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For the record. I am not telling anybody to make posts on my behalf. People are doing that of their own free will.

TWs for: ideation, harassment, threat mentions, serious talk, sexual insults / threats mentions

Trigger warning; mildly irritated post about folk who think I'm some sort of coward for taking a break

Suicidal mentions, SH mentions, SA mentions, and a bit of in depth explanations of traumatic events. Animal death mention and hallucinatory mentions.

For the record: I do not plan on acting out on any thoughts. The point of this post is to explain that if I do not step away those thoughts may get to a point where I want to, and I refuse to fall to that point right now.

henry-the-yearner

Project Solace, despite proving many times the accusations theyve recieved were fake or baseless (as most screenshots were out of context), still recieves harassment. I encourage to block those harassers and not give them attention, which is what fuel them.

Screenshot isn't mine. DO NOT HARASS ANYONE, username is simply here for blocking purposes You are also encouraged to block the people purposely lying through cropped screenshots, harmful rhetorics about therianthropy terms being zoophilic, etc. The main people to BLOCK (NOT HARASS, BE THE MATURE ONE.) would be emerald-secret and project-solace-callout.

AGAIN, DO NOT HARASS THEM, BLOCK THEM.

official-project-solace

Alright. Explicitly tried to give them a chance to back off because I didn't want to make this. Apologies, I just woke up, please feel free to ask questions or clarifications.

First of all here's me "defending people jumping a minor" with the screenshot of what they were upset about

Opposum also told someone to kill themselves (granted, it was a zeal defender, but it goes to show how two faced they are in a situation like this)

Apologies for the discord icons I was playing games with some discord members when I had to start taking care of this situation last night

And here is a statement from someone involved. There was a lot more detail when we spoke of it but I figured a statement should be enough for now since they were willing to speak.

"To be honest i didn’t want this to escalate but whatever they want

Ngl it’s funny how one of them is all about boundaries but when i stated mines yesterday I was ignored by them, even if it was being read out loud by a TTS bot, they even bother to talk over the TTS bot

Well i am sorry if I didn’t get to work for all of you on this, I was not gonna risk my anxiety spikes either way ngl

Ik you all want to start this out of a miscommunication, you all decided to take Leon’s statement about the tonetags as if he was only applying it to the “victim” instead of obviously saying it EVERYONE in that chat

Specially ik about the chats since i saw the dms get streamed, along I don’t get why do this but its in been eating up cause it all felt wrong, specially yesterday calling him a “dickrider” (I bet you all doing the same with me rn lol) only cause someone was more polite about there criticism than Raven, not cause the system was Painter.

I love how you all about boundaries while here you are harassing someone in there tumblr page."

^ when originally talking about this, this is what led me to remove the members from my server. Involving an innocent person and making them uncomfortable about it was upsetting, and if they can shit talk me, they can shit talk anyone in that server.

Here was me being a "dickrider" and also? They deleted all the messages so I wouldn't have evidence but I took screenshots while it was happening because I'm not a fucking idiot. The dickrider part was because someone gave feedback but they actually treated me nicely about it. They turned around and shit talked me with Raven who had already upset several members + gotten mad at someone of age for smoking a cigarette until I told them to knock it off in call. Several mods confirmed the behavior was disrespectful and not constructive, especially expecting that I'm writing pressure when I'm not. I'm writing Project Solace.

^ them having deleted their messages. If they were in the right why the fuck did they delete them? They also at some point in the conversation claimed something along the lines of "well IM being called rude for giving criticism" when a member was confused as to what was going on.

Supposedly, this isn't jumping someone. But calling Sebastian a medieval peasant is.

I would also like to state, y'all are really expectant of an 18yo. Being a legal adult doesn't change the fact that I'm still young and have not lived even a quarter of my expected lifespan. My brain is still developing and I'm processing trauma and dealing with disability. I'm not going to be your "mature adult" it's eightTEEN because I am barely an adult myself. Being "oh you're so immature" as a defense is also ableist as fuck, by the way, especially when you're using it to put someone with mental disabilities down, whether you mean for it to be ableist or not it fucking is.

