Cigar.

helluo librorum .she/her.

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“I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.”

-Song of Achilles

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ok but i’m starving.

someone feed me cheese and grape juice.

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Love II

The flutters of butterflies rampaging inside as you lock eyes across the room.

-Cigar.

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And the sticky sweetness of every lie you told turned my insides out.

-Cigar

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“We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.”

- John Keating, Dead Poets Society

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Love 1

the brushing of hands against each other, as if worlds collided.

-cigar.

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I went to the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life. To put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I had come to die, discover that I had not lived.

- Dead Poets Society

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Someday I hope someone can love me so much,

that when i die,

they would kill the person who murdered me,

and drag the body for the world to see.

[earachne]

Reblog if you are a safe person to talk to

You can message me or send me an anon anytime, ill listen! Even if you just want to come and talk about your life or your worries, ill be there.

[frozen-flowerz]

Friend: *points to a cute guy*

Me: Oh I think he's...you know [makes motion of stabbing his lover's killer in the throat, piercing leather through his heels, and dragging his corpse through a battlefield] gay

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“Name one hero who was happy."

I considered. Heracles went mad and killed his family; Theseus lost his bride and father; Jason's children and new wife were murdered by his old; Bellerophon killed the Chimera but was crippled by the fall from Pegasus' back.

"You can't." He was sitting up now, leaning forward.

"I can't."

"I know. They never let you be famous AND happy." He lifted an eyebrow. "I'll tell you a secret."

"Tell me." I loved it when he was like this.

"I'm going to be the first." He took my palm and held it to his. "Swear it."

"Why me?"

"Because you're the reason. Swear it."

"I swear it," I said, lost in the high color of his cheeks, the flame in his eyes.

"I swear it," he echoed.

We sat like that a moment, hands touching. He grinned.

"I feel like I could eat the world raw.”

- Song of Achilles

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To be reborn, you have to die first.

- Kill Your Darlings

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Do you ever just want to fall in love, to experience the whispers in your ear, the warm kiss underneath an umbrella, the touching of shoulders, the erupting of butterflies, the tingles when they curl their arms around you- and oh, I would also like to scream until my throat is raw, hit concrete until my fists are bloody, cry in bed while the rain pours, heart aching when the other half isn’t there, until you learn to mend the heart, and make it whole with coffee and soft smiles, with music and lands of words, and when u meet again, the force of their eyes blow u, the striking colour of their pupils staring at you, at that moment u felt as though u could be theirs again, you could still hold their hands and lay in their laps, and then u remembered the pain it brought you, and u avert your gaze, and keep the memory of them deep and inside you, and once again, they became a stranger.

Yeah same.

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let’s start a secret society and have small meetings on each 7th day of the month. Let’s drink coffee in tea cups and visit old museums and libraries. Let’s stain our sweaters and not bother to clear it, taking it as a form of art. Let’s paint the world like it is our eye. Let’s dance under the moon as the stars watches us. Let’s hide in a cave and read out poems. Let’s have blood vials exchanged. Let’s hold hands and chant for rain. Let’s laugh and chuckle with our hands on our stomach, never wanting to grow old.

[oscar-still-wildin]

i want to buy a welton sweater someone tell me not to

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do it

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Smoking cigarettes on the roof

You look so pretty and I love this view

Don't bother looking down

We're not going that way

At least I know, I am here to say

We fell in love in October

That's why, I love fall

Looking at the stars

Admiring from afar

- we fell in love in october, girl in red

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Do you ever yearn for someone that you have never met?

Do you ever wish to engulf yourself in their arms, kiss the tips of their noses, caress the back of their hands with your thumb, admire their head tipping upwards laughing, hair drenched in seawater, run your fingers up their body, scratch their backs raw, kiss it better, leave purple marks, lend them sweaters, watch the moon together, whisper stories of the stars, giggle underneath the cerulean blue sky-

yeah? Me too.