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What happened next

It was almost 9PM and Ciara had finally managed to leave Chris’ house. They had spent all day laughing, eating and fucking. After all that had happened recently spending all this time with Chris had made her feel a little better.

As she pulled up to the driveway of her house she noticed a black Bentley parked in the driveway. She knew who’s car that was straight away and although it largely made her angry, there was a small part of her that was happy to see it there. She parked her car next to it and took her time gathering her things from the car not looking up.  When she finally stepped out, he was standing leaning against his car staring at her and unintentionally she smiled and looked up at him.

Wrong move, she told herself. Her face changed into a scowl as she watched him smirk.

“Happy to see me?” He asked.

“Shut up. What are you doing here Future?” she asked crossing her arms in front of her angrily.

The smirk on his face suddenly dropped and sadness filled his face. He almost looked like he was going to cry.

“Whats wrong?”

“My daughter. She was in a car accident with her mom.”

“What? Is she alright?”

“Her mother is. She’s in a coma. They’re saying she wont make it.”

“Oh my God.” Ciara said not knowing what else to say as she enveloped Nayvadius in a hug.

8 months later.

Ciara was pacing absent-mindedly in her living room waiting for the mail to arrive. She had just got off the phone to Chris after almost 8 months of not speaking to him and he was also anxious for the results.

She heard the mailman ring the bell and she ran up to the door as fast as she could in her condition and flung open the door.

“Hi, I Have a delivery for a Ms. Ciara Harris.”

“Yup, That’s me.” She said snatching the envelop out of his hand.

“Please sign here.” The man said holding up an electronic device with a stylus and she hurriedly signed and shut the door.

Taking a deep breath Ciara walked over to the couch and it took her a minute but she finally managed to sit down. Her hands were shaking and she was a little sweaty and the large Diamond ring on her finger felt uncomfortably heavy. Sighing heavily and with shaky fingers she ripped open the envelope and tried to read the letter as quickly as possible.

She smiled widely when she saw the results and quickly dialed Chris’ number off by memory as she had deleted off her phone months ago.

“Good News.” She said.

“Oh?” he replied.

“What do you mean Oh? This is good news. The baby is not yours so it’s definitely Nay’s. “

“I’m fucking ecstatic. “ Chris said and then hung up.

She frowned and rubbed her large belly as she felt the baby kick. Chris had seemed almost happy when she had phoned him asking for a prenatal paternity test. She had only slept with two people around the time she had got pregnant and she couldn’t have asked Nayvadius or he would have found out about her and Chris. So she had contacted Chris. He had ignored her call 14 times before he finally picked up and cursed her out. She had laughed, she knew he didn’t mean it and would never mean it. He was just angry, and he had every reason to be.

Just then she heard a car pull up outside and immediately got up and rushed to the kitchen and burnt the test results with the envelope. The fire had just gone out as she heard the front door open. She smiled and walked to her fiancé, stepping over toys that the twins had left behind when they had visited with their grandmother that morning.

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Friends with Benefits

This was undoubtedly never going to happen again. Ever. Ciara repeated this over and over again in her head when she woke up wrapped in a certain Christopher Brown’s embrace. Now this wasn’t anything out of the ordinary as they had fallen asleep together on numerous occasions but this time it was different as he was completely and absolutely butt naked. A clock on the wall opposite her showed her that it was only 5’clock in the morning and she must have only been asleep for an hour or two. But in her mind the events of last night seemed like years ago. It almost felt like an out of body experience because it was not something she ever thought she would do. 

Chris had left the curtains open ever so slightly and a sliver of light on her face was what eventually awoke her at the crack of dawn. Beside her Chris was silently sleeping, looking ever so innocent and adorable. Since Ciara had arose she had been careful not to move, fearing waking him up and things becoming awkward quickly. It took her forever but she finally gained courage and managed ti slowly move out of his embrace. He didn’t stir. She tiptoed towards the curtains and shut them which suddenly made the whole room darker. She then turned towards the bathroom, hopeful that she could atleast shower and leave before Chris woke up. She was pretty sure she could as it was only 5 in the morning and she had never known him to was up before midday anyway.

She took off the shirt and panties that she had put on some time last night and in minutes was in the shower. Unknown to her Chris had lifted his head and was smirking as he watched her ass move when walked into the bathroom. In a sleepy haze, Chris ignored her and tried to go back to sleep but in a few minutes he heard her soft, soothing voice humming along to one of his songs. A couple of minutes later she was so into it that she was singing along as well.Her soft, gentle voice sounded amazing to the words of one of his songs and he couldn’t help but think it was due time for him and Ciara to get back in the studio together.As he walked towards her voice he noticed that she was singing the words completely wrong but it still sounded amazing. He pushed the bathroom door open just a crack and a blanket of steam poured out. He could hear her voice better now and smiled, noticing that she hadn’t noticed him opening the door.