I think this is all the current stuff I have (I've hit photo limit as well) and I'm willing to find more and answer any questions about it.

I still also have the screenshots of all the BS they're harassing me with on @princeleonis but I suggest you go look yourself since I have in fact run out of photo space here. I will address them in a later post anyway, but if you'd like to know beforehand.

despairingrat

Calling us two-faced is rich coming from someone like you. Firstly, the comment was made by Rex, an anger holder who doesn’t appreciate people defending sex offenders because of something we went through that caused him to form. While that doesn’t excuse his behavior fully, you immediately switched up on us and doxxed a bunch of kids because we bruised your ego. Mind you, even people you’ve worked as a mod for before have come forward saying you are insanely immature and were fired because of behavior like this. You just got mad because we weren’t glazing you constantly and banned our whole friend group from your shitty pressure rewrite server because one of our friends made you upset, and now you’re crying and whining about how everything is lies and you’re just a baby who’s never done anything wrong in his life. Grow up, Leonis.

official-project-solace

Yeah I actually unadded Cal today because of the statement his partner made about Ren recently. I guess he got salty.

That situation? Yeah. Both of us were both pretty mentally fucked. But it was originally in a joking light until we both got overwhelmed. So I went to the mod channel and let them know, and we talked about it. Cal was a genuine friend to me, and I cared about him. I later left because I felt it wasn't my group to be with, as mental health and interests clashed quite often and I didn't want to cause any trouble. I could've been better about it, but so could he. My partner left that server and he started freaking out blaming himself while I was worried my partner was going to harm themselves. I was worried my partner could be considering suicide at the time and they kept asking me to go confirm that it wasn't Cal's sys's fault. I tried to remain calm and told them I'd do it when I knew my partner was safe and okay. And I did, and they texted Cal themselves from what I know.

Both of us could've been better. I definitely could've been better, but I was also reassured by them that it was okay and it happens, and that Cal does the exact same thing. But there's a reason I left. There's a reason that I backed off when I felt it wouldn't continue to be a good friendship.

I did not get fired. I left.

My partner was actually worried I was self sabotaging but in all honesty I did it so everyone wonderful I met + myself, we didn't end on a big bad fight, but instead a calmer note. Especially at such a rough time for me when my symptoms were more haywire than usual.

I unadded Cal on discord *today* because I didn't like his partner's statement on the pressure situation and how Ren was spoken about. I didn't say anything, we haven't talked for a long while. But isn't that the beauty in life, that you can choose to cut off when you feel you're not doing well or making things better for people, and you can choose to become better?

Me and the folk in that server, we clashed. I was heavily uncomfortable a lot of the time and I coped in ways that made others uncomfortable too. That's why I left, and I was honest about it to the person who had spoken to me about being uncomfortable with some of my behaviors. I explained, apologized, and proceeded to explain that I would leave because I felt it wouldn't work out and I appreciated their time. That part, I'm sure I can find screenshots of since it was DMs.

Also, you stiiillllll don't know what doxxing means.

You know who gives me criticism? My closest friends. My "glazers". And yeah sometimes I'm not sure how to feel about it, but usually I will listen and if it's a true concern work on making that better or tell people beforehand what I might struggle with. I'm still working on it, I don't have access to therapy and I'm not in a good situation IRL. Sometimes I fuck up. Everybody does.

But what I did not fuck up was this. Two of you left prematurely. Two of you got banned. All were discord ID banned for your shitty behavior. You're harassing anyone you don't agree with, you're DEHUMANIZING people, you're refusing to actually have a constructive conversation under the guise id blow up.

Raven got a bit of a harsher response from me, but that's because I had already warned staff to keep an eye on them for **making several members uncomfortable.** I was tired of them treating others like they could do whatever they wanted. And yeah I did get a bit heated, I can admit that. But I didn't fucking harass them. I told them they were being mean, which they were. I told them I'm not writing pressure, which they seemed to claim. I did not call them a dum-dum idiot or anything.

