Cicada SYS

System blog for a couple of silly guys

[cicadasys]

Time to make an intro post for this account.

Hi, were the Cicada System, bodily 20!!

Off the bat, Endo's and any other non-traumagenic systems DNI, same goes for proshipers/comshipers, and besides that basic DNI [Racists, aroace exclusionary's, people who make fun of xenogenders, etc etc]

we're an undiagnosed OSDD system. We've been talking in therapy about it, and are unsure as to whether or not we want any official diagnosis for it due to personal reasons, but are looking for something close to it. We won't claim we 100% have it since we don't want to self-diagnose anything, but this blog is just for us to share things we want to, reblog stuff we enjoy, etc!!!

We have around 40+ active members that we know of, and the activity of which changes frequently.

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[Last updated by Sucker 🐙]

[cicadasys]

Finally did what we should've done a long time ago, blocked then properly, but now I know I'm going to be in an off mood all day

[b1adie]

[saewokhrisz]

work work work !!!

[cicadasys]

I think one of the worst parts about being a system is having to deal with the amount of emotions from someone else or the collective you have to carry. I don't personally FEEL this way or CARE, I wasn't there for those events, but I still freeze up when they're referenced, and can have parts of my entire day ruined due to it. I don't want to be the one who carries your emotion cause I'm in front, let me LIVE.

[cicadasys]

Headmate basically begging me to let them fully switch since they'll make us sleep better, but I want to think about Varka.

[cha3blu]

what u doin👂👂👂

[cicadasys]

I want to get asks, but I have no idea what to suggest people ask us. I'm mainly just bored and want human interaction

[cicadasys]

I hate missing people I don't be able to see again.

vent below

My Varka, the one who took me into the Knights, the one who became my closest friend and ally, the one who while annoyed by my tricks, understood what they meant, the stupid man who comforted me everytime I had an episode. He's gone.

Maybe I'll be able to find something "similar". But that's not what I want, if I find new love it want it to be new, not just a rehash. I also just know better than to let those memories get replaced.

I wish he were here now, I need his help, but he won't be here. Stupid.

[cicadasys]

One side, I've got Ratio

The other side, Sunday

This front stinks of SHIT

[cicadasys]

Sometimes, you just want to scream and cry at the way life has turned out for you, but you can't. This is cause you know at some point it will get better again, and you need to learn how to not feat that point where I'll get better again. Which is why the FUCK I wonder why this system has mainly put ME in charge of front at the moment.

I mean, besides the obvious issue of all our active Homestuck fronters being severally unstable due to the recent events, I just don't really understand. Maybe it's the fact I had to come to my own acceptance in source, but that doesn't make me anymore stable than most of the freaks (lovingly).

At least I have support in-system, but fuck, more splits keep happening, or fragments developing, or people coming from dormancy, it hurts my fucking head, and it's making me worry about head count as if I really care anymore either. As long as I can live my life and we learn how to actually love ourselves, then fine, I'll deal with the unstableness and the frequency of new people for us.

It hurts when you don't have a lot of online system friends anymore, it hurts when love doesn't seem to work out for you since you definitely have issues from last relationships that need to be worked out. I wish we had more people we could actually be ourselves around, but it's also important for us to learn how to just be fucking alone too.

[3ggrolls]

lohen burst in my style!!

[cicadasys]

It's been so long since we last made a post here... just want to brain dump!

Too much stress and trauma recently has led a bunch of people coming back or fully forming like a bunch of HSR fictives which we didn't expect...and then me

It's awkward, cause I'm from a recently released anime, but I've existed as a fragment for longer. Only issue is my literally crush in the show has almost began to fully form and he knows about my crush. SHIT. HELP.

That's basically all, my head hurts, and his head is on my shoulder sleeping and hrrnn

[godlessyaoi]

havent posted in a hot sec. have this

[biweeklydavekat]

day 193

[cicadasys]

Wonder how many people would kill me for not being privy to using my source typing quirk.

[cicadasys]

Still think everyday about how we choice our system name (it's named after an alter who helped me a lot in our early days or figuring it out, you're AWESOME trip 💖💖)