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i tripped in front of boo seungkwan

Diamond Edge NYC

AUG 27 2017

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Remember how I wrote that thread about meeting SVT right after the diamond edge concert? It was a scrambled mess so here comes the full in depth version.

Also, I was kind of afraid to share some of the more detailed events with people outside of my personal friends so this will be my first time going all in on the experience. If you don’t like something you read here, don’t blame me for it. I’m sure each and every person at fanmeet gets a different experience with the boys so please don’t get angry if my experiences were different than yours.

I didn’t proofread this so just hope for the best.

I’m not the type to wait outside all day before a concert because I get mad heatsick so I just wandered into the back of the VIP line about 2 hours before the show. I made friends with some girls from the same state as me in the literal back of the line. When the VIP line started moving into the venue to meet the boys, we were really the last group of people into the fanmeeting. I think it’s actually good that we were the literal last 5 people because we could kind of take our time more and we weren’t rushed.

Here’s some important details to start with: for a height reference I’m 5’’0. I was wearing a Boo Seungkwan t-shirt, a black mini skirt, black tights, and super high heeled boots. With these shoes I’m about 5’’5 or 5’’6 and all of the boys are still MUCH taller than me. Jihoon is still a full head taller than me in heels.

So we give the ticket right at the door and my friends are too excited about meeting the boys and gossiping about them. I’m the “brave” one so they made me go first, but because they were fooling around I was a few steps ahead of them. Some venue staff comes up to me and puts a high five in the air and says “high five only!” and i’m like anticipating this man to lead me into the meeting room.

There is no meeting room.

Peeking around the corner and somewhat obscured by the wall, the whole line of all thirteen of them are just standing there and WAITING for us. There was no one in front of me and my group because we got held back while ticketing and every single one of them are just standing there and expecting us. My dumbass takes a look at these boys just standing there and waiting patiently and I VISIBLY TAKE A STEP BACK.

I look back to my friends for help and they’re getting held back momentarily by staff. I debate turning around and waiting for them but Minghao is precisely a foot away from me and he’s just smiling. In this moment, I wanted to die. They actually hid them around this corner out of view from ticketing and they’re just standing there to see right when you try to walk by.

Once again, I should mention that I’m dumb as shit and also kind of overdramatic. I should also mention that I just came back from living in Korea a WEEK BEFORE so the first thing out of my dumbass mouth is “오 지금 하고싶지않은데...” This wasn’t meant to be said outloud. It slipped out somehow. Minghao and Vernon are first in line and they clearly hear this and start to laugh in response. I don’t know who else in the line heard it.

At this moment, I was so embarrassed that I didn’t think I could even go on with the rest of the group but I take a real hesitant step towards Minghao and he’s still kind of laughing at what I said ?? I think I made him smile?? If so, that was the best thing I ever achieved so far.

I’m still shocked at them being right there and appearing so unexpectedly that I’m cautious to move on to Vernon. He’s still grinning at me because he laughed at what I said too, but I think he can see that I’m kinda debating running away so he takes the initiative to greet me first. It was appreciated because all I can really say to him is hi and thank you. All of my thoughts just went to nothing as soon as I saw them to be honest.

I can’t say all the details about each and every members except the ones that interacted with me the most. The general deal with all of them is that they’re all very tall and when they make eye contact their eyes look very soft and friendly. They all have big ass heads and hands. Some of the boys come off much more open while some are only professional. I think all of the boys that I have stories with here are all super interested in interacting with fans.

As for a little note about me, I had to work as a event translator for some guests before in the past. Around famous people I try to act as calm and casual as possible because I generally think all of the screaming and crying is appreciated but rather uncomfortable. Instead of looking at you as a friend, they will only put you in the fanzone. I make sure to keep my cool and gently touch hands with them during the hi-touch. I tell each and every one of the boys a simple greeting and then thank them. That’s all I could really manage.

But maybe I was being a little too gentle.

This is where things started to go a little wrong.

I interact with Junhui, Jeonghan, Seungcheol, and Jihoon in a pretty casual manner with nothing really mentionable happening other than what’s mentioned above. I do want to say that Seungcheol’s eyes literally look so fucking kind when he makes eye contact like how does he even do that.

Soonyoung is next in line.

I move in front of him and ever so carefully put my hand against his for the SOFTEST hi-five in existence probably. Before I can even get a simple hello out to this boy, he leans over the guard fence all into my personal space and comes RIGHT UP INTO my face. I’m talking about if he had come about 3 inches closer we would be practically touching foreheads. Now I have a whole face full of Soonyoung and I didn’t even ask for this? ? I mean, it’s not that I mind but I would have liked to have some sort of warning first. Soonyoung proceeds to do that super cute thing where he scrunches up his eyes and makes little eye smiles and giggles for some reason. I feel like he’s testing me? ? He mumbles the SOFTEST “pretty…” in the cutest accented English and I can’t even react to this so I just smile like a dumbass and move onto the next.

Seokmin is next to him. Seokmin decides that he can lean in close as well. He doesn’t lean in disrespectfully close, but probably if Soonyoung left 3 inches of space he was like 5 inches away. This is still too close for comfort but I don’t exactly hate it. Seokmin just decides to laugh sort of in the same manner as Soonyoung but he’s smiling very big and happy. He seems much more joking than Soon, almost as if he’s copying his actions just to be funny which makes me think this was a PLAN.

Were they trying to play around with me because I was being a little too calm and gentle? Is this a prank? After hours of countless discussions and theories, my friends have decided on my behalf that this was definitely A SET UP.

