Aurora

Caitlin Clark I will always love you

[clarkcinema]

TW ED

I am sorry to say that I probably won’t be coming back to Tumblr for a very long time. A fun fact about me is I have ana and am trying to recover and while I try to avoid it ed tumblr always finds me and it’s far too triggering for a girl so I won’t be on this platform unless I get fully fully fully recovered or go back to my old ways. You guys are amazing tho ccfc I love you. I’m still a cc fan just of twitter 

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We miss you😔💔

i missed you guys too!!! sorry i havent been on here a lot, life has just been crazy

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cc really got iowa skinny again

we so back

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this graced my tl so its gonna grace your eyes too

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bella🙁🙁

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just twist the god damn knife ig

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cc hoops coming up

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Hello, its me, Aurora

TW: Mental health issues, suicide, depression, mental hospitals, weight, death

I would like to start this by saying hi, and telling you a little about my self. My name is aurora, and I am lucky enough to be born to a loving mother and father, an amazing sister, and a built in best friend, aka my twin sister. I've stepped away from tumblr for I think a couple months now, and I will continue to be away, but I may pop on occasionally, my love for cc is just too strong. I enjoy math, I play tennis, and some golf, however I'm horrendous at both.

As some of you may know, I step away for around 5 weeks in August, and that was because I was placed in the mental hospital. That's how it has been for a while, I've been officially diagnosed with depression for around two years now, it has rocked my shit. I have no energy, and all I cry almost every single night. I've lost about 20 lbs, had chunks of my hair fall out, and have had constant headaches.

Unfortunately, on September 10th, my world was turned upside down. Throughout all my struggles, my twin sister, Aubry, has been my rock, she was always there for me, even on days when I couldn’t bring myself to even eat. Aubry is the reason I am here today, she held me while I sobbed about not wanting to do any of it anymore. And unfortunately, Aubry, the one so full of life, Aubry who had such big dreams for the world and her self, Aubry who had a whole future waiting for her, is the one not here today. On September 9th, my sister went to bed, and simply never woke up, and while I won’t go into details, I think you get the story. 

It’s almost funny, that I, the twin who didn’t even want to be alive somedays, is the one who is here typing out this post, while Aubry, who lived every day to it’s fullest, is the one who was laid to rest far too soon. Her death truly changed the way I see life. She was perfectly healthy, nothing wrong with her, and one day she just didn’t wake up. Life is just such a precious thing, it’s the sort of thing that slips through your fingers, runs down your back, and is brushed off your feet. Always there, until one day it isn’t. Until one day it’s gone and you have no idea what happened to the beautiful thing that you once had. 

I live every day for my sister. I think that’s part of the reason I stayed, because it is the least Aubry deserved, someone to carry on her legacy. Someone to dream all the dreams she never got to dream, and someone to live out the life she will never get.

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you guys to hug your loved ones close, you never know when it will be your last hug, or your last “I love you” or you last time seeing their face. And while you cannot control death, you can control how you live your life. Live your life to its fullest, chase all your beautiful, wild dreams. And if you cannot do it for me, please, I beg of you, do it for my dearest Aubry.

Thank you,

Aurora.

[clarkcinema]

Hey guys! Just wanted to say that I think I’ll be stepping back from tumblr for a while, due to my mental health. I’ll still be on here from time to time, just not as often.

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lynx so fake how you loosing by this much to the fucking fever

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what is this bum ass organization

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can't watch the game rn but ill try to check ESPN from time to time

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it hits hard because you know she would normally NEVER post something like this unless she really did miss it bad

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wait im screaming for u i literally don’t know what i would do if i was that close to her that’s so cool and ty for not leaking the location ur so real

I had to hold my self back I actually wanted to go and say hi and ask for a photo but she looked fucking tired so I was like "no aurora, give the girl space". and ofc im not gonna expose my girl like that

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Right by ur head?? Omg no way she was that close to you😩😩

Did she reach over you or something?

I KNOWWWWW i was screaming inside. no she did not reach over me girl has manners, BUT I WISH

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did she look at u

dawg i wish BUT she did look at the instant rice which was right by my head soooooooo basically we are in love and our wedding is on May 5th everyone is invited see you there!!

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was she by herself ? i always wondered did she start just traveling alone after settling in esp how she had steve & colin last yr when she first got there

dawg she was with some dude that i didn't know, but to be fair, I don't really know who the men in her life look like besides connor

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WAIT WHAT SUPERMARKET

for privacy reasons im not gonna mention it because I don't wanna expose the places she goes to