It was a typical work-from-home Wednesday for me. Becky had a burst of energy and decided to go out and run some errands when her OB office called and said they’d like her to come in for monitoring due to the discharge she had reported. She hadn’t thought much of it and assumed it would be a quick visit. Fast forward to just before 1:30pm when I got the call. You know, that call that starts with “so everything’s fine but…” Turns out that discharge she had been noticing was in fact amniotic fluid slowly leaking aka her water breaking ever so slowly. And then the adrenaline kicked in. Initial thoughts were “Is this really it? A month early?” I wouldn’t necessarily say I panicked but I was thinking to myself that I needed to move fast and head over, even though she said no rush. Just didn’t want to miss anything.
I arrived at the hospital around 2:10. Luckily no traffic. I think I got the last spot in the West Entrance lot and was so glad. There’s a larger garage on the other end of the hospital but with not knowing what to expect I wanted to park closer to the labor/delivery ward. Thank god we had a tour of the hospital during our childbirth class because it’s one hell of a maze to navigate. I headed inside and up to the 5th floor, gave my name real quick, and proceeded to Becky’s room in antenatal. She was sitting upright talking to one of the nurses about what’s been going on. The nurses ran some initial tests and determined that it was in fact amniotic fluid that was slowly leaking. Ironically our OB from the practice was the on call dr that day so she got to make the call on how to proceed. How lucky! She determined because this fluid had been present for several days now that going forward with induction was the best choice.
I’ll admit this is where the sequence of events may get fuzzy as the following days tended to blur together. As Becky mentioned, ending up in this scenario was pretty funny considering her overall feelings regarding the pregnancy amidst third trimester. She was so ready for it to be over and Danny to join the world. Be careful what you wish for peeps. Anyway, the rest of day 1’s goal was to get her cervix ripened because it was not at the state it needed to be in. They gave her misoprostol every 4 hours along with penicillin on top of monitoring her. Man, what a trooper Becky is. She didn’t think anything of it but if I had to have so many fluids running through me I think I would’ve complained a whole lot. I tried to rest when I could during this 24 hr period. Thankfully I packed Becky’s laptop and there was a tv in the room so we had some distractions to pass the time. We were in it for the long haul now.
One thing that’s so wonderful about the staff at Newton Wellesley is that they really look out for the partners too. As we headed into the night they offered us a larger room with a reclining chair so I could sleep better. There was no doubt in my mind that I would be staying at the hospital with Becky. I’d be too anxious at home anyway.
Day 2 rolled in and after a cervix check we find that Becky’s only 50% effaced. So onto another ripening method for another 12 hours. The nurses continued to check on her every so often always asking if any cramping because that would show signs of contractions. And the answer continued to be minimal. Her and Danny’s vitals were solid the whole course so they were never too concerned about that. The following morning we moved into the labor and delivery wing, conveniently with the same numbered room. You would think that’s irrelevant but those hallways all look nearly identical and you’d be correct in thinking I got lost constantly trying to find my way to and from our rooms. So we settled into our new room which was quite lovely. Brighter colors, nice large windows, multiple chairs and high tech equipment. At this point in the story the doctors decided to move forward with administering pitocin to see if that would drive contractions any further. Think again.
Let’s sidebar to talk about the food situation for a moment because we both had our fair share of meals with such a long stay. Patients essentially have free room service and can pick anything from breakfast, lunch, and dinner all day. I wasn’t so lucky BUT if you play the game correctly you can have your partner order a little extra and there ya go. There is a cafeteria with all sorts of stations, very similar to a dining hall, and a couple of starbucks cafes on the main floor. Was the cafeteria food amazing? No. But very cheap compared to eating out so take your pick.
After 24 hrs of pitocin with little progress the next doctor on call decided to re-evaluate. She was a younger doctor and really great. She decided to take a step backwards and do some ultrasounds and further testing to see exactly what we’re dealing with. She again confirmed that it was amniotic fluid but found that there was even more in the sac than before. So she suggested using a balloon to stretch out the cervix which she said has a pretty high success rate. If it stretched out enough they would be able to go in and break her water completely. So they put this in and inflate it and we play the waiting game again but this time Becky’s definitely feeling cramping. So much so that she asked them to deflate the amount of water in them. Fast forward to midnight when it’s time for this sucker to come out and she’s now at just over 2 1/2 cm. It wasn’t quite the progress we hoped for but it was enough for them to break the water so we’ll call it a win.
