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christina. i like to surf, skate, travel and create. Aotearoa - New Zealand

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Portfolio Progress

Perspectives x 2 of Untouched World Sustainable Retail Design. DONE Plan and Section. (Plan to be done in Revit) Rendered Section. GWF.

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An interior fit-out that is as light as a feather. Working on my portfolio at the moment. I’m enjoying learning more software to get my head around different ways to communicate through drawings.

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End of an era 2017

I have finished studying interior architecture at university. (4 years, done) I have resigned my part-time job at the surf shop. (over a year, done) December and the new year is fast approaching. 2018 coming atcha! A bit of money in the bank, a roof over my head and a positive outlook that everything is going to be alright.

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"the most beautiful curve on a woman's body is her smile" -bob marley

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Chakra alignment

When i arrived she waved from the window and I instantly felt like she was familiar. She got me to lay on the bed and she stood at the end pulling softly on my feet. She asked me if I felt like I walked above the earth. That my feet didn’t touch the ground. She got me to move my eyes up and down and asked me which one felt easier. I said up, to which she responded that I spend a lot of my energy in my mind in jouvenile thoughts. she got me to look left and right and i found that I could look deeper on my left than my right. As she moved through my chakras she worked through my liver and sorting out what bad stuff I had there. She asked me to breathe into my thoughts of how I felt. She also asked me to feel things deeply into the place she touched. within five minutes I had my eyes closed and I was already crying. we did clicking for me to have my personal space, my bubble she called it. She asked me to look deep into my mothers eyes and she asked me to describe the first words I thought or felt when i looked into her eyes. I told her I saw jealousy and someone who wouldn’t allow me to be just me. She asked me to breathe into that and think about it till it went blank. She asked me to look deep into my fathers eye and asked me how that looked or felt. I said it was warm, loving and freeing. She said that it was good that I had a healthy love with him and that my right side of my body was looser because my masculine side has always been open and warm. Which is why i connect with men really easily because i am open and loving towards them. She asked me how other women treated me and then answered that they were very jealous because of how easy i get a long with men and how open and loving i am with them. She took me to my birth, the very beginning of the light. she asked me to explain in short words what that was like. I said I was early and dad wasn’t there. She said you were early cause you had enough and your dad wasn’t there for you. The feelings of jealousy you have in you is from generations a line of women from your mother. Breathe it out and over. Give it back to her. Give her her block. Before you were even born you were in her with that energy. She felt these things before you were born. It’s not your fault, its her own stuff. You’re free to be you. It would have been so hard for you, she was jealous of your connection and love with your dad. Did you feel like you had to pretend about your love for your dad? Did that make you feel lonely? That would be why you feel really lonely at times. You are not attached to your mother because of how she loved you. You love through your eyes. She had darkness in her eyes so you got closer with your dad. When we got to my heart chakra she asked me how it felt. I said heavy. We worked on my heart chakra for the longest. She said there was a wedge there because of my parents and she told me to breath into it until i breathed it out and over my head. She also said there were a lot of daggers and knives. She asked me to give them all back. they’re not your knives, give them back. breathe them out. give them all back. breathe them all out until its blank. At some point she told me I am very heart centred and that i take things to heart and do things from the heart. She told me to say no repeatedly and breathe into that.She said she sensed a really big event and that I should breathe into that and let it out. She also sensed a really bad friendship where I was betrayed she got me to breathe deeply and let that one out. When I thought of someone I’m currently not feeling comfortable with she said she sensed a really dark soul, a witch. She said “you are spiritual, so you must be careful, because darkness will be drawn to you”. She also said she saw three witches on broom sticks to which i recalled my mother had told me about when i was little. She said maybe they had always haunted my mother and found it interesting that she knew about that. She asked me how i felt about the event years ago when i was betrayed. I said it felt like a distant memory to which she said was good. She said that I would never do that to anyone, I couldn’t imagine ever betraying anyone. She also asked me to think about the person I love betraying me with someone else. and just to breathe into it. She made sure I knew I was strong enough without it. That if it was to happen, not to hold on to it. not to hold it in my heart. Its not mine to hold and that its nothing to do with me. It wont serve you, if you hold it inside you and it stops your blood flowing and your body functioning. she went deep to my blood and my bone marrow until i breathed it out. She reminded me that all we have is the present moment. As long as I am grounded in myself and strong in my heart I will be happy. She also got me to breathe and count to the years I have been alive for. She told me not to overthink things. that that was a jouvenile brain.

