city of mirrors.

(or mirages). peter wynn. art, music, photography, travel, love, nonsense.

[frenchcurious]

Affiche pour la ligne Lötschberg, Suisse (Bern-Lötschberg-Simplon Railway, 1937) dessin de Plinio Colombi - source Heritage Auctions.

[nevver]

The Great Escape

[allthingseurope]

Berlin (by Sven Hilscher)

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Pena Palace, Portugal (by Arnim Schulz)

[allthingseurope]

Lisbon, Portugal  (by K.H.Reichert)

[funnyordie]

19 More Of The Greatest Yearbook Moments Of All Time

Here’s a first look at some of this year’s incoming freshmen at Awesome University.

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[nevver]

Return to Magenta, Vava Ribeiro

[whatshouldwecallme]

When someone asks what I want on my burrito

[nevver]

The red and blue contain the same amount of people

[breathtakingdestinations]

Porto - Portugal (by Kyle Taylor)

[seinfeld-daily]

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[cityofmirrors]

Romantic Taipei

[blackestdespondency]

“… because I sometimes have moments of such despair, such despair… Because in those moments I start to think that I will never be capable of beginning to live a real life; because I have already begun to think that I have lost all sense of proportion, all sense of the real and the actual; because, what is more, I have cursed myself; because my nights of fantasy are followed by hideous moments of sobering! And all the time one hears the human crowd swirling and thundering around one in the whirlwind of life, one hears, one sees how people live—that they live in reality, that for them life is not something forbidden, that their lives are not scattered for the winds like dreams or visions but are forever in the process of renewal, forever young, and that no two moments in them are ever the same; while how dreary and monotonous to the point of being vulgar is timorous fantasy, the slave of shadow, of the idea, the slave of the first cloud that covers the sun…”

Fyodor Dostoyevsky  (via ivankaramazovs)

[cityofmirrors]

2015

Today, somewhere around 3am from the passenger seat of the love of my life's car, I screwed up.

I said some things I shouldn't have said. I vented some frustrations that are mine and mine only, and while I would never hurt a fly let alone her, I learned that sometimes you can cause someone the most pain when you're not trying to cause any. 

I've been thinking about this all day because in those moments this morning, I didn't feel like I was doing anything wrong. I wasn't doing any harm, just explaining things the way I saw them. In trying to learn some lessons today, I'm grasping that it doesn't really matter how you see things sometimes. I don't have to be right all the time, because right is different for everyone. 

My life has been a mess of various stresses since I started school again, and I haven't dealt with them well. Something I'm struggling with a lot is space in my relationship. I don't have a lot of friends here in LA, which can be a lonely enough place anyway, so I naturally turn to her for company. I'm only now realizing what that can do if left unchecked. I only want to help, I am supportive and giving, and I'm finding out that those things aren't everything. I need to give her confidence, which I don't think comes across when I'm constantly offering to "help." Maybe that just makes her feel like she doesn't have a lot of power.

Don't even really know why I'm writing about this, but I had to let some of these thoughts out. I'm praying tonight that I didn't totally ruin things. I'm praying that I can really learn and improve from this, instead of just promising to and apologizing over and over again. I'm praying that we can both look back and the millions of moments, small or grand, that have given me the greatest friend and love in the world. I'm praying for forgiveness and another chance. I don't really ask for a lot in my life and it's always been hard to ask for help even when I desperately need it. But tonight, I'm asking the universe to get us through this because the love outweighs the fear. 

[seinfeld-daily]

[cityofmirrors]

Nanjing Xuanwu Lake　南京玄武湖 by liuhuanfu on Flickr.

Nanjing, China.