𝚁.𝙰.𝙱

[regulus-cdd-black]

𝚁.𝙰.𝙱 𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚒-𝙽𝚃𝙶!

(start PT/ R. A. B. is anti-nontraumagenic /end PT)

- previously @/anti-willo-kinger

- inspired by @/anti-willo-miku and @/solivan-edu (prev. @/anti-willo-solivan), username kinda inspired by @/cdd-safe-gallerian

- previous intro post

- banner is an edited version of the sysmedicalist flag by @/anti-willo-miku

- / PT for my blog name name: R.A.B. / PT for the header: The stripe only version of the sysmedicalist flag with "written and directed by Regulus Black" on top. / PT for pfp: a fanart of Regulus Black, a white skinned, black, haired young guy, whose cheek is being cupped by a tanner hand, presumably either James Potter or Remus Lupin

- pfp is from this pin! artist is @/sophithil (don't know which platform)

- DNI: NTGs and supporters, people who ask me about shipcourse, pro-harassment

- why I changed my profile

- shipcourse stance

- alt blogs: @venting-about-endos , self explanatory. @pro-willo-kinger, an archive blog I will definitely need as kinger for old times sake or something, @carousel-coining , where I mainly work on system terminology and coin labels/design flags, only cdd-related stuff

- about mod: I'm bodily an adult (18+ but 22-) but there is no age limit for who can interact with my posts. I still prefer of people below 16 years of age don't try to befriend me. trans, queer, and proud. mentally and physically disabled

- Regulus Black fictive, we do not support JKR, we do not condone buying merch or providing her with financial support in other ways. We stand with our trans sisters, brothers and siblings.

- anti ableism, anti racism, anti homophobia, and anti zionism. we also believe and are against exorsexism, intersexism, transmisogyny and transandrophobia, sexism in any direction

[regulus-cdd-black]

not even cdd related but I really like drawing and obviously theres some things everyone struggles with, like a lot of people struggle with hands and eyes and that's something I used to stryftle with too but then I got better at it.

you know what I can't draw properly for the life of me? arms, shoulders, and elbows

[solivan-edu]

if you told me it was actually sophie of all people who spread the false allegation I was producing csem, I wouldn't believe you.

Anyways, here's more proof of how much a piece of shit Sophie is! Make sure @/Vicanthropy gets the word too because it seems like she's also getting targeted by The Scatland Queen herself.

(tagging outside of my anti tags for more reach because oh my god please get this chick off the platform)

[antiendoventing]

"heh... i'm always... 2 steps ahead..." is how she fucking reads to me. I can't even take her seriously. Unsurprised that she did this, but her and her like one million fucking accounts she uses to target people/communities, block evade etcetera make me giggling if only a fucking little. literally in her 30's beefing with children on the internet because she has nothing fucking better to do.

Beast (he/him)

[regulus-cdd-black]

I'm sorry if this isn't an appropriate comment but this is so fucking cringe (/neg meaning) like

"there are two things I'm willing to do for who" WHO THE FUCK ASKEDDDDD

[z0mb1eluvju1ceagainstendos]

Just wna rant abt smth I've noticed and wna call out the irony in it.

Once simplyplural shut down, a lot of apps popped up into production. Simplyplural was an disability aid we used because it helped us track our haremates along with a few noticeable patterns in our system through time. Before its shutdown, we moved to pluralspace. We tried several other available apps during our search for a new app to use before simply's shutdown.

How come so many of these apps cater to endogenics? As well as CDDs? Like, these apps are disability tools. Isn't the whole endogenic ordeal being non-disordered, non-dissocistive, and non-traumatized??? You're not disabled? What do you need an disability tool to track your symptoms for if you claim you can be a system without the key factors that makes a system???

If you're going to make a disability aid, make it for the disabled. Dont invite these losers in. They're roleplaying a disability and actively trying to demedicalize a very serious disorder. That being said, yeah, I'm still using these tracking tools. I got nowhere else to go, and so far, pluralspace is what we're comfortable with using the most. I just wish there were more tools for CDDs alone.