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Prince Ea

“Fortune favours the bold and it is the cave that you fear that will hold the teasure that you desire.”

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Had a strange dream last night that my longboard sank to the bottom of the ocean and I had to rescue it. When I pulled it out of the water it folded like a sheet in my hands. Stoked that when I woke up I realised it was just a dream! 📷by @ginakielillustration #dreams #weird #whatdoesitmean #sinking (at Lyall Bay)

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What have you been up to lately?

After a natural disaster I’m surprisingly calm about everything. It is such a humbling experience. I like how it has brought more people together, to help each other out and enticed more caring conversations. So lucky to be alive really. Really grateful for what I’ve got. Its easy to say cause I’ve been hiding in the hills in my happy little bubble. The reality is theres been flooding, rivers overflowing, strong winds, lots of rain, crazy seas, land slips, earthquake damage in homes and workplaces. But we’re all okay. What have I been up to lately? Now that uni is finished for the year, I’ve just been working at the surf shop 4 days a week, playing music and being in love doing the distance thing. If I show up to any of my lectures I’ll be learning Maori this summer. Got a few gigs lined up which is exciting. I’m stoked that I have some beautiful people to play music with now.  One step closer to the dream. <3 Work is really good, the guys I work with are so funny and lovely.  Surrounded by temptation though, like ooo that surfboard would be nice! Dreams are free. : ) This year has been a radical shift for everyone I know. But I feel like we’re all reaching our calmness after the storm of 2016.  It’s all falling into place. And it’s so nice to be still after so much racing around. Never know what the next chapter holds so I’m glad I’m enjoying this one while I’m here.  Been thinking about love a lot lately and how it drives me to do all the things I do. Yet I’m so far away from the people I really love. That’s part of it though right? Time and space from people allows more room for reflection and appreciation. You’ve gotta do your own thing too. Follow your own calling... Time is precious, and I cannot wait to spend it on the ones who I’ve had on my mind non stop now that I’m at a nice and relaxing lull. 

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Lily pads and lotus flowers #love #green #lillypads #lotus #flowers #pretty #pond #greenhouse #fresh #uplifting #ladyhangs #photojournal #auckland #newzealand (at Auckland Domain)

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Romance was born in a sense of adventure...

