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a blog for anything i do, think, or whatever else tht prolly is considered really ridiculously random and unexplainable u might see: my version of words/pronunciation/spelling my writing my thoughts and reactions my very unchecked sarcasm my ditzinezz full-force my love for food/anime/manga/music/the odd,strange,weird and implausible the probing of the unknown unknowns and my incuarable love of anything living, small, fluffy, furry, cute, adorable, runtish, fuzzy, and in and for all purposes...ooberly cute -disclaimer- do not attempt to belive anything ditzish coming from my crazy mind, u may look like a fool to other people and yourself, failure to take my opinions with a bag of sugar may cause: irritation, head scartching, repeated 'huh?'s" and inescapable laughing. My legal advisors(me myself, and my sarcasm) are in no way liable or relaible for anything u take for fact or fiction in this blog, or in any way care(unless we like u....and tht may take some bribing) :) :-X's (-hugz-) & {blessings} ~Choco-chan

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Penchant for Pontiac's

I'm taken to the '71/'72 model J....oh but all of them are pretty

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I want a friend. Kinda. It would be good. Could be nice. But i'm much too awkward. Plus i get overwhelmed by being social. Attempting to communicate in a normal way plus not embarrass myself or the other, or be understood clearly. It takes a toll. My mental energy. And i have the utter pleasure of being in a collection of circumstances and situations that have me welded to my problems. 'Instead of a human, befriend an animal!' My mind offers. 😐 yeah. That'll def work. Especially with my living sitchumawashun. And from what happened the last time i bonded with a canine, precisely why i shall ×fudging× not× I detest this. The bull$hit bucket I've dropped my life into. My feeling of.....whatever the heck makes me feel obligated to keep hoping and holding out. Had my first taste of the unsettling feeling of my mortality recently. THAT was a blast. 😰😶 I don't see an out, an escape, an exit from the mayhem of a corn maze on fire that I find myself lost in. Its all smoke and burning kernals. And i can see more chaos on the horizon. How long can i do this? Every time i think I've reached a new low and subsequently found ground to rebel on, frwaking boardwalk damñ well sinks through a tectonic plate and i'm suckered into yet again editing my bullet journal on just HOW this madness can grovel and groan. Some $hit foreseen. Others not suh much, like impalement:by lawn flamingo. Sometimes[all•the•time] i wonder if i'll always be thixls unbelievably awkward and socially inept. This unsettled in my own skin. But hey, at least all the previous BS has strengthened me. I would damñ well hope so.

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Hmmm....

I wonder what the pretty me would look like?

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From time to time...

Pretty much frequently as of late, I feel inadequate. All around unflattering. Nothing is really pleasing. I ache to be pretty, especially after flitting about pinterest. Oh well.

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So i found my accentuated natural nail color!

Its pale, its muted pink, it has slight sheen and opaque round glitter. I adore it. 😍 Wish i could share a pic and info, but its at home and its since worn off. Even on my toes.

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So I say to yee...

Enjoy the goodness of america. Primarily the food aspect. Mostly the food. Food choice aplenty these days. If u have the money and means to cart your cart to wherever u can chow down. Some of us cannot fully appreciate the wealth of yummy shizzles to digest. But would love to. So order that pizza. Go downtown and share it up with random peeps and thereby make friends. Or if ur shy ac like mahself, get some toasted bread, some deli spreads and commune with the ducks and squirrels at a park. Go grill. Buy that specialty sub. Order a deep fried turkey. Go to some fancy or little known corner nook restaurant and order a hearty meal. Add crap tuh that pb&j. Please, enjoy the culinary delights that u can, while u can. In some places(tropical bumblefudge for me): decent, affordable, non lethal dining is a major scavenger hunt. On the daily. Meals can depend on simply what ingredients and products were shipped. So please, order that banana split. Go to town with a tub of crazy flavored ice cream. Try some new shizzlez. Its there to be eaten.

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Tried a DIY lip scrub a few days ago...

It called for cinnamon, coconut oil, vanilla essence, brown sugar and olive oil. Mixed it all up and slathered all on mah lips. 🙍 Ingested most of it. Not only did it taste nice, the scrubbing caused the concoction to transfer to inside my mouth and so naturally i would have to swallow and smear on more. It helped a tad bit after i upped the amount of sugar. Just a bit. Did my lips get juicy soft? 🙎 Somewhat. Next time i'll do it for longer and concentrate on the corners.