As he walked in he could see her toned figure clearly through a wall of frosted glass right in front of him. She was turned away facing the other direction, shampooing her hair, her eyes closed, still singing the words wrong to his songs. She didn’t notice when he dropped his boxers and stepped in behind, she was lost in her own little world.

“Well good morning to you too.” He said softly. 

She gasped loudly and froze. Not turning around, she washed the shampoo out of her hair. He was careful to keep his distance for now until she suggested otherwise. He didn’t know how she would react if he made a move, now that it was morning and they were both in their right minds.

“You gave me a fucking heart attack.” She said finally turning around. Her eyes gazing all up and down his body until they stopped at a certain point. She blushed and looked up again, trying to hide her smile.

“Look Chris. As amazing as last night was, we really can’t d-“

“Shhh” he said ignoring her. He just wrapped his arms around her warm wet body and placed kisses all over her neck and shoulder. 

Ciara couldn’t deny it, his body felt amazing all pressed up next to hers but no this was not right. They would ruin their friendship if they went down this path. They had to stop this nonsense. 

“Shit Ciara. Stop fighting it and just enjoy it. You overthink everything! There ain’t a damn thing going on between us apart from two best friends, enjoying each others company. No, I don’t wanna start dating you. And I know you feel the same way. IT’s just sex, we’re both single and trust each other, so why the fuck not!” Chris ranted, almost as if he had read her mind. His fingers playing between her hips while he said it. 

Ciara moaned in reply and pulled his head towards hers in a long wet Kiss. Chris was as usual smirking as his hands roamed all over her body. Things were about to get interesting.

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“Fuck!” Ciara exclaimed out loud almost five minutes after they had finally collapsed on top of each other for the third time that morning. It wasn’t even seven yet and they had still managed to somehow have sex three times already. 

“Damn Ci. My legs are actually numb. The way you just did that was fucking mind blowing. I don’t think I’ve ever nutted so damn hard.” Chris laughed.

“Please be quiet. Uh. How can I be so stupid again?” she sighed.

“We used protection this time…” Chris yawned and pushed her off his chest. “Damn your head heavy as hell!”

“Shut up! No I mean I told myself we wouldn’t do this again. But…”

“The dick was too bomb. You couldn’t stay away.” he said laughing again as he reached over and grabbed her arse.

“Nigga please!” Ciara argued, but her hands were already sliding down his chest towards his-

“No, no. Not again. Not yet! What the fuck. You are insatiable woman! I need some food first. Are you trying to kill me?” he she pushing her away further.

She laughed and picked up her phone and dialed a number. A couple of minutes later she hung up her phone and told Chris she had told her chef to make breakfast and deliver it here.

“You genius! Now I can have breakfast, shower and then go to the studio.”

“Oh? I thought you were taking the day off…” she said drawing patterns on his chest.

“I was? …Oh! I was…” he said smirking.

“You know this doesn’t mean we’re together.” she said. “ It’s not like we’re in love. we’ll just keep this arrangement. Friends with benefits. Right?”

“Ofcourse. I already said this, didn’t I?” he said staring at the crack he had just noticed on the ceiling above him.

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“Girl, you’re 25 years old and still afraid of the dark. You used to do the same thing when you were fifteen.” he whispered in her ear.

“There might be monsters here somewhere…” she giggled.

“You think so?”

Ciara shivered, she could feel his hot breath on his ear and neck and felt him…

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Well I guess they are more than friends now

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not necessarily

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Friends pt 2

  “Girl, you’re 25 years old and still afraid of the dark. You used to do the same thing when you were fifteen.” he whispered in her ear.

“There might be monsters here somewhere…” she giggled.

“You think so?”

Ciara shivered, she could feel his hot breath on his ear and neck and felt him place his hand on her shoulder. A few moments later he moved his hand down ever so slightly over her back and she shivered again, feeling goosebumps erupt over her skin. She had been ready to reply but now she had forgotten what he had asked her. She stiffened.

Chris had somehow noticed her reaction and let out a huff behind her. Ciara meanwhile waited for him to do something, anything, but to her great disappointment he pulled his hand away. Ciara frowned and a second later shifted back a little, trying to bring her body into contact with his. Ciara hadn’t realized how close he was as she had only moved back slightly before he back was flush against his bare chest. She gulped loudly and tried to spin around to face him but he held onto her hips tightly and aligned his hips against hers, not allowing her to move. 

