the good news about DID is I assure you everyone who has it, is a good person in all their altered selves.
your not gonna likely get yourself in trouble for anything more then maybe taking a spray can to some wall.
your not gonna murder, hurt, or break down people.
your not gonna actually develep some OTHER condition likte SPD or Schitzophrania, Bi Polar Dissorders type 1 or 2, or Borderline Personality Dissorders.
those are incredibly genetic dissorder, people with DID who think they have them usually have a carry over from when DID was not officially recognized as a mental illness, it was typically believed to be one of those three, and in some psychology/psychiraty circles it still is.
you don't have to worry though because DID is a mental health condition, but it is not schitzoid personality dissorder, schitzophrania, bi polar dissorders (1 or 2) or Borderline Personality Dissorders.
your not insane, it just... feels that way at time.
the condition, is rather limmiting, and has VERY dihilibitating elements to it.
Switching, Littling, Fragmenting, Cleaving, Compartmentalism, time loss, trying to figure out who you are, trying to figure out who your not, and parts of you that are so stuck in a state of wishful thinking they found ways to do those things you love so much that you don't even know your doing them.
days where you threw a perfect pitch and didn't even realize you were the pitcher (the pitcher in reffrence here absulutely knew hew was the pitcher)
DID means someone gave you a rats ass deal in life, they really hurt you, they put you through the ringers, they did the bad stuff to you. this is not debatable.
wether the condition formed while you were very young or it formed when you were older (teens or adulthoods) meaning wether you were a jeuvinile with this contition, or an adult, DID is developed from a whole lot of trauma, it is a trauma responce mental health condition, and is infact dissabiling.
you don't have to argue what the trauma was, chances are if your debating it just appeared one day, and now you got all sorts of best friends and add all sorts of awesome lables to yourself to hide from your trauma, doesn't matter. your not there yet, you don't realize how dissordered you are, you don't reallize how bad you look, you don't realize how dark it is. I'll be honest. your probably the most fragmented of us all and theirs two reasons I don't want to interact with you. your probably actually a child, or your the altered self of me or someone else who refuses to admit this condition is something we need to be activily treating with trauma informed therapy and working towards being a single unsliced pie of rainbow elfen wolf, where ALL the things I do are done without Dissassociative Amnesia, so I know always WHAT things i did, WHO is me; after all the self sabatager is a recognizable alter self, or you are a DID System that is just really unhealthy right now, You are just not someone I should EVER interact with right now.
@ me; when you get there, you just aint there. and if your an actual child, definitly don't at me (actually even if it turned out that I am actually a child and I am DID AGE Upping, and thinking I am DID AGE minusing, please don't at me, I honestly think theres a lot of traumatizing sources around me right now and its causing me to fragment and cleave all over the place, and i am regressing when I need to progress. I have a feeling that someone will soon becoming to help me further my goals, in other areas. one way or the other, so I am not worried.)
Truth be told this condition sucks, it was caused by traumas that started from one end of my life and didn't stop ever.
you know what I want to be at all points of my life? an actor, a musician, a writer, a game developer.
remember sysfriends same brain, same mind; you are more then the some of your parts.
think a peice of pie, or pizza (in anyway you'd like to imagine it.) that is your brain that is your mind, DID is the pie cutter, thats cut the pie into peices, they become your other self, your alters.
because its the same brain, because its the same mind, because your probably are not a psychopath to begin with, anything not already pressent in that mind, anything not actually learned by that brain, anything thats just not something the whole of you would actually produce or do, is just not gonna be something you are ever gonna do.
Your littles know not to hang ot with actual jeuviniles, and probably wish they had other littles to hang out with.
your not going to do bad stuff. your not gonna hurt people, your not gonna become evil.
ask yourself. "Would I do this" YES or NO. if the answer is yes, ALL YOUR altered selves will probably do that, if the answer is No, all your altered selves will not do that
heres a mock list:
Would I act if offered a role by Maximum Efforts Energy: yes, Yes I would in a newyork minute: (the whole Pie would be actors)
Would I code video games, and make 3D Images for those games in blender or Maya 3D, and even code out every 3D Images: yes, yes I would, and they'd probably be PSX Survival games based off of nightmares I had as a child (the whole Me Pie would do that)
Would I Make music that I want to dance to: yes, right now I am making trippy synthwave music but want to get better equipment and such so that I can make some more banging dance music probably with a whole glitchcraft element to it, most of my music right now while bangers I call logs for my fire. (then all of your altered selves will do that)
would you kill a person if they made you angry: No, I would choose to fogive them, even though I know how to use martial arts, I have a firm belief that with great power comes greater responsability, and that when others are not making good choices, I should be the one to make better choices, two wrongs don't make a right. (then all of your alters are on this belief)
if you were in a situation where someone was trying to heavily assault you how would you react: I think at one point, I made the bad decision not to defend myself at all in a situation where I was being heavilly assaulted and just tanked every punch thrown at my face; this caused me a whole lot of trauma to my brain. and now sometimes I think i died. In fact I might actually have, and I am actually the kid who get understand her mother died, and did so knowing she could of deffended herself a little. I don't know where to go with that so I'm leaving it where it is, I think I would at this point though, at least throw my blocks in, I really worked hard on them. and then when I have no other choices, probably use a toss. (then thats all of your alters)
a would you ever. if you would, you will in every part of your fragmented self, will
if you wouldn't you won't in every part of your fragmented self.
you are safe, you are loved