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So I have fallen off my skin care regime horse....

After 7 slices of cheesecake over two days and the same amount of time not sticking to my routine...my face feels much drier. Gonna add tea tree oil tonight to see if it works in my hair or on face 😕 Can't wait tuh be all scrubadubbed and polished. 😺

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Yeee!

Can't wait tuh be all cyute and scrumpadidlyumptious! Or 'snackable' as the youngins say 😝

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Urgh. So want tuh be cyute and prettiez!

I've been trying to get my beauty in order and be routine and consistent facially (washes, toning, moisturizing, scrubs...) But progress seems so...distant. My face has gotten softer, but not much clearer. And looking online for ways to clear the bumps and blemishes overturns a tractor trailer load of info and products. 😧 What to try? I just gotta take it a day at a time. 😌

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Plushy puffupdate

Really discouraged right now. Attempted to comb my head. My hair resisted with will and determination. Only managed to moisturize and twist three strands. My hair is so incredibly thick and dense that it's pretty much cohesive to itself. Struggle as I did, my comb could not separate one part from another. Anything above would lean over into what I was trying to work with. The comb would become dislodged. So then I tried just part little squares to rubber band and come back to. Make some type of frwaking progress. But no. My hair wanted to stay together. It just kept morphing together. This among other issues. Getting bug eyed. Unclean parts. Mishaps. Sigh I'll muster some courage and try again in an hour or so. At least i found out my hair seems to like LCO.

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Plushy puff update

So i just did some ultra simple(ugly) twists to try out the various LOC methods. Back nape area: LCS ..... 😓 I forgot the L. Fudge. Well, lets hope ACV has conditioning/moisturizing properties or else i'm screwed. So I just detangled with diluted ACV, Combed, Then either moistured with cream or oil, and then again, either/or. And then twisted. I'll be hoping.

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Plush puff/ my upcoming quest to healthy natural hair

Stats; tenderheaded, awkward length, 4b/c THHHHHICK, DENSE, low porosity hair. The journey so far... Until october '16 crown was relaxed and styled as a cockatiel hawk. Everything else? Shaved. Eventually my hair grew out, needed a touch-up, and as I was lazy and far from shears and kink tranq, everything 'flourished' and then like weeds, overtook. Days of no grease/no combing led to chaos. Scarves and hats were called in but eventually fell to the Brillo seige. Finally got some sense and courage, washed, cond., greased and combed it, and then had simple cornrows installed. ⏩ to october, took cornrows out, washed and 'moisturized' but failed to keep it up/get it done. Since then I have repeatedly tried and failed to make any semblance of progress against the resistance. Since becoming exposed to the natural community and the idea of actually keeping this garden of kudzuu on steroids, I have learned my entire battle strategy, even my war plan, has been COUNTERPRODUCTIVE. All my tricep skirmishes were for nothing. I was combing wrong. Moisturizing wrong. Washing wrong. Conditioning...well, maybe I did that 🆗 Drying wrong. Sleeping horridly. And just being ultra lazy...and overwhelmed. Of course, I'm a bit wary still. I was rarely natural, and my 'teacher' didn't fully understand how my hair worked. Thus I learned the improper methods. So I'm still in that 😧😲 mode. Kinda edging towards grabbing the scissors and nestling safely back into 'boyishly cute' zone. Floundering. But I know I should give this at least a shot. Give my hair a chance. 'But it'll be arduous!' 😌 Such is life. So here we go. ~Plushy Puff(one day)

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Right about now...

With all the stress and BS going on and expected on the horizon. My inner empress desires to be humored and entertained with shows of sheer brutality. Just craving to dress up and watch guys fight to intense injury. Award a victor. Lavish him with sweet words to instigate another round of strength. Throw flower petals and bones at him. Wash him and rub him down with oils afterwards as well. And indulge in treats while cuddling kittens. Oh how much and how badly i NEED this. 😣😩 So now i feel like screaming, or yelling angrily really. While torching something. But realistically my best bet may be buying a piñata and soaking it in gas and lighting it up, and then beat the shizzlez out of it. Yup. That could help. -sigh-

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Yam right! 🍠

I'm obliged to thank Bruces Yams for my new way of positively indicating agreement. Had I not perused the can I would never have found my new catchphrase.

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I haven't gone there much, but i am needing more positivity in my heart and mind.