clandestine ramblings

@themostawesomebitch's reblogs

[lilcowgirl7-deactivated20210223]

You cannot live alone on the fantasies you feed to your mind, eventually you have to touch your life for real, assess and analyze your habits, understand your character, try not to hate yourself for your character as it was shaped when you were very young by circumstances outside of you, and begin learning how to cope with your character, how to build habits that work for you, finish small projects, finish big projects, expose yourself to more uncomfortable situations, assess why you want to leave that friendship before you leave it, raise your anxiety levels on purpose, so that you can grow, raise your work load on purpose, so that you can grow, so that you can build resilience, so that your life expands, and can be experienced by you in full and in reality

[campcomputers]

[weltenwellen]

Mary Oliver, from “Hum Hum”, A Thousand Mornings

[anditslove]

Andrea Gibson, Birthday

[soracities]

Ellen Bass, "The Thing Is"

[typewriter-worries]

The Glass Essay, Anne Carson | Molly Brodak, Molly Brodak

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[geryone]

Heed the Hollow, Malcolm Tariq

[kleefkruid]

cats would be so fucking upset if they understood they were missing out on the ability to lie verbally

[ashstfu]

forever in awe of people who pay attention. people who wait for you while you tie your shoes while the others have walked away. when they continue listening intently while the rest of the group stopped listening. noticing your moments of silence when everyone else hasn’t. “this made me think of you” noticing things you never even noticed about yourself. people who say “text me when you get home safe.” people who make you laugh until you cry. childhood friends who keep in touch. people with genuine intentions. people who are soft when the world has given them every opportunity to turn hard. the “let’s get ice cream” at 3am friend. the turn up the music in the car and sing friend. people whose actions match their words. people who make the world feel less chaotic. kindred spirits. the trustworthy and honest. hard workers. good listeners. clear communicators. people who love you for who you are. people who don’t ask you to be anything other than yourself. people who choose you. people who stay.

[havingrevelations-deactivated20]

mental illness made me so desperate for joy that i forgot it was this simple… feeling the ocean against your skin… a really good guitar riff… sun on your back… holding the door for a stranger… a cold shower on a hot day…….. the world is like a cradle and i am just a little baby. eyes wide open there is so much to see

[remanence-of-love]

[lunamonchtuna]

— Amal El-Mohtar, from This Is How You Lose the Time War (via lunamonchtuna)

[weltenwellen]

Ocean Vuong, from "Skinny Dipping", Time Is a Mother

[anatolknotek]

»gut feeling« by anatol knotek

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[lindsaybottos]

[neckkiss]

The Choice (2016)

[of-spaceandstars]

“Honeybunny, for you, I’ve got a mouthful of soot. Sweetpea, for you, I always smell like blood. Everything that touches me, Lovemuffin, turns to salt. When I think of you I see fire. When I dream of you I hear footsteps on bones. When I see you I can feel the scythe’s smooth handle in my palm. Love, you got me standing at attention. Clutching my heart. Polishing guns.”

— Ross Gay, excerpt of “Love You Got Me Good”, in Bringing the Shovel Down (via antigonick)

[wvterways]

this is so important