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You guys don’t mind if I post oc x canon right…?
RIGHT!?!? GUUULP!!
Guess who is into valorant now… gulp
Just be competent
ARE YOU MAN ENOUGH?
Mother, why did you do this.
”IT’S ALL YOUR FAULT I HATE YOU.”
anyway quick summary of what i think each character represents to isaacs psyche before i go to bed. regular characters are a part of him as a person and the tainted characters then reflect part of his trauma imo
isaac: obviously himself, but also isaac being a blank slate represents how he created so many personas to deal with his trauma/tainted isaac: the physical abuse isaac experienced and how he had to adapt as a survival strategy
magdalene: his love and admiration for his mother, to the point of wanting to be just like her/tainted magdalene: isaac's desperate need and latching onto any positive attention + his association of love with physical and emotional pain due to having shitty parents
cain: isaac feeling like he destroyed his family and the guilt that comes with that/tainted cain: hoarding
judas: isaac feeling like he’s betrayed both those he loves and his faith/tainted judas: intentionally acting out bc you believe you’re evil anyway
???: isaac's perception of himself after death/tainted ???: generally playing with feces is a common symptom of childhood trauma, which tainted ??? takes to an absurd extent.
eve: isaac's suicidal ideation and desire to self harm, along with internalised misogyny from his upbringing/tainted eve: self harming and suicidal behaviour
samson: isaac's anger and frustration/tainted samson: violent outbursts from trauma triggers
azazel: isaac's religious delusions of being the antichrist and his sins/tainted azazel: isaac's belief he needs to be punished and physically hurt for those “sins”
lazarus: potentially past suicide attempts/thoughts of suicide, and the religious implications of such/tainted lazarus: isaac's fear of purgatory and being unable to enter heaven due to suicide being a sin.
eden: the playfulness and silliness of like, a normal five year old, and isaac's maladaptive daydreaming/tainted eden: the fawn response, changing who you are to try and make what’s hurting you stop
the lost: again, isaac's idea of himself after his suicide/tainted lost: fear of being forsaken and abandoned again bc suicide is a sin and he’d be stuck in purgatory in his own head.
lilith: isaac's negative thoughts on his mother shifted to a “safe” alternative/tainted lilith: fear of sexuality and growing up
keeper: both again isaac's constant thoughts of death + a representation of his father, who he both admires and fears becoming/tainted keeper: indulgence and risky behaviours as a distraction
apollyon: due to the void representing delirium, possibly a reflection of isaac's own thoughts/reflections on his psychosis?/tainted apollyon: dunno tbh the later characters are less obvious and it’s 2 am
forgotten: isaac's idea of purgatory and what he thinks he deserves after his suicide, due to it being “sinful”/tainted forgotten: again, isaac's fear of being stuck forever due to that
bethany: isaac's idea of what he “should” be, being virtuous and holy where he feels he is sinful and damned/tainted bethany: clinging to his religion as a coping mechanism or rejecting it violently out of fear
jacob + esau: desire for a friend/sibling?/tainted jacob: impostor syndrome, feeling like you’ve betrayed/stolen from people around you.
again these are very simplified very tentative and it is 2 am so I cannot elaborate but. i think about this way too much.
Glad Midsommar!
HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!
Hit me hard. Hit me Fast.
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Guuuh I love Brutal orchestra GRAAAAAAH
TOMODACHHI LIFE FWO JEKSIENALMELEHRKRM I CANT OMG OMGOMG I NEED IT NOOOOWWWW
”I’m terrified…”
“I know.”
If this video isn’t Nanami Kento coded then I don’t know what 😭
Imagine going on this type of date with him oh my gosh my HEART guys I love nanami kento you all don’t even know..
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