As my mind begins to stir, my first instinct is to reach for my blade. However, I feel a familiar presence ordering me not to draw weapons.
(Tiberius): ((Be calm, Claudius, you are in no danger.))
I open my eyes to find I am lying on a couch, in what appear to be personal quarters. The room is unfamiliar, however.
(Tiberius): ((I brought you to the new hive, along with a number of others.))
I reach out with my mind to sense who is here; no enemies or strangers, some of my brothers, but not all of them…
((No, no, no… Where are the others?! What happened, did Michael’s forces find us?!))
The last thing I recall is listening to Hypnos’ confession, keeping Tiberius behind me to ensure no brother used the distraction as an opportunity to attack…
(Tiberius): ((Thankfully not, although it would only have been a matter of time had I not interceded.))
My mind… I put my head in my hands, not sure how much more of this I can take…First I learned that he killed our sister, and now he… attacked us..? Left some of us behind… again..?
(Tiberius): ((I did what was necessary; you were never going to reach an agreement. What a pathetic end that would have been to the wraith empire- caught arguing amongst yourselves, without having fought a single battle against the Abomination.))
Before he can begin one of his speeches, I cut in, wanting to know what happened to our brothers that aren’t here. Surely he didn’t…
(Tiberius): ((No, they are not dead. I gave them all-except the one who demanded my head, of course- a choice; to either follow me or be left on the old hive. For those who refused… I do not expect them to live for much longer. But if they are to die, let it be by their own actions, and not by my hand.))
I blink, stunned at what I’ve just heard. The way he talks of our brothers dying… Since there are no others in the room, I feel a little freer to express my emotions.
((How can you be so… so callous?! It is one thing, to lose a brother on the battlefield, but another thing entirely to purposefully leave them behind!-))
I catch myself mentally yelling at him! Despite everything that has happened, it still feels disrespectful, to address him so… I try to stand my ground, but feel my resolve begin to waver…
((I just… I fear that… that you are not yourself, Commander…))
I sense Tiberius’ mind turn even colder, as he levels me with an icy glare. His thoughts drip with venom.
(Tiberius): ((If I were you, Claudius, I would save your concern for your own state of mind. Ever since our parents’ deaths, have I not trained you, so that you would be able to take my place as Commander? Yet when the hour of need arose, what did you do, but declare you had ‘no wish to lead’, that you were ‘scared’. Such an inspiring sight for our brothers to bear witness to… Is it no wonder that one such as Brazen Torch was able to poison so many minds? Minds I was forced to leave behind because of the extent their corruption… Not only did you fail me, Claudius, but you failed your brothers and you failed yourself.))
I wince at the memory of the debate, and any anger I felt towards Tiberius rapidly dissolves to guilt. He’s right… perhaps if I had been stronger, I could have convinced the others to follow me… Perhaps we would all still be together now…
((I’m sorry, Commander. I… I was weak… and I… let you down… I let everyone down…))
This is hardly a new experience for me. Despite my physical strength, I’ve always known that my mind is weaker than it should be, for a man of my position. Always felt like Tiberius promoted me beyond my abilities. I’m not like him, or Father, or even Lastlight; not a leader. That’s why I need someone to guide me. If not my Queen, then one of them, and of course the rules.
((Do you still… plan to exile yourself, Commander?))
His mind has softened since my apology, and he no longer addresses me with malice.
(Tiberius): ((I am afraid we are beyond that now, Claudius. After… what happened…))
He is merciful, and does not think ‘your failure’, but I wince again nonetheless, as the implication hangs there for a moment.
(Tiberius): ((I must stay, to ensure that we are victorious in this war. Once we are finished here, I will call a meeting of the Zenana. All of the men attending chose to be here, I do not expect trouble. Nevertheless, after the chaos of the ‘debate’, I think it imperative that the two of us present ourselves as a united front. It will inspire confidence, as well as a sense of much-needed stability. And despite your earlier shortcomings… I still have faith in you, as my right-hand man.))
I feel confused, SO confused. Of course I don’t want to break faith and let him down, of course I don’t… But what about my loyalty to my other siblings, that he left behind? Is it disloyal to them if I follow Tiberius? Disloyal to my sister’s memory? Brazen Torch seemed to think so, and he convinced a lot of our brothers… But then it seems many also chose to come to this new hive with Tiberius… Would I be betraying them, as well as him, if I said that I disagreed? How can I possibly decide who is right? This goes beyond even what the ancient Queens could have anticipated when they wrote the laws. I suppose… perhaps I should think on… how I feel myself-
(Tiberius): ((I also trust that you will not repeat your previous error- will not put your personal feelings above your duty to this hive…))
…He is right. There are so many questions I cannot answer… But all the brothers here on this ship chose Tiberius, and I am still a loyal servant to my hive. It is not up to me to doubt the Commander, simply to follow him.
((I will obey any and all of your orders, Commander.))
I salute him, and he rewards me with a rare smile.
(Tiberius): ((I knew I could count on you Claudius. It is your loyalty that makes you the man you are, after all. Now, let us begin the Zenana.))