Apparently it's jumping when it's a sebastian joke (from another minor- who y'all are acting like was some big bad adult-) but it's not jumping when someone starts being a genuine asshole about a piece of writing someone put their heart into.

You, my friend, are the ableist ones. Among other things, here's what I've personally noticed.

- constantly using maturity and age insults like baby, etc. commonly used against neurodivergent people who still exhibit less adult behaviors in some form.

- attempting to use my PD symptoms to twist my words and intentions.

- attempting to make me out to be ableist against systems despite, none of this was about anyone being a system or their symptoms being fake. At least three systems were involved, me being one of them.

You are clinging onto any cold, dead words you can find. Such little evidence on your behalf that I've had several people contact me without even reading my post wondering what the fuck y'all are on. Ignoring any of my changes as a better person just so you can paint me soulless, as if I do possess the same human qualities as you.

And remember the key thing when it comes to systemality; while alters may act on their own, say or think differing things on their own, the entire system is responsible for any poor actions and should take accountability as such. You cannot physically separate. Trust me I wish you could.

I appreciate you taking some recognition of the behaviors being wrong but y'all genuinely disrespected victims of SA and years-long manipulation.

You also call me immature but, one of your lil group threatened legal action (which. would not work for anyone, I highly doubt it'd even get picked up. Unfortunate though because you'd be doing me a favor because I don't know how to report legally with this stuff if it reaches an illegal standpoint.) you cannot block and move on, and you're so deeply obsessed with me that y'all can't just drop the idea of being the only sole victims for five seconds. All I hear is hypocrisy, hypocrisy, hypocrisy.

If anything, the few people that I no longer speak to after this, are worth seeing people believe in the right things. It tells me who are honest and good people.

For the reference, I genuinely considered you one of my friends. I never hated you. I was neutral on raven having not known them very well but the rest of you three I considered friends.

Friendships don't work out sometimes. Especially if ideas or symptoms can clash in a way where both parties get hurt. But y'all attacking people? Are you serious? Do you feel the need to act like I'm fucking trump and they're all little MAGAs? Do you really feel the need to call a human being a lapdog and dm people and send hateful asks?

You cannot see the good in anyone but yourself.

I saw a group like you once. They turned on each other sometime after I cut them out of my life. They randomly painted the older one of the group as abusive, for no reason except being asked to help with a discord.

Something tells me that if you somehow don't split on each other after you get bored of this, y'all's relationships to each other will never be healthy. You'll never be truly happy if you can't actually see past yourself or a person or two.

That's what I did with the "jumping" situation. I could've just shut it down. But I sat and thought "you know, I get it. I'd probably feel the same way too, especially with how I've misunderstood tone in the past or messed up my own." Nobody in that chat was a tone master. So I suggested tone tags for everyone, it was neutral, it kept things from being harsh or escalating, and hopefully nobody would feel in trouble because of it as that situation was an innocent misunderstanding.

For someone so soulless, I do a lot more feeling than you'd think. Even when my empathy dies on symptom swings. Even when I feel like I can't trust anyone or that the world is out to get me.

I hope that's something you learn too. Even if not now. I genuinely hope you grow to be a better person and I hope everyone involved does too, on any side. I may not like you. In fact I may have hate towards you for the people you've hurt that I care for. But I don't want you dead or gone or harassed.

So genuinely, I hope you heal from whatever it is you're struggling with. This goes for you. For everyone else involved from cal, to raven, to my own friends and followers. Everyone deserves a chance to grow.

Even people who are hellbent on ruining a few people's lives.

I will say you doing your shit talk in VC was smart. But I think it's pretty obvious that it's true considering I was told you guys claimed dickriding before you ever made a post about it.

