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nineteen // australia

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reasons not to be your friend:

- you lie

- you use me

- you cancel plans

- you told me you loved me

- when you clearly never really did

- you’ve meddled in relationships

- you broke my heart

- I hate you

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Fifteen months later

While I waited for you, the all too familiar anxiety kicked in. However, this wasn’t just any type of worry or panic. This was the special kind, reserved just for you. 

When you walked through those doors an immediate sense of calm flowed through my body. You have always had a knack for keeping me grounded. 

I was happy. 

We picked up where we left off. We chatted, flirted, laughed and got drunk on red wine. You held my hand and smiled. 

You kissed me. 

Why did you kiss me? 

Why did you tell me you loved me? Only to become incapable of returning the favour when I told you the next morning, while you kissed my neck, that you felt the same way. 

You held me tight in that moment as if things hadn’t changed. As if we truly had picked up where we left off. 

If only that were true. 

I am not happy. 

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i am super depressed right now

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i am super depressed right now

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I tell myself it's fine but every time I see your fucking face my heart feels like it's being hacked up with a pick axe. "I'm not in love with you and scared I will never be in love with you". Fucking bullshit. I'm so done with this shit. I refuse to let you occupy my brain anymore.

[silly-luv]

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It’s funny what happens when a relationship ends. 

It’s as if the whole time you were with the person you love loved, you were trapped in this inclusive bubble, which plagued your thoughts and disguised your doubts and qualms with tranquility. 

Now that the bubble has burst, the broken and cracked reality begins to surface and expose the relationship for what it truly was, 

fucked up. 

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One month

After one month from the day you told me you didn’t love me I was doing well. Surprisingly and unexpectedly well!  Then one stupid fucking inconsiderate message brought up shit I had already buried.

Fuck you and I am done with your shit 

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when I met you I thought I wouldn’t have to use this blog anymore

I was wrong

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Today you told me you didn’t love me The way that I love you I can’t breathe.

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This photo was taken at a really dark time, and the reason doesn’t bother me anymore :) 

[nonstop-drama]

[bradleyb]

I tend to kill goldfish, so this happened today. 

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twelve months

It's been twelve months, and I'm just numb. You have vacated my mind, and I am grateful for that. Sometimes I still catch myself dreaming, 'what if things were different?'. But I'm glad they aren't. 🍃🍂🌿🌾🍁

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I am so done with you 

[bbbbbbybbbbb]

Drinking alone ha ha ha ha…

[bunlly]