I'll never say that everything's OK.

Stuff i find on the internet, quotes, my mental breakdowns and occasional actual posts. Follow me and I'll follow you, i need more stuff to look at.

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How I know I am over you

Just kind of realized this. I know I am over you. I knew it a long time ago. But there were still things that irked me and made me think of you longingly. I love the man that is my life now. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He saved me. He's my world. But what really just made it sink in that I have let you go? A song. 

Used to be one of "our" songs. For a really long time I cringed every time I heard it. I missed you. I wanted to call you. I wanted to hear your voice even if you were telling me what a bitch I was. But now,  I can hear the song. Yes I still think of you and I wonder if you still think of me. But now I don't miss you. I have memories attached to it. That will never change. But I can now look at you as my past. I don't hold on too it the way I did before. I still wonder how you're doing. And I will always care about you. But I am not in love with you anymore. This is a great relief to me. Because your're kind of the worst person ever. 

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Sitting in my driveway, enjoying a drink with my bro and listening to my awesome Xmas playlist lol #seasonsuponus #fuckchristmas #fairytaleofnewyork #dkm #fear #thepogues

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Can't stop playing... #addicted #mightandmagic #clashofheroes #gamergirlproblems #oops

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this guy...

A lot has changed in the last couple of months. Things have been kind of cray cray. But I know this guy will be there for me. So glad to have him in my life now. <3

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"It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want."

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Oh man… I wish I had said this… Brilliant and true. 

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Confession

I don't think ill ever be able to live a life that will make me truly happy. It doesn't exist, because no one will ever be as like me and not like me enough.

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How People Reacted to the Breaking Bad Finale (No Spoilers)

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Haha. I do not watch breaking bad.

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Harley Davidson meets God

The inventor of the Harley Davidson Motorcycle Corporation, Arthur Davidson, died and went to heaven. At the gates, St. Peter told Arthur, "Since you've been such a good man and your motorcycles have changed the world, your reward is you can hang out with anyone you want in Heaven."

Arthur thought about it for a minute and then said, "I want to hang out with God." St. Peter took Arthur to the Throne Room, and introduced him to God.

Arthur then asked God, "Hey, aren't you the inventor of woman?"

God said, "Ah, yes."

"Well," said Arthur, "professional to professional, you have some major design flaws in your invention:

1. There's too much inconsistency in the front-end protrusion. 2. It chatters constantly at high speeds. 3. Most of the rear ends are too soft and wobble too much. 4. The intake is placed ! way too close to the exhaust. 5. And the maintenance costs are outrageous."

"Hmmmm, you may have some good points there," replied God, "hold on." God went to his Celestial super computer, typed in a few words and waited for the results. The computer printed out a slip of paper and God read it.

"Well, it may be true that my invention is flawed," God said to Arthur, "but according to these numbers, more men are riding my invention than yours."

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I don’t want to be with you because I’m scared it’ll be like thawing and reheating frozen eggrolls for the third time, limp and sloppy and probably with freezer burn.

The Last Thing I Have To Say About Us by Mila Joveniec

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for you...

I will always love you. There is not one thing, not one person on this planet that could ever change that. 

I know this hurts. Someday it will hurt less and sometime after that, hopefully, it won't hurt at all. I hope that we can both look back and remember when we had fun. When we laughed, danced, drank and had the best sex ever. I know you don't agree with my decision to leave. But its what I had to do to preserve myself. We were destroying each other. I love you, but I did not always love what we had. Hateful words and drunken violence. Too many tears on both sides. 

I'm sure that you will never see this. You will never understand why I haven't answered your messages. You can't understand why I don't think it's a good idea for me to come home. I am not ok. I need to learn how to be myself again. I am afraid of what we had turning into something horrible. I know that you have done a lot to be better. But a month or two isn't long enough to change. I've heard that you started going to therapy and that you have gotten a curb on your alcoholism. I am so happy for you. I hope you keep growing and keep learning and being the amazing person that I know is in there. Please don't knock anyone else up. Please love everyday you have with your children. Please don't hate me...

Maybe someday everything will change and the world will makes our paths collide again. And when that does happen, I hope we have both learned how to be ok our own. So maybe we could be something together. But if that never happens, please know that you are always in my heart and always in my mind. 

"It's like they have some sick attraction, a magnetic pull. They've ripped apart successfully a couple of times. With every turn it's more and more painful. She says she's happy now and that makes him frown, but ultimately it makes him glad. He wishes that they had two separate planets. She agrees it wouldn't be that bad. And maybe someday on a cloud, their last laugh will be heard awfully loud 'cause maybe in the end, they'll win. But it will be a long time till they try again."

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"Unless it’s mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it’s a waste of your time. There are too many mediocre things in life. Love shouldn’t be one of them." ~Dream for an Insomniac