I meet a few more of the boys without any major accidents or mistakes. That’s until Boo Seungkwan shows up.

Remember how I said there was a metal gate between the fans and the boys? This is where it comes into play.

I’m about to take a step in order to move onto Seungkwan next. Seungkwan mumbles something all too quietly under his breath in English. He didn’t seem confident in speaking English or something so I thought he was just being shy or something. But then he repeats himself a little louder and says “Be careful…”

It’s too late. I take my high heeled dumbass self and literally trip over part of the metal gate that’s on the ground right in front of him. I didn’t fall on the ground or stagger or anything but I clearly had to like jump over the little piece of metal gate to like steady myself. Somehow in between all of this my hand went to touch his for the hi-five (I must have done it before I stepped to him?) but I felt his fingers grip onto mine like just to make sure I don’t fall. Even though I like fixed myself and was clearly not going to fall after all, Seungkwan kept his fingers like gripping over my own and looked all the way down to the ground and to my shoes and all over my legs to make sure I didn’t hurt myself. He asks if I’m okay in English TWICE but all I can say is “thanks i love u”. I don’t think he even heard it because he was trying to like still make sure I was okay??

Even when I went to move over to Chan next, his finger was like still gripping over mine and he looked me dead in the eye, smiled all fuckin sweet, and said the smallest little “be safe.”

Thank you for saving me, Boo Seungkwan.

Also his shoulders are really broad. Like you could dive into them. If I happen to fall in front of Seungkwan again, it would be nice if they could catch me instead.

ONTO THE NEXT ONE.

While Seungkwan was still checking if I was okay, I stole a glance at Chan who was next. This motherfucker right here. He was smirking at me. Like he saw me practically fall in front of Seungkwan and he was waiting for my sloppy ass to get on and keep the line moving. It was really funny because I would probably do the same thing but I was like a little bit scared to move on to him. As I greeted him and we touched hands he still had this weird little smirk grin on his face. Does he hate me now? ? Not really sure.

The last two were Wonwoo and Mingyu. My friends were a little farther behind me. I noticed this so I thought about slowing down a little bit with them before moving on but there was a staff woman still hurrying me. Either way, Wonwoo was really friendly and held my hand a little longer than necessary which was appreciated. Mingyu was last for everyone and I had already known he would be like the BEST for those last minute interactions. Honestly, he seems so friendly and I was right.

Mingyu also leans in a little bit, but not too much to cause alarm. He’s VERY MUCH BIGGER THAN ME. VERY MUCH. So I think he had to lean down to my level to make proper eye contact anyways. But while he decides to greet me, he lets out this huge breath of air into my area. It’s very warm and generally unwanted, but it’s not a bad smell at least. I would have preferred if he didn’t breathe in my face but it’s whatever. The rest of our interaction involves him holding my hand and shaking it around a little like a kid would. It’s really cute and he’s too friendly for his own good.

Since Mingyu is last, I feel like a lot of people would try to stall at him and try to get like the most out of their time. I want to do that too, but I think since we’re the end of the line they’re probably tired so after my greeting I just say bye to him and standby the opposite side of the wall and wait for my (slow ass) friends. * * I wanted to give him like time to chill so I tried not to look at any of the boys and just wait for my friends and check my phone briefly. But in the awkward interval of time while I wait, Mingyu occasionally looks in my direction everytime that staff woman would come a little close to me. I feel like the staff was starting to get kind of pushy so he was like keeping watch or something like that.

The same staff woman got the last person in line who wasn’t my friend and physically touched them to move them away from Seungcheol and I saw the look on his face. Like honestly, he looked kind of upset that the staff was making the last people in the line rush. As my closest friend behind me was finishing up with Mingyu, the same staff lady touched her and tried to move her away from Mingyu even though she had like one second with him.

My friend was crying (for another reason I’ll get into soon) so I took a step closer to like hug her and Mingyu was watching us on the side for a second. Once the staff woman was out of the way he raised a hand and kinda waved in our direction while frowning, as if he was like apologizing to my friend for that staff for rushing her too fast. He’s really sweet and I really respected him to take his extra second of time and make sure my friend wasn’t upset about it.

After all my friends finished up, we all did like a group hug inside of the venue and we started like exchanging stories of what happened. No one saw me fall in front of Seungkwan so that was good.

** But why was my friend freaking out? This girl is a huge Vernon stan. She came in a Vernon shirt and even put one of his little stickers on her cheek so he could surely see it when they met. I just met this girl like two hours before the show started but honestly, she’s such a sweet girl and shes MAD PRETTY. She doesn’t have a tumblr/twitter and does not like stankpop so I won’t reveal her picture or identity because I just have her personal accounts. She doesn’t know me at this URL either so I don’t want to bring her into it. But apparently what happened was all she could say to Vernon was “hi, i love u” and the FIRST thing HANSOL SAID TO HER WAS “wow you’re really pretty” and SHE DIDNT EVEN ASK FOR HIM TO SAY THAT. HE DID IT ON HIS OWN FUCKIN WILL. And remember how it was supposed to be a hi-five only? My sly ass friend like tried to hold his hand around the hi-five and he LET HER lock fingers with him. HE INVITED THAT SHIT.

According to the other friends behind her, they were trying to move onto Vern from Minghao and he was like genuinely into staring at her so they literally waited for them to stop. LITERALLY HOW LUCKY IS SHE? I WOULD DIE ANYWAYS After we found out what happened we were actually screaming inside the pit so lemme know if u heard that mess.

Thank you for reading this far. I know it was a struggle to get through. Now when I tell you that I fell for Boo Seungkwan, you know what I mean.

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