refer to us collectively as quest or chronic. bodily minor. pronouns change with the fronter, we collectively use they/it. we enjoy spreading disability awareness and fighting ableism. we are professionally diagnosed with low iron stores, vitamin deficiencies, a repaired hernia, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. we are medically recognized for being a partial dissociative identity disorder system, and having chronic fatigue and pain in the form of headaches for a currently unspecified reason. we are self diagnosed with hypermobility along with vitamin deficiency induced delusions. do not interact if any of the following: non traumagenics and anyone who supports or is neutral to them, rad queers, ableists, queerphobes, anyone under the basic do not interact criteria, proshippers, darkshippers, comshippers, turigirls, lesboys, gaybians, reality shifters
I was expecting an orthostatic intolerance diagnosis to be incredibly difficult to get.. my doctor just like.. gave it to me pretty much? I'm so used to going through countless tests so when I asked if I had POTS and she just was like "definitely something pots-like yeah, whatever it is specifically isn't really important for now though" I was just like.. oh. that was less stressful than I thought. anyway diagnosis achieved, I feel very happy with the closure :)
Whenever endos say "Read the DSM! It doesn't even mention trauma!" it always pisses me off because that's blatantly false. First of all, the introduction to the dissociative disorders section has a whole paragraph on the link between trauma and dissociative symptoms.
"Dissociative disorders are frequently found in the aftermath of a wide variety of psychologically traumatic experiences in children, adolescents, and adults. Throughout this chapter, 'traumatic experiences' refers to experiences that result in psychological sequelae, as opposed to the physical impact that can cause a traumatic brain injury. Therefore, in the DSM-5, the dissociative disorders are placed next to, but are not part of, the trauma- and stressor- related disorders, reflecting the close relationship between these diagnostic classes. Both acute stress disorder and posttraumatic stress disorder include dissociative symptoms, such as amnesia, flashbacks, numbing, and depersonalization/derealization."
Secondly, in the diagnostic criteria for DID, it states:
"B. Recurrent gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information, and/or traumatic events that are inconsistent with ordinary forgetting."
Lastly, in the Associated Features section, it even gives more specific examples of the trauma that could cause DID:
"Individuals with the disorder typically report multiple types of interpersonal maltreatment in childhood and adulthood. Other overwhelming early life events, such as multiple long, painful, early-life medical procedures, also may be reported."
And that's not even getting into the numerous examples in other diagnostic tools of questions pertaining to trauma or the fact that the DSM is a.) very America-centric and b.) limited due to not including diagnoses like C-PTSD and P-DID (unlike the ICD-11, which does).
vine staff - epidermodysplasia (described in canon as a curse, but this would be the medical term)
rocket - amputee (prosthetic user)
medkit - half blind
hyperlaser - burn victim + blindness (caused from burns)
broker - congenital insensitivity to pain or acquired pain insensitivity (described in canon as having some issues with nerves feeling pain, but also described to have gotten worse due to procedures)
zuka - amputee (non-prosthetic user)
wade wilson/deadpool - physical impairments caused by late-stage terminal cancer
prof. charles francis xiaver - paraplegic wheelchair user
dr. gregory house - myopathy + chronic pain caused by said myopathy
hyuna - amputee (prosthetic user I believe? this one was suggested by a friend so I'm not sure!)
Why is it easier and more comfortable to sit in a position that actively damages my joints than it is to just sit with okay posture. Why does my body crave its own destruction
today, I wanna talk about an online shop that sells lots of disability aid. the shop is called bibipins, and they sell a variety of things. compression gear, joint braces, foldable canes, binders, and other items such as clothing. they have a decent sizing range, and the products are relatively well priced for what they do. I have not purchased from them yet, I'm saving money, but I'd definitely recommend looking into the shop if you're in the market for any of the mentioned products. the reviews are glowing, and they have the cutest patterns ever! I can't wait until I have enough money to buy from!
Hello! We are Dissociapedia, the official sideblog for the (WIP) encyclopedia for traumagenic systems!
