Citadel Of My Thoughts

I'm Jen, I'm a demisexual homoromantic mspec lesbian trans woman (she/her) autistic/ADHD and love RWBY, Mass Effect, Dragon Age, Witch From Mercury, Symphogear - Adult. Let's face it, this is pretty much entirely a Bumbleby blog forever. I also write fanfic on Ao3 as citadel_of_my_thoughts

[darth-khal]

Finding it funny how Blacksun stans like to claim Blake & Sun had "so much chemistry". Like, bro, where??? By constantly being in her ass? Being inconsiderate of her feelings? Annoying the hell out of her? Showing how unfit they are in combat together? If anything, these just show how incompatible they are, but whatever...obviously you were watching a different show.

[citadelofmythoughts]

Honestly I think that says a lot about perceptions of m/f relationships. You see it a lot across various media where the man is annoying, bullheaded or inept and the woman is supposed to find it charming.

Blake and Yang had a long road to get together but now that they are they work in perfect sync with each other an have mutual admiration and respect and some people call that a "lack of chemistry"

[magicariot]

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[niconicorose]

I make these and they're on sale for Pride Month on Itch 🥰

[demilypyro]

the answer is "because they don't think it'll make money." any time a corporation ever does anything it's because money. at this point, the Persona franchise revolves around pandering to a male audience, and so the devs have no confidence that diverting budget and development time to a female protagonist will return on investment. they simply don't think it would be worth the trouble. that's the long and short of it.

[citadelofmythoughts]

I legit think I have the best girlfriend in the world.

[thatdiabolicalfeminist]

Reminder that "transwoman" without the space is a transmisogynistic dogwhistle as it's used almost exclusively by hate groups like the "gender critical" movement.

The implication of removing the space is that being trans isn't just one way a woman can be, like being tall or being brunette, but that women who are trans require a whole other noun.

Trans women, tall women, brunette women. Leave the space in; trans is an adjective and trans women are women.

[deadbeatbirdmom]

I don't like it when hate finds its way into fandom tags. I never will. I don't want to see it, not even to see it opposed - because it still means seeing it in the first place if someone shares a screenshot of hate and argues against it (if you do that please don't tag it with main fandom tags or ship tags).

But apart from that I just don't care if some stranger on the internet hates what I love. Their opinion doesn't matter, it's just annoying to see. Even if a friend hates what I love I'd agree to disagree and just not talk about it further with them. There's plenty of other things to talk about with friends.

This could apply to any fandom, but it's specifically about RWBY, because it unfortunately has an active hatedom to the extent that I've lost count of how many tumblogs I've blocked to avoid seeing more hate.

I don't have the energy to waste on hate, and even if I did I hope I wouldn't waste my limited time alive on it (I'm chronically ill, not terminally, I'm just aware none of us know exactly when we die).

I'd rather use what time and energy I have on other things, like fic to write (and hopefully fic to read and leave comments for), and fan art to admire and reblog (and say something in the tags about what I love, I gather most artists appreciate that).

Ever since a gif of Bumbleby kissing crossed my dash, RWBY has been a precious highlight in my life. It brought me new friends and a beloved girlfriend. It will always be a good thing to me.

I realise no matter what I say, haters are going to hate. I'll just keep blocking, and maybe I'll stop seeing most of it. Sure, they're entitled to their opinions, but I'm also entitled to my own, and I don't owe them my time and attention.

(To be clear, I see blocking as a neutral act. It's not an attack. It just helps me avoid seeing posts I don't want to see)

[citadelofmythoughts]

Not me thinking about getting back into my Jem and The Holograms fic after a year.

I miss Kimber and Stormer.

[citadelofmythoughts]

I hope the recovery has been going well! Best wishes from your trans family!!

Awwww, thank you!

Tomorrow will be three weeks since my surgery. I've already had one follow up appt and things are progressing well. I'm still on activity restrictions though, so that's a little frustrating but I understand why.

[assignedmale]

[demilypyro]

buddy where the hell do you think you are

[demegods]

[demilypyro]

[quinleything]

The main problem I have with Persona 4 is that it's cowardly. It goes out of its way to present these ideas about young people struggling with ideas about identity, sexuality, gender, etc., with the dawning realization that embracing these ideas may subject them to a life lived in the margins of society. And at first, there's a moment where it seems like that life lived as your true self is preferable, even if it does marginalize you in the end. But it ALWAYS backtracks. Kanji and Naoto are the most relevant for this example, but all the social link characters are like that. They all have justifiable reasons for feeling ostracized from society, resentful if its expectations, but every last one of these characters' stories ends up with them deciding that they were wrong and/or mistaken, that society's expectations are reasonable, if not aspirational, and confirming to them is good actually. That your parents know what's best for you, so you should take up the family business instead of moving away to live your own life and see what lies beyond your small town. That you're not queer or gender non-conforming, you're just confused, or trying to be something you aren't to be accepted taken seriously by your peers(??????). That lashing out to a world actively hostile to who you really are is wrong, because that's *not* who you really are. Your TRUE self wants to be an amenable, agreeable, upstanding member of society.

[citadelofmythoughts]

At their recent con arryn said she doesn't think blake would have tattoos and barbara said yang would which is funny cause before the atlas volumes I feel like they got characterized as the opposite in the fandom, I agree with them though 👀

Oh Yang would definitely get some tats especially to symbolize important events in her life.

[deadbeatbirdmom]

Underrated aspect about yang is how quick she learns when it comes to romantic relationships and how chivalrous she is I feel like since the fandom characterizes her as a loud bulldozing personality no one pays attention to yang's subtle moments, my favorite is when she immediately holds blake by the waist to protect her from ambrosius' wind

I wonder if that storyboard of her sweeping blake off her feet to prevent her from falling off the tree didn't get cut because of the budget cuts, then would this aspect of yang be more obvious to the fandom?

While not everyone in fandom appreciates Yang the way she deserves, there's still a fair few that do, even with that precious storyboard-ed scene demonstrating her chivalry getting cut. I wish it hadn't been cut, but I think some people would still overlook that part of Yang's character.

I think part of it is that people get attached to their own interpretations or headcanons, and anything contradicting them is ignored. The important thing with Yang is to remember the meaning behind that quote in the Yellow Trailer: there's more than meets the eye with her, and she's not who she first appeared to be.

I know you didn't mention it but I think it's relevant: much as RWBY Chibi has some fun skits, it really did Yang (and others) no favours in terms of perceived characterisation. Sure, it's not canon and not intended to be, but I'm not sure every fan took that on board. Either that or they simply don't care.

(if you're someone who does like to characterise Yang like she is in RWBY Chibi, firstly I really don't get it, secondly have fun, I'm not the boss of you)

[frishbi]

OUUHH WHERE ARE THEYY

[nijigasakilove]

“I want to have you all to myself” HELLO??! You knew this entire episode that the yearning had reached critical mass, but the confession still shocked me! One of the most beautifully depicted lesbian confession scenes I’ve ever seen I’m blushing and kicking my feet

[numachibird]

[numachibird]

[cherryinthesun]

into each other