P.s. I don't have a dick. I do not like them. so please, find another word that doesn't involve the idea of sexual actions. Especially when there's minors involved, since that's something you're focusing on. More minors than just the ones on your side by the way.

I told you, we could just cut it off and forget about each other. You guys started this. Your insults and your false claims are not proof. They are just pathetic attempts to make me look like *I'm* the one not taking accountability for the shit *you* started.

This will likely be one of my last longer statements or replies. I will still speak when I need to, reblog when needed, but I'm going to listen to my friends and stop overengaging. You can claim this is because I "have no evidence" or whatever, but I've made my point. I've shown the evidence. I can even get more I'm sure, even if not every little thing you demand. Our protectors are tired of watching this too, they don't want me to engage anymore for the sake of everyone since, the chaotic attention is what keeps you going.

So there, you have me taking accountability for what I've actually done. For what actually happened. Because while yeah sometimes it sucks to be wrong I know when to step up and explain. Even if it's not something I remember as well anymore.

And cal, when you see this. I cared about you to the very end. Regardless of what you think of me, I'm grateful you were my friend. The same goes for Seb before, inevitably I felt bitter because of my symptoms after we cut off. For a while, you guys reminded me I was a human. It's honestly sad to see that you couldn't remind yourselves the things that you taught me. And it's sad to see what you think of Ren, considering a lot of what was mentioned in that post reminded me of what Cal spoke about in terms of his own symptoms. I hope you two heal. Because I know you were going through a lot, and I think you deserve to see a better life.

You can say I'm being "guilt trip victim card" or whatever you want, but I'm being honest. 100% honest. And I'm willing to clarify any confusion in this post and talk about what I remember. I'm willing to ask my partner or my friends for statements for anywhere they were involved as well.

Anyways, I do have to rest. I'm having bad flare ups and I'm going to see some IRL friends tomorrow. So everyone reading, do have a nice night, day, or whatever it is for you. Goodnight.

medkitwaffles

I felt inspired to do my own statement but I am doing this for closure since idk how long it will take me to recover after all of this.

I trusted all of you, I trusted you Clover, Raven, Octavian, Vesper and Opossum I genuinely did and I wanted to believe you guys but I guess honesty comes with a cost.

I am gonna get personal so warning for: SH, emotional distress and emotional/mental abuse

Today it happens at 5 AM, I woke up with pings of the staff chat, I had to go to school too that day. I saw the pings of that “tumblr call out post” they kept talking about in vc, and Ofc I was included as a “ratting them out” despite it was me expressing my discomfort cause all of you won’t stop talking about Leon.

“Leon did this! Leon did that!” I couldnt mask it, I am bad at lying, so I told him everything.

I am sorry if couldnt keep my mouth shut for all of you, the dog you wanted with a muzzle that wouldnt bark, cause that’s you wanted right? Cause that what everyone wants from me, a stupid dog with a muzzle.

That’s why I got mad at the word “lapdog”, I am no one’s dog and I don’t want to be compared to one, my family and everyone outside of it has said how “gullible” I am…just like a dog, and let me tell you I am no one’s dog, I am not Leon’s and I am not yours. I was abused like this by many people who called me “there friend”, I was emotionally and mentally abused to act like a dog who can only submit to others, if you guys are dehumanising me again, then block me already, I don’t wanna see you, you all are just making me remember past abuse.

I had to go school with heart spikes, I couldn’t focus on my class, I kept looking at my phone out of paranoia until people in the server told me to get off for my sake. During the time of drawing I was the brink of relapsing, how I was gonna relapse when I get back home in the shower, I was spiralling SO BAD it was scary.

Like I genuinely trusted you all, I really wanted to invited you guys to PolarZero and work with me, for a reason I showed drawings, facts and recordings of my advance on PolarZero, DAMN I EVEN SHARED WITH YOU ALL MY VENTSONA.

