Chisty

~♡14♡~ 154cm, sw128 cw120 ugw100~105 ☆▪︎not kg▪︎☆

[christyhsab]

there's no way my friends actually like me

[christyhsab]

i was so sure i would lock in during summer. im doing way worse than the school year.i want someone to love me like i love others. i need to be pretty im not fucking pretty im fat at every angle om 5'2 125 its bad all my weight is in my stomach and thighs.

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how do i still hang out with my friends and have discipline all we ever do tg is eat or grt 7brew i just forget all my goals i know i dknt want jt enough trust me i WANT TO LOSE WeIiGHT but how do i want it more. plese. i need 2 lose 20 lbs by august 24

[christyhsab]

I need help what foods come out easy and or how do i get used to doing it until its all out

[christyhsab]

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To me, figuring out which method works for u is like getting a cutie mark like u try different things wether its st4rvjng or mia and js like see what sticks.

[christyhsab]

-•VERY long rant.•-

I hate myself so much. All my weight distributes into my stomach and thighs, im an A cup 5'1 and 123 lbs, i want to die. my friend has a higher weight than me and she distributes so well. shes a big ass D cup shes like 130-125 im so fucking jealous of her. Lately when i get depressed ive been getting nauseous and when i try to throw up, i cant stomach the taste and/or getting it out so please help with tips on that. I need to eat less and my dramatic ass keeps trying to like fake worsr symtoms when i am starving to get attention i dont even notice till after i do it 😭. i write little notes not to eat on my wrist to help me but my symptoms seem so strong amd its bad. i just barley get past the point my hunger pains go away b4 i end up eating again its so bad. hopefully i can get under control because i look fat as fuck. ive been going to the gym too can anybody recommend stuff that will make my waist thinner plsss!!

i am so done. I realised sh does help me i know its not good but its all i have. one of my friends wouldnt understand(shes significantly bigger than me), one of them doesnt even like to be vented onto and shes my closest one ( same one i mentioned), one of them is skinny asf and she also just wouldnt get it and would prolly tell my parents.. and the rest are just people id rather not tell. i cant talk. Yesterday i went to the gym, i was staring at my friend flex in the mirror and she pulled up her shirt so she could i guess see if her abs were coming through? idk man but it bummed me out and i started typing in my notes alot of the stuff im saying here... she caught me writing and i guess going out of the app didnt stop her from looking because she texted me: "why are you sad" and when i said im not she said "yes you are." she mentioned my notes and after i told her ignore that she dropped it but goddamn. I wish i could tell her i wish i could cry on her shoulder and tell her everything thats wrong with me. heres thr thing thats fucking me up the most.. ive always thought im bi but i REALLY know it now because i think im inlove with her. i met her december 2025 which is not long ago at all, she has a whole damn boyfriend so obviously im stuck to shove these feelings down. I wish i could say stuff but i want to get worse. I wish i wish i could tell my friends. i want to sit and cry with one of my friends but i cant. my friend whos skinny asf she prolly would let me vent or wtv but shed tell. id also wanna hug her and she hates physical touch so.. yeah. Im at a big dilemma here. thank you for reading ♡♡

[christyhsab]

2day was one of my worst days in awhile, i didnt eat from like 5pm yesterday (may29) to 1pm today(may30) which that wad good, but then i had a 3 finger combo from canes with 3 sauces, and a cupfection. 1 sauce alone is 190c omg

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I AM SO HAPPY!! okay. so on monday i started taking biotin suppliments and since then my hair looks and feels wayyy less dead, AND IVE BEEN AVRGING AT 117 - 119 WHICH IS SO GOOD!! my dad also hasnt bought grocerys in like 2 weeks, he cant so thats also helping me out here omg.

[christyhsab]

GUYS I GOT AHOLD OF RICE CAKES

dude i see why people love these they are so filling and low cal. ive put cream cheese and avocado and peanut butter on them (all separately dif times) AND IM BACK TO MY LW!!!!! 118 🥹 but i was tanning and got burnt. its so bad so my stats rn are

5'1 and 118 LBS

so today i ate:

1 rice cake with cream cheese and avocado (90)

taqito from qt (270)

steak bites (100)

and another rice cake with cream cheese n honey (95)

so in total 555 but thats pretty good for a weekend day.

[christyhsab]

Today i am super proud of myself! i started out the day a lil weak with a taqito from qt and a redbull. (280) that was at 7am then i drank water (and did the mile in gym) until 11 when i had a bite of someones protein bar so like (5) then when i got home from 2ish to now ive had 4 trufru (60) and a pack of seaweed. That turned out to be around 370 and -225 for my workouts so i ended off with around 145ish!! which is the best ive done in awhile. im ag 120lb and thats down by 3.

[christyhsab]

im on a trip and i have only had a sugar free redbull today yayy im down 3lba from last update

[christyhsab]

I am 5'1 and 123 lbs and tell me why i look huge oh my god. i look atleast 160 like hello. my friend is so much skinnier than me and shes 4'11 and like 120ish i hate genetics kill me

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today i ate goldifsh, 2 slices of pizza, 2 bratwurst, and a bowl of biscuts and gravy. and i wasnt even hungry for the last two i genuinely feel like a pig omg. someone pls give me toxic motivation

[christyhsab]

today i had a shit ton of food.

the rest of the panera mac n cheese

2 onion rings and a steak sandwich

2 bowls of rice

seaweed

diet dr pepper and lemonade

i am on my walking pad

[christyhsab]

today i shared a bento box with my friend, which was 2 sushi rolls and 1.5 dumplings annnd some rice with beef. idk how many c@ls that is but then i had a panera french onion soup and half of panera mac n cheese. and thats all i had so if anybody wanna let me know how much that wad thatd be greaat. looking forward to posting more

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[autozanarak]

idk qhy but this is the most triggering thinspo i've seen in my life