Carnival of Strings

System Blog of @apollosicarus

[circusfire-sysblog]

𓂅𓂃 Carnival of String’s Introduction 🎪 

Body Info 𓍊𓋼𓍊 ⌲ Icarus ┈ 20 ↷ He/Him ✦ Gay ● Single

 》 @apollosicarus ‘s System blog

 System Info ☹︎ ➙ Traumagenic ☆ diagnosed ▹ polyfragmented

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 ⇄ DNI: Endo/Willo/”mixed origin” systems, Trans/Homophobics, Gross Assholes

[antiendosafespace]

one of our early signs of being a system was our mom thinking we had catatonic seizures (? is that the right word. the blank ones) but no! Dissociation

I believe those are called absence seizures (I could be wrong since I do not have them, but that's what Google says (specifically the Epilepsy Foundation) If we are please correct us) but that's literally something we've heard before. That someone's family thought they were having a seizure because they didn't know it was dissociation

Our family believed we were constantly daydreaming because of what was dissociation, although no one at the time knew (I actually got in trouble with teachers for it....which is now a moment of "oh..sorry teachers")

[circusfire-sysblog]

Same here!! Parents tried raising concerns I was "seizing" so much when younger, but it was just dissociation

[goth-queen]

[circusfire-sysblog]

Sometimes I think back to a 4th grade memory and smile. One of our 3 teachers told us to close our eyes and gave us a warhead wanting to try and get a reaction to the sour (something about how she couldnt eat them pregnant or whatever idk). We just held our eyes closed and gave no reaction other than saying thank you. She got all grumpy and it cracked the whole class up. I miss her.

[bloodonvalentine]

idfk if this is considered a hot take or not, but can we like stop acting like dormancy and final fusion are literally the end of the world???

i get that it's an emotional topic for some people or wtv, but don't say that ur "pro recovery" and then get pissy when someone has final fusion as their end goal

and also censoring talks about dormancy is just so fucking weird to me??? like it's normal. it's normal to have parts go dormant. acting like it's not only makes ppl feel more ashamed and horrible. bffr bro

god i fucking hate blacklists and unnecessary censoring. grow up

[zukoash]

anti endo but in the way i uphold the moral beliefs that no side should ever be harassed, doxxed, etc.

[sunshine-units]

[thatonebunn13]

smoking weed keeps me from the need to explain myself having to explain myself about why i do/don't need to explain myself because i don't always need to explain myself i know that so it helps shut down that loop in my part of the consciousness and it's like the chains of anxiety, guilt, and the need to people please just fade away for a little while

so say what you want about my funny flower but it keeps me and our system in check more than they can sometimes

[circusfire-sysblog]

I'm home alone. Should probably work on system work. But that's so boring

[anti-willo-flameguy]

could just be a me problem but why do --> some <-- pro endos/ntgs insist on only tagging their posts as "plural" and no actual tags regarding their stance on endos

I'll say it again and I've said it before, it is so irritating to scroll through hundreds of posts just to find out if a user supports ableism or not

(Like I understand people not wanting to interact with "syscourse" and all, but that shouldn't even be considered syscourse in the first place)

[the-web-syndicate]

In bed. Straight up losing it. And by "it," well. Haha. Let's just say. My memories

[the-prism-system-did]

"Stop being mean to your system :("

sure, once they GROW THE FUCK UP AND LISTEN TO ME

[selkielore]

[didhaver]

"what if i'm faking my alters :(" i don't think it's physically possible to commit to a bit for this long

[circusfire-sysblog]

Or have it to apparently be so noticeable to others

[anti-willo-fluttergoth]

For any system reading this but especially younger and newly discovered systems please listen.

•You do not owe anyone information about your system.

•You do not need to post everything about your system online.

•You don't need to post about it at all if you're uncomfortable.

•You don't need to sign off on every post or message.

•You don't need to announce who's fronting.

•You don't need to share your system app profile with anyone who asks.

•You don't need to make alter introductions for your social media.

•You don't need to share triggers (in fact you really shouldn't share that information, especially negative triggers)

•You don't need to tell people about your trauma.

•You don't need to prove your diagnosis to anyone.

•You don't need to tell anyone about your disorder if you don't want to.

You don't have to do anything that makes you uncomfortable or unsafe, be careful what you share with strangers. Trust your gut and don't be afraid to assert boundaries! Just because you see other systems online doing these things don't feel pressured to do the same.

Please stay safe xx

[apollosicarus]

My dad gave me flowers today from his own garden. Also gave some to my sister! Look how beautiful they are!!

[circusfire-sysblog]

Literally cried to this yall should see them too

[circusfire-sysblog]

Jealous of the Alters who can just come up with ideas for moodboards and collages. I feel like I'm failing my singlet account but idk how to do that shit. Pinterest isn't my realm. Get someone else to front. Why must I be frontstuck