But what I gain is harassment and get dehumanise for doing the right thing, WHAT IT FELT RIGHT FOR ME, I was not power hungry or anything, I did it out of gut feeling and responsibility to not lie and tell the truth, I did not wanted mod or i was intended to, Leon himself offered me mod position after I spilled my feelings and told him truth, HONESTY, a word all of you won’t ever understand.

I want this to end and be left out, stop dragging bystanders into this, they are just confused and want answers, one thing is not blurring me and Leon but the other is not blurring people who are only witnessing it and nowhere in middle of this, stop falsely accusing me of doxxing, Leon only wanted the usernames to block them himself personally, I am not a monster, I was not gonna leak them, you all really wanted to take that screenshot out of context and scrapping the bottom of the barrel for an excuse to have dirt on me.

For now, MOVE ON, all you move on, you all arent gaining anything by going in my dms and call me a “shitty person”, you all gain nothing.

Clover, Vesper, Raven and Opossum, I hope all of you can try to move on like I am trying to right now, I don’t want any of you responding to this and I hope all of you respect that boundary despite the others I have establish with all of you but I was still ignored.

I just wanted to make this post of closure and letting my feelings out, this feels like a brain eating parasite, so pls again, dont try to respond to this cause I won’t neither respond, I want my peace and not be reminded that I am a dog.

Also no, I did not make this for guilt tripping, this is out of genuine mental instability cause my mind won’t stop spiralling, if it sounds like a guilt trip, I am sorry, right now I don’t know how to put my words.

Good day, evening or night, stay safe all of you.

chumbley

I just to get the truth out there

Some things I wanna clear up about this. This isn’t the callout of a call-out I simply want to clear the air and get the truth out there cause this dude isn’t posting the full context. I don’t wanna say anything about this anymore after that but I trust people can make their own opinions and conclusions about these people and their blog. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY DO NOT HARASS ANYONE IN HERE. This is to make things clearer and eastier not to bully or harass

I wasn’t sent by anyone to “harass” the blogs, I done it if my own choice because the blogs are hallucinating claims that came out of nowhere

I did not harass anyone like this post claimed, I respectfully reached out to this guy and he was being very aggressive towards me

here’s the screenshots of that before I was blocked

Leon was never going to dox anyone as multiple people have stated close to the situation. They wanted to put them on a blacklist so people would not interact with the people causing trouble, there has been a blacklist in the server for a long time it is nothing new

While yes they were potentially talking about Roblox usernames it was NEVER supposed to put on a public blacklist it was just to block them on roblox . And even if they did putting a Roblox username on a blacklist for people to avoid not harass is not doxxing. (Since this seems to be the main thing the callout post is falling back on)

One or multiple of these people were stalking the discord server and taking screenshots of people not even involved and refusing to blur out anything like usernames. Which in my opinion is a bit sketchy and makes everyone paranoid and unsafe

i 100% understand this is a very confusing and complex situation and that no one wants to hear anymore about it. But I implore everyone to look at all the evidence available before you come to a conclusion wherever that may be. This will be the last time I talk about it and remember

I’m not doing this to direct an attack or harass anyone involved. I simply want to show credible evidence of the call out post and the people behind it are being a bit sketchy and agressive

THIS DOES NOT MEAN ATTACK OR HARASS ANYONE I can’t stress it enough please just respectfully come to your only conclusion with what credible evidence is out there

I just to get the truth out there

I wasn’t sent by anyone to “harass” the blogs, I done it if my own choice because the blogs are hallucinating claims that came out of nowhere

I did not harass anyone like this post claimed, I respectfully reached out to this guy and he was being very aggressive towards me

here’s the screenshots of that before I was blocked

I’m not doing this to direct an attack or harass anyone involved. I simply want to show credible evidence of the call out post and the people behind it are being a bit sketchy and agressive

THIS DOES NOT MEAN ATTACK OR HARASS ANYONE I can’t stress it enough please just respectfully come to your only conclusion with what credible evidence is out there

#pressure #pressure rewrite #pressure rebuilt #pressure roblox #pressure sebastian #sebastian solace #pressure rewritten

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