“What are you doing?” she asked him.

“What you clearly want me to do.” He replied, his hand toying with the hem of her t-shirt, his fingers lightly brushing her stomach.

“Chris….” Ciara whispered. “That’s not-“

“Okay.” Chris said suddenly, pulling himself away from Ciara and turning around.

“Wait! “ She said, unable to stop herself.

“What now? Don’t be a tease.” Chris said turning on his bedside lamp and then turned to face Ciara. "You wanna fuck or naw? Damn." 

Ciara studied Chris’ face through heavy lidded eyes, paying close attention to his lips. He had lost weight, but in a good way. It must have been all that dancing while he was on tour because his abs were looking real  tight.  It took all of her courage but Ciara managed to raise her hand and slowly put it on his chest. Then ever so slowly, like he had done before she slid her hand down his chest to his stomach, feeling the ripples of his abs.

“So you definitely want some of this…” he smirked.

“Pffft. You ain’t anything special.” Ciara said propping herself up on her elbows to look at him properly.

 “Well you’re not any better yourself. Look at that fat ass spot on your chin! Ew. I thought your acne was gone.” 

“Chris!” she smacked his chest. “Don’t be be a fucking ass!"

The next thing she knew was that his lips were on hers. Ciara became stiff as he pushed her back down onto the bed, never breaking the kiss. He straddled her hips and deepened the kiss. She melted into him eagerly, enjoying the sensation of his tongue against her own. His hands slid down onto her thighs and tugged the hem of the oversized t-shirt she was wearing.

“Oh my days. Why do you always steal my shirts Ci? You still have m-“

She silenced him with her lips. This time the kiss was different. Deeper, more urgent. Chris slid his hands under Ciara’s shirt briefly before he tugged it up. Ciara lifted herself so he could lift the shirt over her head, leaving them both topless. Chris took a moment to appreciate what was in front of him with a smirk on his face. 

“Well, well, well. Some has finally managed to grow a pair of boobs.” He said smugly, palming her breasts. 

Ciara’s face twisted in anger. Why did he always have to ruin the moment. She pushed him over onto his back and swiftly tugged his boxers off. She stared at his manhood and smirked.

It was impressive but she wouldn’t let him know that. “Shame your dick is still small though.” She laughed and this time his face scrunched and anger.

“Nigga, say what the fuck you want but you know my dick is anything but small.” He huffed. 

She was suddenly thrown on to her back again so that Chris was on top again. He pushed her panties down and she helped him take them off before positioning himself between her hips. He couldn’t help but admire her well toned figure. He had to admit that she definitely hid it well under all those baggy clothes she liked to wear all the time.

 A small groan escaped his lips as she bit her lips cupped one of her breast lightly. She moaned softly arching her hips into his and he thought he might go crazy. He position himself at her entranced and lowered his chest down on to hers. His lips captured hers  and he gently caressed one of her breasts.

She cried out, arching into him as he slammed into her. IT had been a while since she had last had sex and she squeezed her eyes shut at the slight discomfort but as he moved that was slowly becoming replaced by pleasure. Chris put his head down next to hers on the pillow as he tried to focus on his rhythm. He tried starting off slow but her tight, wet heat surrounding him nearly pushed him over the edge.

Her hips surged up to meet his as his rythym became faster and faster and as she moaned in pleasure, he lost it and became wild and feral. He slammed into her hard, over and over again. Hard and fast. She was yelling by now but she didn’t care. Soon she felt that familiar tightening in her stomach and she arched upwards, feeling him hit her spot over and over again. She screamed his name as she came, coming around him but he didn’t slow down his pace. Instead, he lifted her legs and put them over his shoulder so he could pummel her harder and faster.  He was so deep now that he couldn’t even think. His hands touched every part of her that they could find.

As his hands found her breasts, he pinched her nipples hard and once again he found her body stiffening. She clamped around him so hard that he was sent over the edge as well. 

He knew he should have pulled out but this was different. He wanted her to overflow with his seed, wanted to feel her wet all around him. As she let go screaming his name again, he let out a low guttural groan as he pumped once, then twice before releasing his seed inside her.

 They rode the waves of ecstasy together, relishing wave after wave of pleasure until darkness blanketed their vision and he was left breathing hard, lying on top of her. Her arms wrapped around him in embrace. Both were limp and sated but he managed to pull out and adjust their position so they were lying side by side in embrace. She cuddled against him and dug her head deeper into his chest, her arms still around him, her hair sticking to his sweat coated chest.

