate. He repeatedly tries to stop Sebastian from falling deeper into the Dark Arts because he already knows where that path leads.

If you think about it, Ominis isn't the bad omen himself. He's the person who sees the bad omen coming.

Coincidence? I think not.

#ominis gaunt