I mean, correct me if I'm wrong. I'm always open to different perspectives and points. Just to me, it sucks. Why are we allowing these people aids if they don't really need them?

[This rant obviously excludes ppl who confuse themselves as endogenic but are in fact trauma induced systems. Cause those exist. Im mainly yapping on about the people who forced themselves into being plural/multiple for fun.]

[antiendoventing]

As much as i agree with the sentiment that if you are not disordered then you do not need to log your symptoms, i think it is more complex than that. (apologies for the ghost reblog, i misclicked)

Many apps that are anti non-traumagenics are often riddled with privacy concerns, we have seen this time and time again, and with apps such as these, there is bound to be quite a bit of sensitive information! If the app owners can look through all your information and then ban you, then I do not consider that symptom tracking app/website safe. While i disgree with Non-traumagenics utilising these apps, there is not much one can do to prevent such a thing without privacy issues.

Additionally, it may be that some non-traumagenics are experiencing symptoms of a CDD, I am of the firm belief that some non-traumagenics may simply have trauma but are unawares of it due to the very nature of how a CDD works, and so barring them from that resource may cause problems to arise. <- this is not said in a "oh all non-traumagenics have a CDD they just do not know it" way, it is simply me expressing that there are some (keyword some) non-traumagenics that may actually have a CDD, but are unawares and are in denial of their symptoms, and these people deserve access to the same resources as a pwCDD. I am aware you said this excludes them in the rant, but i still wished to bring it up.

To end this post though, there is an app called "berrytree" that is expressly anti-endo, and we have had friends report that they quite like it, and if you are still looking for an app that is anti-endo, I am sure you can check them out! Links are below;

As a note it is still in dev, but the android version is free on google and the ios is available on test flight in the server

The berrytree tumblr

A link to the Berrytree Discord

and here is a screenshot provided to me by a friend that uses berrytree of an ask they answered below;

Timestikhael (She/her)

[regulus-cdd-black]

I also think it's fair to point out how a lot of apps that are openly anti-endo got heavily harassed. Octocon comes to mind (although I don't live octocon for other reasons), and I think i would also declare myself as endo neutral if I made an app. I find it weird how most apps are catered to endos first and CDDs as an afterthought, tho

[anti-willo-miku]

I dislike false equivilances like these a lot. I am ready for this conversation, although I doubt you are.

IMG ID: A post that reads: “people who say the phrase The Future Is Plural is about "abusing children" are just rehashing "the trans agenda is grooming children" rhetoric but maybe we arent ready for that conversation yet #my post #tw syscourse #sorry i know i maxed out syscourse posts per month on main but i get an extra one on this blog okay.” /END ID

Now, even if we run with the assumption of endogenic systems being valid, the “plural” umbrella still proclaims to include CDD systems. “The future is plural” advocates for several good things when it comes to cdds: acceptance and education. That is where our benefits end.

Within the endogenic plural community there is an underlying idea of wanting more individuals to be plural. This idea stems from how forums like the lancers used to monitor soulbonding, cdd, and spiritual forms for recruitment. Now, it is found in jokes, niche kinks such as forceplural, and pushing people with mild symptoms into some form of plurality. This sentiment bleeds into “the future is plural” idea, in which they desire “more plurals”.

The funny thing about this is I do not think they realize that the haphazard shoving of cdd systems into plurality inadvertently implies that the future is plural means the future has more systems of all kinds, including cdd systems.

Either that, or subconsciously, pwCDDs are not plural to them, despite how much they claim we are. This is why they react so defensively when people point out that certain things in their community, that despite claiming to be for everyone, are designed for or only work in the context of endogenics.

To the pro endo, the future is plural does not include CDD systems. Their future is strictly endogenic, and we are an afterthought. The CDD system will never be prioritized in movements like these, because their community never accounted for people like us. They have built a subculture in which we were treated as lesser, and are now sloppily attempting to include us.