They lay their until their breathing returned to normal, both at a loss of words. She couldn’t even look up at him she was so embarrassed. What the hell had they just done.

“So…” She started.

“Yeah. Um well…The fuck just happened. Goddam! That was fucking awesome!” Chris exclaimed.

Ciara pulled away from him, gave him a dirty look and sat up.

“What?” he said, unable to take his eyes off of her chest.

 “We just had unprotected sex you dumbass. What the fuck were we thinking?”

“Oh shit! Fuck! Damn I did’nt pull out?”  Chris replied. “Fuck!”.

“You’re lucky I haven’t had my period in god knows how long because of the treatment but EW. Knowing how many thots you’ve been with, I hope you ain’t infected me with nothing.” Ciara laughed nervously. To be honest it was one of the dumbest things she had done and there was a possibility that she might be pregnant but there was only one thing she could do now.

“Shutup! If you must know, I ain’t slept with nobody in almost 2 months.” He said nonchalantly.

“Nigga puh lease. You just came back from tour, I know you were smashing three or four groupies a night. Talkin’ bout I ain’t had none in two months. Pfft.” Ciara said rolling her eyes.

“Ok fine, it has been almost a month though. Don’t worry, we’ll go get you a morning after pill tomorrow.”

"There's no need, I was still taking birth control." Ciara said as she lay back down. 

"Well this is awkward. " Chris said.

"Shhhhh." Ciara said burying her head into the pillow before getting up to go the bathroom. When she came back Chris was snoring loudly. She switched off the light, put her tshirt back on and got into bed. She was asleep in minutes.

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Friends

It was two in the morning, and as usual Ciara was slightly drunk. She had cried for a bit, called her mom, called her manager telling her that she was ready for work and since then had drank wine while watching TV. The bottle was half way empty by. The program was just ending and she was extremely bored and was not a bit sleepy. She turned the TV off. She suddenly picked up her phone, dialed a number and then held the phone up to her ear as it rang.

“Hey. Are you up?” Ciara asked.

 “No. But I am now. What’s up You alright?” the voice asked, slightly concerned. "You want me to take you to the hospital? Did you take your med? God Ci, What is it?"

“Are you alone?” she said ignoring his questions.

“Umm….well yeah." sounding a tad confused.

“Cool. Can I come over?” she asked. 

“At this time. Girl.... And d’you really have to ask. Just come on over.” The voice said groggily. “And hurry up, or imma fall asleep again.” 

“Kay, bye. “ Ciara said hanging up. 

It was 15 to 20 minutesm later when Ciara walked into Chris’ house. She was surprised she had made it in one piece considering how fast she had been driving. He opened the door in his boxer shorts, his eyes half closed.  He had never looked sexier. Ciara was still dressed in the clothes from that afternoon.  She was wearing leather shorts and a black tank top with her new knee high chanel boots. Chris looked at her up and down disapprovingly.

“What the hell are you wearing. I thought you were gonna come up here in a sexy dress and those red heels I go-“ Chris said.

“Shut up Chris!” Ciara said walking in and taking  a swig from her bottle of wine. 

“Heeeey. You can’t waltz in here and tal-“

“Chris. Please. Hush.” Ciara said sitting at the bottom of the stairs, taking off her boots.

“What! I’m just saying you woke me up for no reason.” Chris replied, following Ciara up the stairs to his room, rolling his eyes. "I thought i was finally gonna get some and end this dry spell. Damn..."

He found Ciara on the bed, flipping through the channels on his TV. 

He shivered at the sight of her on his bed. Her long smooth legs were neatly folded together and he really couldn’t take his eyes off them. Her skin just looked so soft, he wanted to bite it.She was still a little skinnier than usual but she looked great tonight. He jumped on the bed and lay down next to her. He knew nothing was going to happen tonight so was hoping he could just go back to sleep again but he had to talk to Ciara first. Something was definitely up, she never acted like this. Normally she would gush everything to him the moment she saw him but today...

“Are you just gonna lie there? Or are you gonna tell me why you’re here at almost 3 in the morning?” He asked snatching the bottle of wine from her hand and taking a drink.

Ciara resisted the urge to smack Chris on the head. Instead she snatched the bottle back and took another swig before cradling it in her arms. A frown on her face.

“Nayvadius is hav-“ Ciara started. “You know what. Nevermind. Forget him.”

Chris reached to take the the bottle and as he did his fingers brushed against Ciara. He looked up and caught Ciara’s eye. It seemed like forever but they stared at each other. He interlaced his fingers with hers, pulling her closer by their clasped hands.  She shuddered. Her eyes travelled down his bare chest and to the front of his pants where she could see the outline of his…

“Like something you see?” Chris said.

