either or

 - TW - this is a sideblog on which i mainly vent on (can't follow back). diagnosed bpd; ed-recovery & anxiety issues lmao. talk to me if you want to! i don't support or glorify any of the topics i reblog or post about.

[fighting-ghosts]

[chriiy]

getting me some good suicide ideation these days ╰(◡‿◡✿╰)

[russsianbimbo]

astnomer student aesthetics

[ixhvenus-deactivated20200308]

how come no one talks about those days where your mental health just crashes down randomly and you start feeling ashamed of yourself because you were doing so good and now you feel like a complete failure because you can’t figure out where you went wrong.

[mrnecessary-blog]

[20012001]

im confused….

[strainingourlungs]

why i never speak of it.

[putrid-pink]

It wasn’t your fault / you’re safe now

[hel7l7]

[chriiy]

it actually amazes me that as i go through my #personal post's i have no possibility to recall that ANY of these situations

[uglytraumabitch]

you said okay - flatsound

[ulibeanzz]

[misgenderisms-deactivated202010]

emotional self-harm exists and is fucking horrible

[misgenderisms-deactivated202010]

going back to an ex you KNOW will hurt you? consuming media you KNOW that triggers you? isolating yourself when you KNOW you need help? that’s a form of self-harm and needs to be acknowledged first to get help.

[misgenderisms-deactivated202010]

to be clear; this isn’t a callout. this is recognizing that emotional self-harm is a form of harm.

take this as a gentle reminder that your pain is real, that you are heard, and, most of all, to reach out for help.

[criminalizes]

you know what? im gunna say it

my trauma didnt make me a better or stronger person and i shouldnt have to act like it did to be taken seriously

[anxietyproblem]

[closet-keys]

My brother was diagnosed with depression years before I was, and because of that he started therapy years before I did.

I still remember when I was a young teen and he was playing a Nirvana song and he stopped it at this one line: “I miss the comfort of being sad”

He told me that when you start to get better, there’s a part of you that misses being sad and that if you start feeling that way you have to be extra extra aware and careful because if you indulge the feeling you’ll go down a self-destructive spiral

And even though that was years and years ago, I think about it all the time. Especially when I’m reading discourse on the idea of getting so attached to mental illness as an identity that you don’t want to improve things because you feel safe in it and don’t know who you are without it

I always think of that line “I miss the comfort of being sad” and my brother’s warning

[mooglemain]

me: hey i feel pretty good what could go wrong

brain: