Hi! Five years in a row, I’m still doing this & I will continue to do this for the rest of my life. I’m actually writing this on my actual birthday and not during the midnight before. I was planning to write it on the latter time but we have an exam on the next day and I had to review. Additionally, with all the busyness of the training, I somehow don’t feel very feelsy so I opted not to write any significant thing.
At the time of writing, my birthday has long been passed. Nevertheless, I still feel the urge to write a lengthy piece of letter for my 24 year old self who has gone through a lot the past year.
Let me start by saying "You are really almost there. Look at you, ilang months na lang, gagraduate ka naaa, I'm proud I am of you. You have hurdled very difficult challenges yet you firmly stand on your ground. You rest now, okay? Your 25-year-old self will take over. You've already done your best.
Let us highlight the significant events of your year.
On your 24th birthday, you received good news. Your prayer to be included in the applicants for PAFOCS CL 2022 had been answered. It was during the quarantine period. When you got out, you began processing your application which went pretty easily. Thank you Lord. Together with your other BMT classmates, you have been successfully chosen to be part of the PAFOCC CL2022. You thought everything was gonna happen smoothly. However, it was actually the opposite. December 2021 finally came, you were excited yet at the same time was scared of what lies the unknown.
1. Little did you know that what you were scared of or anxious about won’t be about the upcoming training. It was the possibility of your family falling apart. Your mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. You thought you were okay but soon enough this sad news crippled you and made you feel helpless. 😭 Weeks before you leave for Zamboanga, you find yourself crying every night because cancer would always associate with death. And the fear of losing your mom would break you down and tear your heart into pieces.
2. By that time, your boi also just graduated from PAFOCS and decided to go and see you. ♥️ 🥺 Oh the things you do, for the people you love. 🥰 Indeed, it was a big milestone for him.
"I'm so proud of you, my kindred spirit. Thank you for visiting me at Clark. I did have a great time with you. ♥️ Our love story that had it's short pause have continued."
The news prompted you to book a flight as soon as possible even though your break was supposed to be for the New Year's, sakit na naman nun sa bulsa, but again, TYDFTPYL (things you do for the people you love) char. Anw, thanks Adie for letting me stay by your place while I was waiting for my flightt. 🥺♥️
18 Dec 2021, you flew back to Zamboanga
19 Dec 2021, prepped for Mom's admission
20 Dec 2021, antigen test and admission including series of test were done
21 Dec 2021, clearance for operation
22 Dec 2021, modified breast mastectomy was done. Thank you G for a successful one. 🥺♥️🙏
23 Dec 2021, recovering from operation
24 Dec 2021, processing for discharge and by afternoon finally went home.
Got to spent our Christmas together and at our very own home.
Lord God, you never cease to amaze me. Thank you for all these so-beautiful things. Still, your presence makes us overcome all these challenges
25 Dec 2021, Merry Christmas!
26 Dec 2021, bought and prepared my stuff for PAFOCS jump off
27 Dec 2021, Flight back to Clark. Went to AFCH for antigen test and courtesy call. Babi was also there to support mee and helped me with my stuff at the barracks. Thank you 🥺♥️
28 Dec 2021, Finally said goodbye to Clark. My first air base and it will hold such a special place in my heart. 🥺 I stayed at babi's home and met his dearest fam. We kissed btw. 🤭
Anyway, there I met nanayy.
Hi, nanay. I never got the chance to see you again. Thank you for helping me out 🥺♥️ much appreciated nanayy. I wish I could have spent more time with you.
29 Dec 2021, jump off to PAFOCS with Palomar and there, I cut off the outside world.
There were so many things happening all at once and I wasn't sure if leaving was the best choice. I left my dearest with all the things that must be done while I was away but most especially I left them my prayers and my heart. 🥺♥️ Please stay alive and healthy because I'm doing all these things for you. 🥺♥️ thank you G for always and always listening to my prayers. 🥺♥️ I love you Lordd.
So there it was, my 2021 ended with me watching the fireworks at PAFOCS quadrangle with hopes of finishing this training and had macaroni soup like the rest of PAFOCC CL-2022
Jan 2022 was quarantine period
Feb - May 2022 was BEAST BARRACKS/ SUTO PHASE
June - Dec 2022 – Incorporation, Recognition, Ringhop Ceremony & finally the long awaited Graduation Day.
I should stopped this birthday log until Sep 2022 but since I'm writing it by Jan 2. I'll continue writing anyway. Birthday log, Graduation log and New Year's log in one post. ♥️
Synddd!! You graduated top 2 of your class oyyy and the Academic Excellence Awardee at that. 🥺 Personally hindi ko man din inexpect yun kasi literal na gusto kong maging pasahero para di mahirapan sa training. Just enough to survive the one year pero syempre I do my best pa Rin sa mga bagay2 kasi ayoko lang madisappoint sa self ko ba. Kasi I knew I could do better pag ganun but I didn't, so magkakaregrets ako nun. Sa Academic Excellence Award naman, hehe true na I was aiming for that kasi request ni mamang. Charr kaya ko palang igrant yun. 😬 ♥️ pero lahat bang to possible dahil sa iyo Panginoon. You love this child so much, You've never left her side. 🙏🙏 Andaming struggles sa loob. 😭 Alam mo yun, hindi lang talaga sakit sa katawan, sa puso at isip pa sa tagal ng training pero kinaya ko, kinaya namin. Hindi ko na maestimate kung nakailang squat thrust na ko sa tana ng buhay ko ba pero dahil jan, masasabi Kong pinaghirapan ko kung nasaan ako Ngayon by Your grace of course.
Ngayon, I had the chance to spend my acad break with La Familia ✨ and I'm just so happy. Bihira lang to mangyari kaya kailangan kong sulitin. Salamat Lord, napagbigyan mo ako ulit na makasama sila. Pinagdadasal ko Lord, na sana sa mga susunod pang mga taon hanggang sa magkaasawa ako at anak, ay nanjan pa rin sila. 🥺Alam ko medj impossible na dahil nagkakaedad na talaga sila pero gusto ko pa rin ipagdasal dahil alam ko Sayo lahat ay posible. Nasa sa iyong kamay pa rin ang aming kapalaran. Maraming salamat Lord. ♥️♥️
Aaanddd also, I already said yes to my dear kindred spirit last Nov 2 2022. I knew long ago that I've already fell in love with him. I just had to make sure that this feeling isn't temporary because I want this to last for lifetime. Gusto ko, sya na hanggang sa pagtanda. Thank you Lord, for allowing me to meet this precious soul. I will take care and love him the way I do for my family. ♥️
Finally, the last part of this log is a few words for my dear 24-year-old self.
Synd, buong taon kang nagsquatrass ah?Sge lang, all those pains you had will all be worth it. Thank you for doing this for the people you love and of course for yourself. A little sacrifice for the future. Tapos na duty mo. Nagbeep na yung timer. Synd_25 will take charge now. Rest ka na, you've done well. Thank you 🥺 somehow I feel na everything that is to happen in future will all be possible dahil sayo. Ang galing mo naman. You're so brave for taking all the risks. Kahit hirap na hirap ka na, kahit ang lungkot-lungkot mo na, kahit nawawalan ka na ng hope tinuloy mo pa din. 🥺 I will make sure nahindi kita bibiguin. You brought us here sa stage na by 25, officer na ko. Hindi ko to mararating kung hindi dahil sayo. ♥️♥️
I'd also just like to say a little something for 25 yr old synd ehhe
Synd_25 Ayan officer ka na, last year AW ka pa lang but now, with all your sacrifices, you are what you are now. Be wise enough to make best decisions sa mga bagay2 sa buhay, both at work and family and family ah?. You are old enough to decide for yourself okay? Make sure na sa mga decisions mo, walang regrets? Pray lagi na iguide ka ni Lord, kasi tao ka pa din, easily tempted and can make rush decisions ba. Try to become a good leader to your people, wag ka masyadong compulsive in terms of work. They will follow you so lead them well, okay? You have a long way pa to become a good leader so open your mind to suggestions ng team mo in regards to work. And also, saluhin mo sila when things don't go their way. That way, they'll know you are a leader they can count on. Palagi mong ipagdasal Yan. And also, take care pa Rin of your family. You work and do all these sacrifices for them, okayy? Love your mom, dad and kuya pa din. Respect them sa mga decisions nila. Pray for their good health and strong body. Sana Kasama mo pa din sila 🥺🥺 hehe di ka na magpaflying diba kasi bukod sa sabit sa height, your next focus sa chapter is family na. You've done enough sa career. 🥰 Time to shower your time in building a future family. Psst babung, I love you. Hindi to pressure you ha. The time for us will come. Let's pray for that. And with that, I end this very long log.
AW Cindy Ela E Felix 954064 PAF
24yr-old self signing out
- P2LT CINDY ELA E FELIX OC-2246 PAF
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