I don’t know how I’ll ever top it... The weekend spent in an eco cabin in the coromandel. He picked me up from the auckland airport with a longboard on the roof, silver hilux ready with  two guitars and two of his handcrafted surfboards. I walked across the lights and threw my suitcase in the back seat eager for a weekend at a secluded cabin in the Coromandel. Suitcase? two wetsuits and a bunch of clothes cause I guess I wanted to look my best haha. So bad, considering I normally only travel with a backpack. I was nervous and excited for our second hang out without the noise of city life, cell phone distractions and social interactions. When we hit the road, he showed me a test print of the zine publication he’s been working on. I couldn’t stop smiling, it’s all just too good. The flow out of the city was slow at that time of the day, but it appeared we started our road trip with good karma as other cars offered us right of way. We talked and listened to sweet tunes like Anderson Paak, Ocean Alley and Angus and Julia Stone. I played a little ukulele before we stopped for fuel. Barefoot driving and wearing my sunnies we were on our way out of the city. We stayed on the highway till we reached Thames in Coromandel. Got all the food, coffee, beers, treats and things we needed. [I’ll finish this off later gotta skype my dad] but long story short, it was a dreamy weekend and I’m head over heels for him.  <3 There were so many stunning views as we drove through the coromandel peninsula. Hugging the coastline with dead flat west coromandel waters, windy tropical hills looking over green valleys till we arrived on the east coast anticipating some sort of lines of energy in the sea. The gravel roads reminded me of a flashier version of the roads we used to drive in Papua New Guinea. It was so nice to be surrounded by green again. I unlocked two padlocks of a little gate that opened up to a thin drive way nestled between the trees. The ute pulls up to a beautiful little cabin looking out to an incredible view of the hills meeting the sea and the beach in front of us beneath all the trees. The sound of birds and the fading light of sunset. We stood on the deck looking out to the sea and he pointed out where we would surf the next day. We cooked up some fish and made a salad for dinner. It was perfect. “I love this place!” In the morning when we woke, looking out the windows to see a nice clear day with trees framing the window pane and his handsome face made me smile. He offers to make me a coffee and tells me to wake up slowly. The cabin floors were cold so I was happier staying in bed for a lil while longer. It was so nice. We went to check the surf and decided to just get into our gear and get out there. He showed me his quiver of one modern retro longboard and two other short high volume boards he had made and glassed himself. I was amazed to say the least. Such rad designs from the shape, glassing, colour and even the logos he had designed. “dream catcher” haha what!? couldn’t have chosen a better name. The waves had been pumping earlier that week so we got the end of the swell, just the perfect timing for longboard waves really. There was no one else out except for us. It was ideal. Especially after wanting to go surfing together for almost a year (as friends). Its nice how time changes things and you see things and people in a different light.  Surf Froth: He let me have a go on his longboard and I caught a few really fun waves. The fin that he has in his longboard is much faster to turn than mine and it had the perfect looseness for responding to my weight on each edge. I’d catch a wave and each time I’d paddle back smiling and offering him a turn. We swapped boards and that was fun too. I hadn’t ever ridden a twin fin before, so I was frothing on that. Dropping into close outs and anything that came my way that had energy. Dug the rail into one peeler and it was fun trying to get the feel of my turns on a shorter board. He was catching heaps of waves on the longboard and that was fun to watch. Side stepping and chasing the board as it bounced to the shore cause he wasn’t wearing a leg rope. Its my favourite conditions: surfing with someone you love being around, no one else around, little waves and nothing but nature around you. Our first surf together was just dreamy. I’m so glad I’ve found a guy who loves surfing as much as me. Longboarding waves too! We headed back to the cabin to have banana pancakes, another coffee and to chill. Sunbathed on the deck as he played me some songs on his guitar. <3

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dont need much except for sea and rainbows. :)

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I like big boards and I cannot lie 🎶 (at Bay of Plenty, NZ)

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On the road again. Love my old man, he's always full of surprises, hilarious one liners and adventures. Happy campers with no plans 💗 (at Papamoa Beach, Bay of Plenty)

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Fuck the empire.

i quit my job at the Empire Cinema in Island Bay. they can't tell me to be quiet about sexual harrassment, i spent most of my day crying at university.

yesterday was one fucking hard day

and now im at uni. able to actually focus on my work.

I already got offered a new job at a cafe this morning.

a way better cafe that i've always wanted to work at.

they said i should just heal first

the lady said, take some time off to heal and process and then come and see me

her name is bre

and she's super lovely

and so is the cafe

<3

its one i go to every weekend.

so that shows;

that i didn't need to put up with that shit. Manipulation, I don’t fall into that trap. I respect myself enough to walk away, Theres no way in hell they can tell me not to tell anyone what happened.

The manager didn't even look through the video footage. He’s probably allowing it to elapse.

and he actually said to me it wasn't worth resigning over

and i said, "you understand I can no longer work for you, i can no longer work for him either (the owner who did this). this has effected me so much i've been crying all day and can't even focus on my studies”

their money isn't worth my sanity

my mental health

and my mind.

and im going to have to see a council soon all because of it.

its sooo fucked up.

but im very glad i stood up for myself. I have a voice and it will be heard. If I don’t stand up for myself, I’m also allowing him to do this to someone else.

Mana wahine. I’m very grateful for my family and my wonderful friends who have been supportive and hearing me out through all this.

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Zye Norris. The solitary road. via deus ex machina

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Home is where I have cuddles on the carpet with my favourite pooch 📷@carissa_corlett #labradoodle #poodle #cuddles #love #dogs (at Island Bay, New Zealand)