Onto your point about the “trans agenda”. Trans people do not group in a trauma based disorder under the trans umbrella. Plurality does. Your false equivalence fallacy is lame and overused.

[regulus-cdd-black]

one thing that i hate is being babytalked to. even when I regress. I don't know, i just... feel insulted

[anti-willo-miku]

This is such a ridiculous argument. Telling a group of fellow trauma survivors (OP is an OSDD system) that the only reason they could be angry about people essentially imitating the structure of their disorder without any reason to form it is.. checks notes.. jealousy.. is such a reductive idea. And saying that being anti endo is “repeating the cycle”. You are a trauma survivor yourself. Do better.

PT: A screenshot of a post that reads “see, the thing is, i understand anti-endos/anti-willos. i've felt that pang of "that's not fair! i had to go through hell for this! i was forced into it! it's not fair that you can choose! it's not fair that you got it naturally!" but, the thing is? i'm mature. so i moved on. feelings are normal. jealousy is normal. that feeling of "this isn't fair" is normal. but you have to learn to deal with it. you have to acknowledge that the feeling is real and valid, but it's also not one you can allow to stay. because it's not fair to them. those are real people, endogenic and willogenic systems. those are people with emotions and feelings. you have no idea what their life is like. you cannot allow your upset to hurt them. maybe it isn't fair. but that doesn't matter. don't repeat the cycle. don't let your trauma turn you into a cruel person. the tags read: #i kinda wanna put this in the anti tags #nah”

[bagelcourse]

bagel's not jealous, it's fucking insulted but op isn't ready for that conversation yet

[regulus-cdd-black]

"I'm mature", too. Like sure whatever you say man. I'm sure everyone can just move on from trauma if they're mature enough. like obviously right

(/sarc)

they're so insulting it's actually crazy how belittling they managed to be in such little text. like you managed to call anti endos immature,, stuck up, jealous, unempathetic (not a bad thing btw), Infantilize them and also compare them to their abusers in three paragraphs that look straight out of chatgpt

[misfits-circus]

The conjoining of the terms fictive and fictionkin in both alterhuman and system spaces makes me incredibly uncomfortable as a fictive that identifies with some alterhuman labels.

The only thing we have in common is both terms describing something based on fiction.

Being a fictive isn’t an identity for me or for most of our other introjects. I exist like this because a twelve year old went through something so traumatic that the current coping mechanisms they had weren’t enough to deal with it so their brain latched on to something that brought them comfort and made them feel safer. That has nothing to do with someone who identifies has a fictional character or who believes they were a fictional character in a past life.

I see most of this coupling of terms in general plural and pro endo spaces and that has led me to conclude that this is another example of endogenics treating actual disordered symptoms and behaviors like an identity. It feels as though this is them bastardizing one of the more “fun” or “interesting” parts of this disorder without fully understanding what it is or the reason it happens. Which is upsettingly common in these spaces.

It’s yet another form of ableism towards those with CDDs that has yet to be addressed or unpacked broadly by the system community. I don’t expect it to be even realized, though, as the general system community thrives off of this specific form of ableism, on both pro and anti endo sides. On the pro side of the community, they don’t acknowledge ableism for what it is because do not view systems as symptoms of CDDs and thus inherently disordered. On the anti side, they rarely acknowledge fictives being anything more than offshoots of a fictional character, but still claim to know fictives aren’t actually their source.

This isn’t hate on fictionkins, for the record! I have no problem with them as long as they aren’t injecting themselves into conversations and spaces about and for introjects. This is more my personal observations, connections I’ve made, and feelings that have arose because of those observations. As well as a critique of the plural and system communities. I’m not even sure if any of this makes sense as I just started typing and the thoughts kept flowing as I did.

[anti-willo-miku]

TME TMA users all go to hell

[regulus-cdd-black]

my stance on shipcourse:

(start PT/ my stance on shipcourse /end PT)

Essentially, please refer to this post by @solivan-edu

I agree wholeheartedly with their takes and I generally want you to assume I think the same way.

