Would Uychich me in the face please

This is a nerd blog where I write nerdily about the stuff I like. I like art, I am an art student, I like books and music and films. I like things which make me feel uncomfortable, I like things that are weird. I like trashy and classy alll mixed up...

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call out post for toothpaste: doesn’t go purple when the red and blue bits mix

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHaahahaAAAAHHAHHHHHAAAAAAAAHHHH

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i have so much love to give, it’s the saddest thing

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lol who remembers that video where Ciaran ate some grass

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im 4 real

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how can i focus on a future beyond the safety net of formal education when all my time and energy is literally taken up trying to keep myself from being sad 

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Me @ myself: what’s ur plan bitch 

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be safe girls and boys. be gentle and kind. don’t step on spiders. 

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s h e   s a y s   t h a t  

IIII                   for one

Will not          be held

   r e s p o n s i b l e 

for some      one else 

i        g o t t a       g o 

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i got soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo stoned 

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Skeleton 

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It's always the same dream. I'm wondering, naked, in this strange maze of hallways when I feel this creeping sense of impending doom, like something terrible is about to happen. -Kaboom 2010

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Just some dream:

When I’m older, and I have my own place, it’s going to be beautiful. I will paint pictures straight onto the walls and have a big double bed with velvet covers. I won’t have much stuff but what I will have will be beautiful and old and strong. I’ll have lots of books about the place: on tables, stacked against the walls, in tall tottering piles. Some will be open because I’ll be in the middle of reading them. I’ll have friends round and we’ll stay up late smoking and playing poker and drinking whisky, sitting on sheepskins on the floor with candles stuck in wine bottles all around the room. I’ll have a big desk littered with papers and drawings and starts of novels. I’ll drink red wine and fresh ground coffee and I’ll eat cheese and grapes and I’ll make the best chocolate orange cake you’ll have ever had. I’ll have an open fire and roast chestnuts and make mulled wine on it. I’ll have a massive tub in the middle of the bathroom and I’ll read in the bath and no one will care if I accidentally drop the books in the water. I’ll sing as out of time as I like and I’ll dance on my big oak floor and I’ll have an old grammar phone so I can play my music as loud as I want.

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When I was in Venice and it was raining and I was looking out the window, I saw a door in the opposite side of the street open and this beautiful young couple started kissing in the doorway in the rain. And when I was on the bus home the other day there was this girl, and she was sleeping with her head against the window, and her boyfriend was sleeping with his head on her shoulder and their hair was mixing up. Brown and blond like marble cake. And when I was on the tube this one time I saw this woman looking at her phone with the biggest grin on her face, and if you looked in the reflection in the window behind her you could see she was looking at pictures of her and her boyfriend on a beach somewhere hot.

People true love does exist, maybe sometimes it gets lost amongst all our everyday bullshit. And maybe sometimes it dies and people are left all alone. But it's out there and it's wonderful.