Ciara pulled herself closer to him.  “No.” she said seriously.

He sighed and lay back down on the bed.

“So you found out Future been sleeping with his baby mama and knocked her up again?” Chris asked.

“You knew?” Ciara asked. She was shocked. Chris had known but didn’t tell her?

“Future told me a couple of days ago. I would have told you, but he said he wanted to tell you himself.”

“Why was he talking to you?”

“I dunno. He seemed to have thought that Rihanna had told me something. But I don’t even talk to her anymore. Well I do see her sometimes, but we hardly do any talking…If you know what I mean.” He said with a wink.

“Ew! Chris…”

Chris just laughed and got under the covers on his bed. He yawned and stretched a bit and then turned off the lamp at his bedside before rolling over with his back to Ciara and closing his eyes.

“Oi! Chris!” Ciara said smacking him on the back of his head. “I was talking to you.”

“Look i…I’m tired as fuck! And you’re not even that upset. Watch some TV and go to sleep! We can talk in the morning!” he said.

“Fine!” Ciara answered back as turned the TV off and got out of bed. She walked towards his bathroom and walk in closet. About 5 minutes later she emerged with her make up wiped off, her hair in a bun and wearing one of chris’ tshirts. She turned the light off and ran towards the bed and got under the covers. Her back was towards Chris’ and she had curled up in a ball. She could hear Chris chuckling at her somewhere next to her but it was too dark to be able to see anything.

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Revelations

You can do this, Ciara told herself, as she checked herself over in the front camera of her phone for the last time. She applied a fresh coat of mascara to her eyelashes and some more lipgloss before stepping out of the car, which was parked in front of Nayvadius’ new house.

She had called him a week ago and it had been like the first time they had talked. She was so in love with him, the way he talked, how he had told her everything that had happened when they had been apart, how he laughed. She just loved everything about him. He was the one. She could see herself with his kids in the future. He was the only man she had ever wanted to settle down with and whatever their problem was before she was sure they would get over it.

They had agreed to meet for lunch at his house today and it was the first time she would be seeing him face to face in almost 2 months. They had talked endlessly on the phone for the last week and had also facetimed a lot. That was until 2 days ago when he had abruptly hung up saying there had been a family emergency. She had hoped everything was fine and had tried to contact him but he had been unreachable.

As she walked up to the house she noticed a new car parked in the driveway behind his Bentley. He must have bought a new one, she though. It was nice but it wasn't his style. Maybe someone was visiting him? Ciara finally reached the door and knocked and waited. She was nervous and her palms were kinda sweaty. She hadb't seen him in so long and she currently looked a mess but she knew he wouldn't mind. She had been really looking forward to meet him again. She looked down at her outfit, hoping she hadn’t overdressed for the occasion.

He finally opened the door after what felt like forever and frowned as soon as he saw her. She frowned as well.

“Hey Nayvadius.” She said nervously. 

“God Ci. I totally forgot!” he said.

 "Forgot?" she asked incredously. "YOU asked me to come here. Not the other way round."

"I know, It's just there's been a lot on my mind lately." 

“Well it’s alright, we can still have lunch!” she said smiling as she tried to move inside, but he blocked her. 

“Wait Ci-“ he was cut off by the shrill scream of a little girl. 

“Daddy! You’re missing the show!” his daughter Kaylee shrieked from the hallway. 

“Look Ci, now is not a good time. I’ll call you back later. Please…”

Just then a woman dressed in one of Nayvadius’ T-shirts came out of the room. As soon as she saw Ciara, she smiled. There was an evil glint in her eyes. She walked up beside Nayvadius ad linked her arm together with his. It made anger boil up inside Ciara. 

“What the Fuck?” Ciara said before she could even think about anything. “What’s going on.”

“What’s going on is that I’m here at home with my children’s father. That’s what’s going on.” Jen said before Nayvadius could say anything. HE was now looking down at his hands. 

“Children?” Ciara asked. The only had one child and that was Kaylee. Unless…

Jen moved her hand over her belly and rubbed it a little, smirking. Ciara wanted to slap her.

“Yup, you heard correct. I’m nearly 6 weeks now with our second child. It was nice to see you again Ciara.” She said picking up her daughter and going back inside.

 "Nigga tell yo' side chicks not to come 'round the house again." she yelled from inside.

“Ci…look it’s not what it looks like. I love you Ci, this was a mistake. Please…” he pleaded but she heard nothing as she was already on the way to her Car.

