Billy Hargrove x sister!reader
summary: Billy tries, to the best of his ability, to cheer up his sister on the night of the Hawkins Middle Schoolâs annual Snow Ball.
warning(s): negative self talk, mention of parental neglect
a/n: sorry itâs so long i just love platonic billy hargrove lol.
Of all the things Billy had imagined himself doing on a Friday night, driving his sisters to some stupid middle school dance was nowhere on that list.
He leant against the front door, already dressed in his leather jacket and carpenter boots as he fidgeted with an unlit cigarette heâd been holding for what seemed like goddamned years at that point. He knew chicks tended to take their time in getting ready for these kinds of thingsâHell, even he might spare a few extra minutes making sure he looked good for a partyâbut this was getting ridiculous.
After another long stretch of time spent listening to the ticking of the wall clock and slowly losing what remained of his patience, Billy had finally had enough. It was bad enough that Neil had personally appointed him as his sistersâ chauffeur for the eveningâhe wouldnât wait for them all goddamned night.
âY/N!â He called, knocking at the closed door of the hall bathroom. Max and Susan were busy in the master, leaving Y/N to get ready on her own. âYou better be out here in the next minute or Iâm leaving without you, you got that?â
âAlright, alright! Iâm coming!â she replied.
âJesus Christ,â he mumbled. âAbout fucking time.â
Y/N finished fluffing up her hair in the mirror, nodding at her reflection before opening the bathroom door. She was faced with the flat expression of her big brother, who just barely regarded her as she sauntered into the hallway.
âHow do I look?â She asked expectantly, a hopeful smile plastered on her young face. Billy snorted to himself.
And though he would never admit it, he almost regretted his words as his sisterâs lips pulled into a frown.
âYou got a jacket?â He asked, his cigarette now carefully balanced between his lips. He was itching to light it, and cursed Susan for whatever stupid rules sheâd come up with about smoking in the house. She claimed she could smell it on her curtains.
Y/N kicked her feet with a shrug, purposely avoiding his eyes as her cheeks flushed. Suddenly she felt incredibly overdressed for the occasion. âWeâre gonna be inside.â
âItâs December in goddamned Indiana. Get a jacket.â
Y/N huffed, running off towards her bedroom. Meanwhile, Max finally finished up with her mother and came out of their parentsâ bedroom with a blank look on her face, Susan trailing behind her. Her typically unruly red of hair was straightened out and braided at the front, and to the untrained eye she came across as a proper young woman.
âDoesnât she look lovely, Billy?â Susan cooed, positively beaming, and Max gave him a pointed look that doubled as a warning.
âPrecious,â Billy deadpanned, and Max glared as her mother giggled, clearly not clued in on her step-brotherâs most obvious sarcasm. Y/N returned wearing one of Maxâs old hand me down coats, and before they knew it Susan was rushing the girls to force exaggerated smiles as she snapped some photos with her polaroid. Billy hung back out of frame.
Billy almost sighed with relief as Susan wrapped up and his sisters joined him in the entryway, but before the three could slip out the front door, she caught Max by the shoulders.
âYou look so beautiful, baby,â she said with a smile.
âOh, donât you worry. I wonât get sappy. I just . . . I want you to have so much fun tonight, okay? Both of you.â She spared Y/N a glance, and Y/N offered her step-mother a tight-lipped smile despite the pain in her chest.
For as long as she could remember, Y/N had wanted a mother more than anything else. Sheâd been a toddler by the time her and Billyâs mom had left, and everyday after that she felt like a piece of her was missing. She wished for her on every birthday candle and every Christmas night; she spoke to every God she knew, praying that she would one day return with open arms, ready to whisk her and her brother away from Neil and his iron fist.
After years and years of painful disappointment, Y/N finally learned that some dreams were better off forgotten.
âHurry up unless you wanna be late,â Billy called over his shoulder as he strolled out door, and Susan waved as the Hargrove-Mayfield siblings made their way toward Billyâs Camaro.
Y/N scoffed. Max wasnât even wearing a jacket.
The ride to the middle school was silent, save for Billyâs music blasting from the stereo. Y/N spent it fidgeting with her hands in her lap, looking down at her nails that Max had painted the night before. Sheâd been so excited for this only hours ago, and now all she felt was unloved and unwanted, haunted by the hole in her heart that her mother had carved all those years ago.
Max was out of the car as soon as Billy pulled into a parking spot, anxious to see Lucas and wanting to avoid whatever crude comments Billy was planning to make before she stepped out. âOut by nine!â Billy yelled after her, and Max didnât falter in her stride as she flipped him the bird and kept walking.
âLittle shit,â Billy mumbled.
Y/N was a lot less eager to get inside, now unsure whether she even wanted to go at all. She felt stupid in her best dress shoes and ironed skirt, the glittery shadow sheâd applied to her eyelids only minutes earlier now heavy on her skin. No matter how much she dressed up she was still the same child her mother decided she was better off without.
âYou getting out or what?â Billy drawled, exhaling a cloud of smoke as he watched her through the rearview mirror. Y/N sighed, tucking a piece of hair behind her ear.
âNo, I think . . . letâs just go back.â Billy pulled a face, turning in his seat to meet her eyes.