What we aim to do is make an encyclopedia website but only for traumagenic systems, which means anything made by and for endogenic systems, willogenic systems, and tulpagenic systems will never be added.
It will be similar to pluralpedia, but again it's gonna be all made by traumagenic systems. The roles, info, xenoroles.. Everything! :)
We hope you find our site useful, and if you wish to submit something to it then please send it to our discord server!
The creator of the app plural star, TheHanyou, has used AI in the development of the app, and harassed me over a negative review, and accused me of discrimination for being against AI
proof:
Not only is AI incredibly harmful, but the harassment over a review is incredibly immature.
The app itself (which I have used, despite them claiming the opposite) absolutely sucks. It's full of glitches and problems, it's unresponsive, and even if it wasn't, it would still be made with AI and automatically disgusting
The first screenshot comes from the "about this app" section on Google play store. It is hidden unless you expand it. You can check for yourself (unless they edit the description).
also a note: i have multiple accounts. the account I used for the review (made from phone) isn't the same one on my tablet, which is where I had the app to try it out. Perhaps they saw that the account I used for the review wasn't one that used the app? I'm not sure if that's a thing.
I don't take much offense from being called an ugly person, out of all things, but I ask you to report the review if you want, and the app.
@anti-willo-miku @anti-willo-deku @anti-willo-solivan tags for reach!
Ai is killing our planet, and I cannot justify it.
ANOTHER NOTE!!!
the app was previously known as pluralspace, but that is NOT the same app as the current pluralspace, which I adore and use myself. I have never spoken to the developer of that app and I thank them from their job
maybe endos could want / need trauma holders for . . the trauma they may have ??? what kinda question is that lmao
the point of trauma-holders is to insure memory fragmentation, not to "deal with trauma".
"Memory fragmentation occurs to protect the brain from the trauma it endures and is the brain’s way of trying to heal." (Kylie Hamacher, 2026.) (feel free to dm me for my source on this if you can't find it!! XD)
some parts might be more tolerant of healing with access to it, but trauma-holders literally develop from the severe trauma that traumagenic systems go through. they develop as a means to shut-off those memories to ensure functional life for the system. watering down trauma-holders to just "oh we remember things" is inherently ableist to systems who have suffered so much.
can we pleae normalize [eople having multiple disorders? i hate how people (mostly due to dumbass subreddits like fakedisordercringe) thinking if you have more than 3 disorders your faking when its more common for people who are mentally ill to have multiple disorders and a lot if not pretty much all disorders stem from others so yea... if you have 1 thatll quickly turn into 10 more... not always but it happens a lot and is common because thats how being mentally ill works
trying to talk about being a trans man online these days is geniunely such a chore. the moment we mention we are uncomfortable with the whole 'trans men can be lesbians' ideology, WE'RE called transphobic? and then they get the nerve to go 'well you're a man you don't get to be apart of lesbian discussions' ??? ok so according to you, a man can be a lesbian, but the moment a man actually says something about it, he can't give any valuable input? just say you're mad at being called out and moved on
[this is not an invitation to debate.. if u disagree, block me and move on! read our dni + op is a minor. no this is not a transmed/truscum post.. transmeds and truscums can fuck off]
A list of the specific chronic illness/disability-related things in Saiki K that resonate with me personally
(Your mileage may vary, my experiences are not universal, I recognize that some of this is kind of a reach etc etc)
The limiters
Saiki’s powers have grown too strong for him to control, and before the creation of his limiters they were out of control and causing a lot of damage. Some examples cited include accidentally destroying his house in his sleep and having telepathy that reached all over Japan (something I imagine was many many times more distressing [disabling] than his current situation) The limiters weaken his psychic powers and keep them somewhat in check. It’s not perfect, and he still does have problems, but the situation is much worse without them.
