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♡ || clover || 22 || she/her || another girl with bpd ♡ || crybaby ||🧸🍼🍰 || you know where to find me, || sideblog || ♡

[cloverfalls]

I Wish I could cut again without feeling immensely guilty about it.

[porcelainbunniies]

i don't feel well and i'd really like to hurt myself

[cloverfalls]

I just blocked my mom too cause my grandma told me my parents planned a week vacation in FL and for some reason my dad won't stop texting me NONSENSE.

This was 100% my dad texting from my mom's phone. And I want nothing to do with them. They were like well we know *my name* won't come back with us but if *my sibling wanted to* they could. Dude they want less to do with you than ME. They've been ignoring you from the start. Their silence towards you wasn't for nothing. They're not silent to ME like they are to YOU. I was the one who tried to make things work, then I was the reason we got on a train and left.

[hedgehogs-delimma]

I dont trust people who say they love you or call you family early on, because its been a fucking lie every time.

[porcelainbunniies]

i’m going to fucking vomit at how insignificant i am to people

[cloverfalls]

I'm so sad. But, I guess I'm proud of myself for not acting an anxious mess when we left the call. Whatever she wants to do is fine. I used to bug and bug and bug and cry and scream until I got answers because I couldn't live without knowing for days. Improvements have been made. Small, but it's something.

[cloverfalls]

Lowkey wish I had someone to sleep on call with, too, sometimes.

[cloverfalls]

I'm so sad. But, I guess I'm proud of myself for not acting an anxious mess when we left the call. Whatever she wants to do is fine. I used to bug and bug and bug and cry and scream until I got answers because I couldn't live without knowing for days. Improvements have been made. Small, but it's something.

[lunarvipernova-deactivated20250]

babygirl's been typing for the last 5 minutes....

she must be breaking up with me she's leaving me it's so over

[organmeatsoup-deactivated202505]

not all love is gentle. sometimes it’s gritty and dirty and possessive, sometimes it’s not supposed to be careful or soft at all. sometimes it feels like teeth.

[bpdjirai-deactivated20250605]

i don’t know how to keep my problems to myself. some part of me always wants my pain to be seen by others. i just want someone to see that i’m hurting and understand.

[i-ate-pog]

How it feels to know that someone means well but you can't bring yourself to believe it

[thisfileiscorrupted]

mental health matters until you’re public with what you’re dealing with bc that means you just want attention and it’s off putting

[sizzlingcandyjellyfishhhhhh]

I’m mentally ill not in a cute quirky way but in a “people are afraid of me” way

[lundlwaaa-deactivated20241004]

[cloverfalls]

I genuinely think I just need to be toxic with somebody. We can both treat each other like shit but at least we both know we deserve that kinda love. I shouldn't take love from people who are so good at giving it

[cloverfalls]

Who wants an unbearably toxic gf who isn't satisfied by anything, will constantly need you at her beck and call, and will more likely than not isolate you from everyone you've ever loved? Who wants to be abused and used until they're a shell of their former self and I own every aspect of their personality?

[promotionaldisk]

ngl the more “problematic” a person is the more i wanna ride them til i pass out