"Side chick? Nigga fuck you. I was in the fucking hospital, in pain and yo' ass never came to see me once. But you had the time to get that ratchet bitch knocked up agian?" 

"Don't call her a bitch." he said quietly as he walked up to her car.

"Well she is. She is a fucking ratchet, ugly bitch and nigga so are you!"

 He tried to grab her arm roughly but she snatched it back.

“FUCK OFF! ASSHOLE!” She yelled as she got into her car but he had already closed the door. She was seething. What the fuck was wrong with this nigga. Why the hell did he have to ruin everything by getting that dumb bitch pregnant? 

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Kiss part 2

“So. Why you kiss me? What happened with Kae?” Ciara asked awkwardly after her and Chris looked around the room at everything apart from eachother.  

“Crazy you asked. She said the same thing when I kissed her.” He said solemnly looking down at his feet so all Ciara could see was the top of his blonde head.

“Wait. Wha-“ she started coughing loudly. 

Chris let go of her hand and reached over to her bedside table to give her a glass of water. She took it from him, took a sip and cleared her throat

“So…erherrrrm. Why would she say that! She knows we been best friends since we were 14!" Ciara put the glass back down. "And that's all we are. FRIENDS." she said assertively, trying to make her point known. 

“I don’t know. She seems to think that all i do is talk about you, hang out with you...blah, blah,blah. She said Iwould be better off with you, instead of wasting my time with her. She says I took too long to let my feelings know. She don’t feel the same way anymore and she’s dating someone else.” Chris looked down at his hands. “That’s why I kissed you. To see how I feel.” 

“So. How do you…"

‘I don’t know man! It's all too much. Especially cos' I got dumped a couple of hours ago.”

"A couple of hours? Nigga." Ciara said smacking him. "On to the next one, eh?" she smacked him again and he laughed.

  BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP

  Chris took out his phone and turned off the alarm. He moved close and pecked her on the lips again. Ciara tried to move away, but he was too quick. He grinned at her obnoxiusly.

"Don't do that again bruh." Ciara said.

"Don't call me bruh." he replied. “ Anyways, I gotta go. My flight leaves in an hour. Just came to say bye.” He hugged her quickly and clumsily before moving towards the door. 

“Wait! I wanna-” Ciara said but was ignored as Chris waved her goodbye and left before she could even finish the sentence. 

It must have been only thirty seconds later that Ciara heard footsteps running towards her door. Chris ran in, out of breath. He came right up to her bedside and bending over her, he gave her a proper kiss on the lips. It left her heartbeat racing and her lungs out of breath. Once again he was running back out before she could speak, the biggest grin on his face. Ciara was frowning.  What an awful start to the day.

Okay yes, she and Chris had kissed before. They’d even slept together once or twice, but that had been out of drunkenness and sexual frustration as teenagers. It was if she had never noticed him as a love interest and here he had just come and randomly kissed her, leaving her tummy feeling weird. But no, she couldn’t possibly have an inkling of a feeling towards Chris because she was so deeply in love with Nayvadius.

 And Chris was most likely messing with her anyway. He was never serious with anyone. Ciara turned her mind towards Nayvadius and wondered if he missed her. Once she was out of this hospital in a week or two, she was definitely going to go meet him again. 

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So her and nay are not getting back together??!? 😩😩😭😭😭😩

lol maybe

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Yesssss! :-) Next update?

sat or sunday

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I honestly got sad when it wasn't him. Are they done completely & her & Chris are gonna get together. What about Kae? I enjoyed the chapter tho.

maybe

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Awww man i thought Nay was back

hmmmmm 

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Kiss

Hey peeps. Sorry for the long wait. I know its been months but I had my finals J. I wrote this about an hour ago and due to your many requests changed the plot a bit. Hope you guys like it. Please leave a review to tell me how it was and maybe give me suggestions on where you would like to see the story go next. Also a bit towards the end there will be a couple of lines in italics where I have used a quote (changed it a bit etc.)

  It’s from=> “At the first kiss I felt something melt inside me that hurt in an exquisite way. All my longings, all my dreams and sweet anguish, all the secrets that slept deep within me came awake, everything was transformed and enchanted, everything made sense.” ~Hermann Hesse

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Six weeks later, Wednesday morning

A couple of more check-ups and hospital appointments later, Ciara had discovered that the chemo had somehow miraculously reduced the amount of cancer cells in Ciara’s body greatly. The numbers of cancer cells in her body were starting to shrink. Partial remission, the doctors had called it at first. This meant that she was actually getting better and soon may even be totally cured. The news was greatly unexpected as up until recently doctors had been hinting that her cancer was at too far of an advanced stage for any treatment to have any real significant impact on her. One doctor had even told her to make a will. But maybe it just wasn’t time for her to go yet. There was now hope.

