Flying until the day I die

Nonbinary aerialist. I did aerial for seven years and now I’m getting back into it after a four year break. this is my circus side blog.

[brownsugar-n-spice]

Muse.

[tangle-arts]

Tangle’s Tell It Slant at Neighborhood House in 2015. Photo by Michael Ermilio.

[circusinflight]

Also like... after doing aerial for 7+ years I have a sense of things I like and things I think are shit and more structured classes means I have to just do whatever the teacher says even if I think spending time to swirl the silk to spin looks dumd

[circusinflight]

The problem with moving and going to a new studio is now I am used to doing things a certain way.... I want more freedom, but I understand that my current studio doesn’t have the space for open studios... ugh

[jay-barry]

Z. By Jay Barry. Watercolor. The stages of painting.

[troubl3d-minds]

happy world circus day

[circusinflight]

Flex teacher: from now on, since your flexibility is good let’s focus on straightening/squaring your hips.

Me: .....

Internally: fuckfuckfuck let me be

[janelledinosaurs]

To the Student Who…

(a post about the struggle) 

To the student who’s trying a new skill, and it’s not coming easily. When you feel the heat rise in your neck and cheeks, and your eyes start to tear up, and your world shrinks in to include just you, the silk and your struggle: 

 I see you, and I know your discomfort is temporary. 

If I’ve taught you for a while and I know you’ve got this, I may let you be. I trust you to find the line between pushing yourself and calming yourself. If I don’t know you well, I may approach you and pull you out of the tiny world where the only thing is that you CAN’T DO THE MOVE. 

I may tell you that in my first silks class ever, I cried. I couldn’t even climb. I was incredibly frustrated and disappointed in myself. I had come in with visions of effortlessly floating, of amazing the instructor with my innate grace. I left with puffy eyes and a snot-headache. 

And then I came back. And I still couldn’t climb. And then I came back, and then I came back and then I came back. And slowly, almost imperceptibly, I grew into the aerialist I am today. There are moments of epiphany ahead, and moments when something that you expect to defeat you comes naturally. This moment doesn’t cancel out those moments. This moment fuels them.

[circusinflight]

Coming back to aerial

Hello, long time since I’ve really posted anything here!

Anyways, after a four year break from aerial, I’m getting back into it. It’s frustrating and sad sometimes because I miss the person I used to be and the skills I had, but I’ll get there again. Sometimes I wonder why I threw all of the skills I had away when I stopped aerial in college. But now because of that time I can live in the place I want to be, so I don’t think I regret it.

[brownsugar-n-spice]

Mood

[brownsugar-n-spice]

And suddenly I was living my wildest dreams 🍃

[polefiend]

Another from my photo shoot. I’m kind of annoyed at myself, I know I can push it just a little bit straighter! :P 

[kygwen]

From my performance at the 2015 Dance Parade in NYC. Photos © 2015 by the brilliant Andrew T. Foster

[firetoys]

we have a brand new rig on the horizon…

[polefiend]

Rope-ity rope. Perhaps one of my favorite poses on it. 

Photo by Jamie Kraus Photography

[stelle-perse]

Sweet dreams…🌙💕

[maxman42]

hollyweed_64 - #sport #acro #boy #man #gymnastics #acroyoga #acrobatics #yogalove #yoga #girl #city #moments #style #beautiful #girls #model #art #sëxygïrl #stronger #couple #straight