I wanted to add a shorter explanation, too, of how I feel.

It may be a bit all over the place, it's still a sensitive topic for me

Trigger warning, I talk extensively about sexual assault, rape, and abuse. I also mention suicide.

I get especially aggressive at the very very, to tw for threats

I generally believe fictional content should not be censored *only on the behalf of what it portrays*.

what does that mean? simply, I don't want something to be censored only because it portrays something negative or uncomfortable.

this doesn't mean that I, personally, enjoy it. I don't. I really fucking don't. I simply do not believe that my discomfort should dictate what other people do. I believe in personal freedom.

Another thing I believe in is that fiction can affect reality, and because of that, fiction needs to be consumed responsibly. If I know I am easily affected by certain messages in fiction, I should do my best to avoid those things.

I believe we all are owed freedom, but that freedom stops in the moment it affects someone else's freedom. So while I someone has the freedom to enjoy anything fictional they prefer, I don't have the freedom of telling them what they can or cannot do. I, however, have the freedom to not look at it.

which brings me to another topic. I believe fictional content should be properly tagged in all cases, so that people who don't wish to see it don't accidentally stumble into it. Put trigger warnings, essentially.

Fiction can affect reality, that doesn't mean it *will*. I think it's weird to worry about what someone may be attracted to become of what media they consume. in the immediate aftermath of my assault, I consumed a lot of media related to rape, because it helped me metabolize what had happened to me, and believe it or not, it made it easier to recover from it.

Seeing characters go through things I went through, suffer, and then find a path to recovery helped me immensely.

Another thing I believe is that fiction can help victims recognize their situation. I remember seeing kids get abused in media the same way I was, and then get help form other concerned characters once they found out. I remember wishing that was me, recognizing the abuse for what it was, and eventually reach out.

In short, I probably would not be here if it wasn't because of the benefits fiction can provide.

And on a note, CP (child porn) is a gross, outdated term. The correct terms are CSEM and CSAM.

In each case, referring to a fictional drawing or written content as either is disrespectful towards victims.

TL;DR

(start PT/ too long; didn't read /end PT)

My final stance on shipcourse is that I am against censorship, extremely again harassment, and I'm neutral to both antishippers and proshippers that are willing to behave decently with one another.

Don't ask me about shipcourse again if not in the comments here, please. And only if it's relevant to this post.

Sending anyone CSEM makes you WORSE of anyone who likes to watch goddamn lolis or whatever, okay? I can't believe I have to say this, but REAL CHILDREN being abused is worse by a long shot.

I wish harm to no one except people who have sent me, solivan, or anyone else CSEM links. I hope your end is painful.

[regulus-cdd-black]

why do I go away for two weeks and then find out there's drama in the awv. why do you people have to ruin everything

(of course it's because of the discord server and shipcourse, lmao. it really feeds my NPD whenever I'm proven right. Shipcourse is dumb and y'all worry too much about it)

I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT IT THO DON'T ASK ME DETAILS I DO NOT KNOW.

I block all shipcourse tags from both antishippers and proshippers I don't like any side of it and I don't see any discussion about it, because it's triggering for me and I am NOT going to look into it so don't ask me please

[regulus-cdd-black]

Although I said I wouldn't look into it, I was made aware of some other things that happened inside the discord server that I would not refer to as "drama", as they were ableist actions. I don't think I can offer any explanation, of course, because I was never involved in it and thank the stars I wasn't. Either way, I want to reassure everyone that nothing I openly call drama is, to my knowledge, anything I don't find stupid. I think shipcourse is stupid and that's why I call it drama. I think a lot of fandom things are stupid and that's why I call them drama. I don't think any form of discrimination is a stupid topic to talk about and I wouldn't call it drama.

Either way, despite my love for the previous awv, Ive decided to separate myself from it. I want to rework my intro, change this username, and this also applies to @pro-willo-kinger (who will just become my archive)

thw purpose of this blog won't change!