âThe Hell do you mean? Youâve been blabbing about going to this shitty dance for weeks, Y/N.â
âYeah, well. I changed my mind,â Y/N mumbled, and Billy scoffed, turning back to stare out at the kids crowding the schoolâs entrance. Kids with their mothers wishing them well and fathers watching proudly as their children prepared for what Billy imagined would be the absolute lamest excuse of a ball that the world would ever see.
He took another greedy drag, running his hands through his hair. âIs it âcause I called you a geek?â
ââCause if it is you oughtta stop being such a baby.â
âI said it wasnât!â Y/N snapped. She paused, expecting her brother to go off on some power trip about her attitude, but Billy didnât even twitch in the driverâs seat as he nursed his Marlboro Red. She sighed. âLetâs just go, okay? Please.â
But he didnât. In fact, Billy made a point of making himself comfortable, carrying on smoking without a care in the world.
âBilly?â He ignored her, taking another long drag followed by another exhale, and repeating the pattern. âBilly!â
âShut up,â He spat, and she begrudgingly resumed waiting in silence as her brother smoked. It took several minutes before he got to the end of the cig, and Y/N watched as he stepped out of the Camaro, slamming the door behind him and crushing the bud beneath his heel.
âGet out,â he said simply. Y/N only sat, frozen in her confusion. âWhat, are you deaf? I said get out.â
âWhat are you doing?â
âGoddamn it, Y/N, get out of the car!â
She sighed, obeying her brother with an aggravated look on her face. Billy didnât wait for her as he started on his walk across the parking lot. He only swivelled on his heels when he realized that she wasnât following him, and was in fact still planted next to the Camaro with furrowed brows. Billy made a big show of rolling his eyes. âJesus Christ, do I need to hold your goddamned hand or what? Get a move on, shithead.â
âWhaâBilly!â He continued to walk, avoiding her as she yelled after him. âUgh!â Y/N groaned, relenting as she speed-walked behind him in attempts not to draw too much attention to herself. Passerbyers were already starting to give her strange looks when she yelled for him, and the last thing she wanted right now were people's eyes on her.
âBilly what are you doing? I already told you I donât wanna go in!â Y/N started as soon as she was close enough, though not fully caught up to him. Her brotherâs legs were much longer than hers, which made one of his strides maybe three of hers. âWill you just stop? I said I wââ
âYou look cute, alright?â
His words threw Y/N for a loop. She paused mid-step, considering whether that really just came out of her brotherâs mouth or if sheâd only hallucinated it. The honk of a car trying get past her was what wound up pulling Y/N from her trance, and Billy groaned as he grabbed her by the wrist and yanked her up onto the sidewalk next to him.
âChrist, Y/N. Can you use your fucking head for a second?â
âWhat did you just say?â Y/N asked softly, ignoring his crude comment and searching his eyes for something Billy couldnât place. He shoved his hands in his pockets, deeply uncomfortable in his current position.
âYou heard me,â He said after a moment, and Y/N was surprised that he even acknowledged what heâd said. Billy Hargrove wasnât one to give complimentsâespecially not to his shitty little sister. ââM not gonna say it again.â
âIf I knew you were gonna harp on it so much I wouldnâtâve said shit, alright?â He scratched awkwardly at his neck, casually avoiding his sisterâs large eyes as she stared at him like he was someone sheâd never met before. âLook, Y/N. I waited for you to get ready for this thing for a goddamned hour. If youâre telling me I did that shit just to take you right back home Iâm gonna be pissed.â
âI . . . I donât know if I shouldââ
âI do,â Billy said, pointing at the opened doors of her school. âGo. But Iâd better see your ass on the curb by nine, you got that?â
Y/N felt herself smiling, even as Billy fixed her with yet another one of his bored stares. You look cute. She couldnât shake the words from her head, nor the sincerity with which he'd said them.
âGot it.â Billy only nodded before starting on his way back to the Camaro, car keys in hand. âHey, Billy?â She called after him just as he crossed the street, and he fixed her with a glare.
âThank you,â Y/N said sweetly. Billy scoffed, averting his gaze and mumbling a whatever under his breath.
Y/N looked around in wonder at the gymnasium, taking in the many decorations strung around what served as the âdance floorâ and navigating her way through groups of her dancing peers.
She found the Party near the snack table (figures) and blushed as the boys stood slack-jawed and wide eyed as she approached them.
âHey guys,â She greeted. Max rolled her eyes at the boysâ reaction, smacking Dustin upside the head before the kid started to drool.
"Ow!" Max ignored him, shooting a smile Y/N's way.
âHey, Y/N.â Y/N shoved in next to her step-sister at the snack table, grabbing herself a solo cup and filling it up with punch. âWhat took you so long? Was Billy being an asshole again?â
Yeah, she thought, he was. He was being an asshole just like he always was, but even more than that, he was being her big brother. The same big brother who beat up her bullies, and who bandaged her wounds, and who wouldnât let her miss out on something he knew sheâd been excited for.
He was an asshole, and he cared about her. That much he could never deny.
âSomething like that,â Y/N responded, and Max gave her a confused look as she smiled.