Although the cancer had improved, it hadn’t gone away completely and there was still cancer in her body. This meant that Ciara did have to have another couple of rounds of chemo and was still having to take a bunch of medicines. Combined together this had made her very sick. Some days she wished she could just end it all just to relieve herself of the pain. She was worse now than she had been when her cancer was at its worst but she knew she had to go through this pain if she wanted to survive.

After her last session of Chemo she had gotten extremely sick and had been in hospital for the last three weeks. The hair on her head had completely gone after the last batch of chemo. She really did look like a cancer patient now. Her parents had visited her once or twice but they had gone back to Atlanta as Ciara’s older half-sister had given birth to twins. She understood, and maybe would have done the same thing. Who would want to be around a diseased, dying person when you could celebrate new life and all that rubbish? She just wished she could have gone as well as she hated being bed ridden. It was horrible having to rely on others to feed her, clean her and sometimes even taking her to the toilet. It was just embarrassing and in some ways humiliating.

Sighing loudly in frustration Ciara shuffled in the hospital bed and tried to close her eyes and will herself to go to sleep. But all the beeping sounds around and the loud snoring of the guy next door wouldn’t let her. It was only 5 AM and visitors weren’t allowed till one. Why did she always wake so early? It was still dark outside. There was nothing to do here either. The remote for the small TV in front of her bed had been placed on a chair across the room by a careless nurse and Ciara was too weak to get up and get it herself. All she could do was sleep here all day and then wait for Chris to come like he did every day. She smiled to herself, thinking about her best friend.

In frustration she reached to the table next to her bed and picked up her phone. The sudden bright made her squint her eyes. There was only 2% battery left. She clicked on the internet tab and opened a celebrity blog site. Scrolling quickly past pages and pages of drivel about what someone wore to an event or who was dating who she became bored and decided to turn it off and try going back to sleep again. That was until she noticed a heading scroll past quickly with two names she recognised and knew very well.

  Rapper Future and Rihanna partying together in NYC

Accompanying the article was a photo of Nayvadius and Rihanna leaving a club. His hand on the small of her back. A tear threatened to fall but Ciara wouldn’t let it. She started reading

Rapper Future, who was recently rumoured to be dating R&B singer Ciara was spotted on Monday night at a popular NYC club cosying up to Rihanna. Sources reveal that the two ‘Could not keep their hands off of each other and-‘ …

Before she could read anymore the screen went blank. The battery must have finished. Seeing him with Rihanna, out of all people hurt too much and she knew why he was doing it. He was trying to get back at her for cheating on him with Chris. But she hadn’t cheated…And she had tried to explain that to him many many times but he wouldn’t listen. The last time they had talked he had shouted at Ciara as he packed the rest of his bags and left. She had waited for him to come home for 3 days so she could tell him about the Cancer. He hadn’t even let her speak; he had said he didn’t want to hear any of it. History had repeated itself and she had had another boyfriend walk out on her.

He had finally moved on and now she had to too. It was over. But she couldn’t get him out of her mind. As she lay with her eyes closed, all she could think about was him. All the time they had spent together, all the memories. It was over. She let herself cry. Just this once she told herself.

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Wednesday afternoon “’Morning,” Said a cheerful male voice. “She up yet?” Ciara supposed that the “she” in question was herself, but the pounding headache prevented her from spending any more thought on the situation. She tried to open her eyes but the bright lights forced her to close them again. She had made out a dark figure by her bedside talking to the nurse.  “Nope, she’s still sleeping. Funny that, she’s usually up before everyone else. I guess she’s just been very poorly lately.” The nurse told the man. She heard the rustling of papers and a set of feet leave the room. “I’ll be back in a bit.”

Another set walked towards her. She wished she could open her eyes but as hard as she tried, she just couldn’t. She had just woken up when the man had walked in and hadn’t recognised his voice. She waited for him to say something, but he didn’t. Instead she felt large, warm hands wrap around one of hers. They sat like that for a while. Ciara tried not to fall asleep and did her best to try and move or say something but only managed feeble moans and twitching.

