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20s || She/her || MDNI

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🌷 You can call me citrus or clem.

🌷 I'm in my 20s, so MDNI

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One thing that being online has taught me is that some conversations can never be productive because of the way they started. The topic might be interesting, timely, and needed, but if the conversation started messily (unempathetic framing, strong language, argumentation based on "common sense" intuition, debate bro energy, unwillingness to broaden the lens to other affected groups), if the conversation started with any of the aforementioned, then it will NOT be productive.

It doesn't matter how well informed an opinion you or someone else might have formed on the subject. It doesn't matter that there is relevant research. It doesn't matter that you or someone else might have relevant lived experience to bring some nuance and humanity to the numbers. At this point, people (me and you included) will only listen to react.

The only way to have a productive, constructive conversation would be to completely restart it somewhere else.

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Sometimes your own mind is a prison bc why am I nervous at the idea of going to a concert????? Why am I concerned about my parents?????? I'm an ADULT, and I've spent years in ANOTHER COUNTRY!!!!!! Why am I trying to SNEAK OUT FOR A CONCERT????

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I am sooooo not cut out to be a wife or a mother it's kinda hilarious ngl.

[weltenwellen]

Ilya Kaminsky, from "While the Child Sleeps, Sonya Undresses", Deaf Republic

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omegaverse but it's not a straight forward quiz

take my little omegaverse quiz!!!!!!!!!

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I knew it!

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The thing about the Drama that I have a hard time coming to terms with is the reason why Emma didn't go and commit the shooting. Everyone goes with the most uncharitable interpretation of those events; as if she didn't do it because she would no longer be "the first" one to do it in her town.

The movie shows how the shooting impacted the students at Emma's school, and Emma had to sit and take in all the reactions of those around her. The pain it caused others, how shameful it is to do such a thing, the weight of real life taken. Her not going through with it read to me less as a disappointment, and more as a wake-up call.

Before the shooting happened, her view of such events was glamorized play pretend. She was trying to make a "cool" sounding manifesto putting on silly makeup and clothes. After it happened, she was face-to-face with the real consequences that would have on the people around her, and she chose not to go through with her plan.

Charlie's interpretation of this event was the MOST uncharitable possible interpretation of how things went down and idk why his viewpoint is the one taken in this scenario.

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I have this story in my brain that I can't quite put to paper.... about a merman and the human (turned vampire... somewhat) love of his life. Who left him behind with a child to care for. And he waits for her for a long... long time on land, caring for that child and raising it because SHE asked him to.

And she can't bring herself to come back to face either of them bc how do you face your nephew after killing his dad, or the man who loves you the most after abandoning him for years???

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I love writing/ imaginating stories that explore my personal hang ups about myself. The act of both distancing myself enough to see how I behave but remaining present enough to FEEL what I feel create such a fascinating picture of who I am. I have very interesting wounds and I like to pick at them. It serves both as a form acknowledgement and emotional regulation (sometimes) and as a productive way to get out of my own head

[weltenwellen]

Wildness Before Something Sublime Leila Chatti

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Tumblr pleeeaaase let me modify my blog on mobile

[clemperium]

Wanna date but idk how to "put myself out there". For reasons dating apps are off the table.

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ok note to self i gotta leave the house regularly so that i dont feel like im slowly transforming into an evil fucking shadow clone of myself

[syn4k]

So as it turns out your sense of self doesnt exist in a vacuum. You gotta actually use it and bounce it off of other people like echolocation to see where you are as a person and shit. So if you dont regularly interact with other people the echoes just get weaker and weaker and before you know it your personality is a blurry fucked up fog clone of its former self. which it sucks because this makes it really hard to interact with people again but yknow

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Haven't watched beastars in a hot second but I will always defend Juno and Haru!!!! Always!!!

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Some ppl can only show appreciation to a piece of art/ media by openly resenting its popularity.

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Leander 🤝 Ais goading you into biting them only to trap you in a hug and stroke the back of your neck when you do give in. Whispering taunts and breathy chuckles into your ear. And maybe kissing your temple when you clamp down harder.

Perhaps lick the blood off your lips even....