I also want to change my character entirely because I am no longer attached to TADC - I don't care for any discourse inside the fandom, by the way, or about the creator, or anything that doesn't happen inside the show itself.

I simply don't really vibe with it as much as I used to, and even if I still love kinger, and probably will keep him, SOMEWHERE, Ill definitely pick another character

Since our Regulus alter recently became co-host because we noticed he fronts frequently, and since he also leads @venting-about-endos and @carousel-coining , we may as well theme our profile about his source

(we don't support JKR and never will. we don't buy merch, we don't consume the source if not through piracy, and we don't condone ignoring the harmful messages and caricatures inside the series)

as for the situation: don't ask us about it, we are not the right person to, and please do not give us any additional information / any details, as the topic is triggering

[nyaneru--neru]

fyi im pro recovery even for the "big 3" paras.

fyi im pro recovery even if you think youre "too far gone".

fyi im pro recovery even if youre not ready yet.

fyi im pro recovery even if my recovery looks different than yours.

fyi youre valid in your recovery.

i believe you can recover from wanting to hurt people.

i believe you can apologize to the people you've hurt.

i believe you deserve a happy life and a second chance.

[regulus-cdd-black]

I really dislike people who pick and choose what they think is a "real" mental illness or not. just because the thought of hypersexuality being a thing makes you feel "icky" doesn't mean you can call hypersexual people perverts or creeps or mistreat them basex off their disorder alone.

this goes for everything btw, not just hypersexuality (it's an example)

[solivan-edu]

hope we can rant about this but; As a non-human alter, seeing people say that i cannot consent is... absurd? Non-human alters typically stem from dehumanisation, so it's just even MORE dehumanising to see that to some people, I am not allowed to consent?

It makes me question what i can really do. What am i supposed to do? these people make me feel like i'm going to be treated like an animal, and that frightens me and makes me hesitant and so unsure?

I might jyst be overthinking it but like :(

- Ant (she/her)

I'm really sorry those posts made you feel that way.

When people say things like "non-human alters can't consent because they aren't human," they are treating the experience far more literally than it actually is. In CDDs, non-human alters are still dissociative self-states within a human brain. Calling a non-human alter "incapable of consent because they're an animal" isn't a clinical concept—it's someone projecting their own assumptions onto an internal experience. For a lot of people, non-human identities are deeply connected to trauma, dehumanization, protection, symbolism, or how the mind organized overwhelming experiences. Telling those alters they're "basically animals" or that they have no autonomy can end up reinforcing the same dehumanization the alters are often coping with. I've said it once and I'll say it again, radnormals and others saying this have no clue of how CDD alters work. It's mostly full of singlet children who are usually repulsed by sex, so I wouldn't listen to them really. Ultimately, systems are still people. If the body is an adult, everyone involved is working toward recovery, and there is internal agreement and healthy communication, reducing a non-human alter to "an animal that can't consent" doesn't reflect how dissociative disorders are understood. It strips away the system/alter's agency by pretending that an internal identity is equivalent to a literal non-human creature. This includes littles too! You deserve to be treated as you want and not have your identity weaponized against you.

[grave-ghost-sys]

i've learned that unless it's a highly vulnerable part i really don't have to care when i switch and i think other systems need to know that too honestly

there's so much pressure on knowing who you are at all times but that isn't necessarily healing

focus on your safety and happiness first

everything else follows naturally

[plut0-plan3tzz]

"Endos aren't claiming to be disordered!! We're not claiming to have DID or OSDD!! 🥺"

Y'all literally added two lines to the DID/OSDD flag and called it yours??

Y'all can't create lies about yourself to make you seem less ableist when it's clearly bullshit

Stop pretending you have a neurocognitive condition that can only be caused by trauma when you don't have trauma.

— ⛔️ (?)

[regulus-cdd-black]

bello kinger

hiii!!! I'm glad to see you back!! I hope everything is okay!!!

[solivan-edu]

HELLO HELLOO!!! i hope you're well too!! everything is peam so far WAHOO

[regulus-cdd-black]

I'm so glad to hear that!!!!