 It was about half an hour later that Ciara felt a hand caress her face. Slow and gentle, and very intimate. Her breathing quickened. A second later she felt a faint minty breath near her face. That meant the person was very close to her. Was it…? Could it be…? There was that familiar feel of butterflies in her stomach that she only got when she kissed Nayvadius.  Had he changed his mind? Had he come back to her? Then suddenly she felt a pair of lips press down onto hers and something in her chest exploded. It was like an adrenaline rush but multiplied several times over. She had never felt anything like this before. But just as quickly the lips were off of hers. The persons face was still close to hers as she could feel his breath on her face. A hand caressed her face again.

“So beautiful. I hate seeing you like this…” the voice whispered. So quietly that she had barely heard it and they were so close. “I wish I could take all your pain away…”

Ciara still hadn’t recognised the voice but she suddenly smiled and somehow got enough energy to blindly grasp the back of the man’s head and pulled him down towards her lips. The glorious feeling in her chest returned as she melted against his lips. He let her take control and soon she deepened the kiss. It was nothing like anything she had experienced before. She felt something melt inside her that hurt in an exquisite way. All her longings, all her dreams and sweet anguish, all the secrets that slept deep within me came awake, everything was transformed and enchanted, everything made sense.

The man pulled back slightly and Ciara finally managed to open her eyes to see a smiling face on top of hers. She was shocked beyond belief to see those familiar caramel coloured eyes staring at hers. She couldn’t believe it was him at first. After a while, she propped herself up on her elbows and pecked his lips again and the feeling returned again, but if possible even stronger than before. She was a bit taken aback.

"Ci..." he said.

"Hey." she replied.

"I just wanted to meet you again before I go on tour." he told her. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to kis-" he started but was interrupted by Ciara.

"Don't worry." she said. "It was stupid..."

"Stupid?" he said incredulously.

"You're an awful kisser." she told him with a smirk.

"Shut up Ciara!" he said, laughing.

"No, you shut up Chris!" she replied with an equally loud laugh. "Dumb ass."  

He smiled, still holding her hand.

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When is the next update

This weekend hopefully!

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Are you still updating or is this abandoned again?

got exams....but i promise. a couple of more weeks!

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When is the next update

Soon.

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That was short when's the next up date :(

Monday probably! I'm gonna try and do a longer chapter! <3

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Tests

It was almost half an hour later that Ciara walked out after getting her heart tested. The doctor had told her that everything seemed normal. She had rolled her eyes at him, Of course there was nothing  wrong with her heart, it was her blood that was the problem. When they had walked out Chris was nowhere to be seen. She would have been angry normally, but right now she was just disappointed. He said he would have stuck through this day with her, he was the reason she even came. But he had deserted her, like everyone always did.

“C’mon Ms. Harris. This way please, we have one more test left to do.” The doctor told her.

She followed him to another room where he took an X-ray of her chest and then a nurse led her to another room where she did a pulmonary breathing test. The nurse also took a sample of her blood and it was another 45 minutes until all the tests were over and she was sitting in the doctor’s office in her hospital gown and sneakers feeling awkward and slightly cold. She wished Chris was here with her.

“Well Ms. Ciara. How have you been feeling lately?”

“Tired. Really tired and just ill in general. And freaking lousy because all my hair is falling out.” She told him, frowning.

He started scribbling a few words onto a piece of paper in front of her. He then took out the xray and a pile of papers which she suspected were the results of all the tests they had done today.

“Well that is to be expected because of the Chemotherapy and all the drugs you are taking. Anything else? How about your breathing, any abdominal pains?”

She shook her head, no.

“Well, things seem to be looking good for you. I’ve got the results of your blood tests and the leukocytes in your blood are significantly down from the last time you were here. And from the looks of it, it hasn’t affected you lungs or any of your other Vital organs. Things seem to be looking good.”

Ciara sat there with her mouth open, unable to say a word. The last couple of times she had been here she had always felt the doctor give her pitiful looks and had once even told her that she might need to get her affairs in order. Now he was telling her she was getting better.

“We still however need to continue your treatment. I think 2 more sessions will be enough and then we’ll do some more tests and then we can hopefully stop some of the drugs you are taking and the chemo. If not we’ll try and switch to some oral pills.”

“Wow. Well, yeah. I guess…” Was all Ciara could say.

“Well any more questions? No? Allright then. If you can just follow Nurse Grey here, she will take you to get the Chemo.”

He stuck out a hand and stood up. Ciara shook it gingerly.

“It’s always a pleasure to see you Ms. Harris. “

“You too Doctor.” She replied with a small smile, unsure of how to contain her happiness.

She was doing her absolute best not to scream out loud with happiness or start sobbing uncontrollably. She just had to tell Nayvadius! Nayvadius... Would he even want to talk to her now? Maybe she ought to go find Chris first.