This reminds me of the medication I take to keep my immune system under control. Before I started it, my immune system (thanks to MS) was causing lots of issues for me: it took the vision in my left eye, made it difficult to walk and use my arm for a few months, caused horrible leg spasms, et cetera. My medicine helps keep things in check and hopefully prevents future damage... But nothing is perfect. Of course, it’s a monthly shot instead of silly pink balls on my head! So that's a plus 👍
The way he struggles to control his body after Nendo removed his limiter unexpectedly
After being hit with a shock to his system at the sports festival, Saiki struggles harder than usual to control his strength. We see him frustrated with this as he’s eating, his hand trembling as he holds his chopsticks. He tries to power through, but the issues don’t resolve.
I’m fortunate to usually be pretty functional most days (I do have my bad days though lol). However, when I go through significant stress - either mental or physical - it makes a lot of issues pop up that usually don’t bother me. Balance issues, vision stuff.. And hand tremors. Like, I was at a sushi restaurant after getting overheated at the pride festival last year struggling a lil with my chopsticks laughing at myself like “this is just like Saiki at the sports festival…”
Developing new powers unexpectedly
A major source of stress for Saiki is being unpleasantly surprised by a new psychic ability. In the series, we see this a few times. The most notable to me is the time leap ability. He wakes up having accidentally traveled 20 years in the past (soon after it is revealed that his limiter has a defective part). Afterward, we learn when he’s stuck in the time loops with Nendo and Kaido that this time leap ability has been coming back randomly since then “As unexpected and frequent as getting the hiccups”. He spends the entire chapter trying to get control over this ability so he can continue his day as planned. In another chapter, his limiter is malfunctioning and he develops a series of useless powers that he cannot control. Clearly, the limiters are preventing new powers from developing (see my first bullet point!!)
So, another thing about conditions such as mine is that you really can just wake up one day and have some weird symptom you’ve never heard of before! I remember not long after my first big attack I was at Walmart and I just noticed that my index finger was completely numb, and it stayed that way for weeks. One time, my upper lip twitched constantly for like a month straight. Of course, more than just the relatively silly symptoms can and do pop up like that, too. For example, I had these really scary, uncontrollable spasms on my left side (paroxysmal kinesigenic dyskinesia) that happened several times a day for about a week. For a LONG time afterward I would be terrified of them coming back. It's still in the back of my mind but I'm not losing sleep over it anymore at least. Reading those panels above re: the time leap stuff reminds me a lot of that time!
Neuroplasticity and the power remover device
When Kusuke is explaining how the power remover works, he talks about how the brain rewires itself around damaged areas to compensate. The device is designed to more completely destroy the areas of his brain responsible for the psychic abilities. Of course, the device ultimately did not work permanently. The damage it did to his brain was quickly compensated for, and the abilities returned.
When small areas of the brain are damaged (such as… due to a neurodegenerative autoimmune condition), over time the brain can often restructure to work around it. It doesn’t mean that those areas are healed, and the process is often incomplete, but that rewiring can (completely or partially) restore abilities and function that was lost in the damage. They don’t say that explicitly in the series, but that’s surely what is happening to Saiki in the final chapters! Except, you know, in a magical shonen manga way.
Resistance to the idea of needing help
After Saiki uses the power remover device, he loses his abilities and is suddenly much weaker and less capable than he was before. He was used to being extremely independent, but this change has brought him to a place where he cannot do everything on his own anymore. In the library, he struggles to get a book off the top shelf and in the process is reminded of his new limitations. He says to himself “What am I doing…!? Just get used to it already!” After the bookcase is tipped over onto him and Nendo protects him, Saiki is upset about having to be protected when he never needed it before: “I’m so useless now…” Nendo helps him realize that getting help from others is normal.
Helping each other out is one of the most fundamentally important parts of being human, but it can be hard to accept that support sometimes. This is especially the case when you’re thinking about the prospect of needing more help than you used to. I'm fortunate to be relatively unaffected most of the time so far, but I'm still grateful for when the people I love are understanding and don't make a big deal out of it. I hate the idea of being burdensome so I'm just gonna cross my fingers and hope things don't get worse lol
Conclusion: Saiki is just like me for real and I'm DEFINITELY not projecting my own problems into him at all...
we're ignoring the 20k word fic I wrote where I blatantly projected my problems onto him for seven chapters
thanks @justmagicalgirl for encouraging me last week to post this 👍