And so the pitocin is introduced again. With no fluid left everyone was pretty confident things would move quickly now. At this point we’re heading into Sunday morning so we’re just going with the flow and hoping for anything. When the pain became too tough to handle Becky asked for the epidural. We had agreed to go this route from the get go. Honestly, and I know she agrees, I can’t imagine how anyone would endure giving birth without it. She had to wake me up just around 5am as I was pretty zoned out to warn me what was about to happen. Administering the epidural involves getting a needle fed through the back so I’m good not watching (I really hate the sight of needles and blood being drawn, to the point where I’ve gotten nauseous in the past.) It took a couple tries for them to get the perfect spot but once they did it kicked in very quickly and Becky was so thankful. And honestly I was too! If she was in that much pain at only a few cm dilated I could only imagine how she’d feel down the road. She fell asleep pretty quickly and guess what…we played the waiting game again!
So our OB was back on call at this point, joking how we really didn’t have to wait for her all this time, and assured us that baby would come today one way or the other. I think we both had that thought of “we’ll believe it when we see it” but at the same time were leaning more towards the “yes please thank god” reaction. The pitocin worked like a charm this time as she already reached 7cm early afternoon. Mind you this was also an hour into our baby shower which we obviously did not go to. It had been rescheduled from two weeks ago and our families wanted to keep the celebration alive. So I texted with parents, friends, and cousins back and forth for updates and we let them know any significant news. Just around 2pm I stepped out for a walk (there’s only so much you could do to stay active being in a hospital for 5 days). There’s signs next to the staircases that say “free stairmaster this way.” I’ll admit I quite often ran up and down the stairs for exercise to wake myself up from time to time. I headed to the cafeteria to grab lunch and then Becky texted that she was fully dilated and pushing was to begin real soon. HALLELUJAH! (Or, famous last words)
I headed back to the room with a half hour or so to spare, just in time for the puppy bowl to begin. Our nurse joked that I better eat fast and get some strength before we began. Boy was she right, but more on that soon. 3:30pm rolled around and here we go. Now, we knew that pushing with an epidural was an interesting situation thanks to our childbirth classes. You really can’t feel the contractions that strongly so they have to direct you on how and when to push. They keep telling her to push as if she’s going to the bathroom which seems like a good analogy, but man does that still sound painful. I should also note our PM nurse brought in a back up for assistance who was not a nurse we had ever met before. Nothing wrong with that but her approach was a little more firm. She reminded me of that tough gym teacher or coach you’d have on a team sport who would show no compassion about your situation. For me, I really just wanted to offer support in any way I could to help Becky relax. I know that when she gets stressed she can be real grouchy so I was very cautious. They had me assist in holding a pillow behind her head for support and that seemed like a nice touch. At one point I did try to direct her to move her head slightly so she wouldn’t hurt herself but she didn’t like that because she wanted to focus on what the nurses were saying. You may think I’d be taken aback but I was fine with it. I just kept quiet and let her focus.
It’s safe to say that all the emotions over the past week were building up in this moment which led to a panic attack of sorts as she tried pushing. I’m sure the nurses had seen such reactions in the past but there seemed to be a lot of deliberation over how to calm her and how to proceed. The nurses would tell her that she has to pull herself together and focus – understandable but not what you’d want to hear in the heat of the moment. At the same time they also said how amazing she was at pushing, given that she had never delivered before. She really was making exceptional progress in such a short amount of time. They had said pushing could take a couple of hours but given that we started at 3:30 Danny was already crowning nearly an hour later. Now initially I had no interest in seeing this happen but the nurses were excitedly urging me to look and I was basically right there so I said what the heck. It was actually a pretty cool sight. But Becky had no interest in seeing it haha. So remember when the nurse joked to gain some strength? Here’s where it was needed. Those final pushes took everything she got and the one thing she made clear before all this began is that she wanted me to hold her hand during the process. Little did I know this hand hold which I would have done regardless for support was more like a death grip as she pushed with all her might. I could hear our OB telling the nurses to prepare for Danny’s arrival. This was it.
A couple more pushes and there he was! I was overjoyed and trying to console Becky who I don’t think realized it was over. The nurses asked if she wanted to hold him. I started saying they could clean him off first as that’s what we discussed but Becky didn’t care. She just wanted to hold her baby who she just worked so hard to bring into the world. Hey, I don’t blame her. In those initial moments we noticed he had a full head of hair and an adorable face. Lots of mixed traits between us. My nose but her chin. He was then handed over to some other nurses on the far end of the room who were checking his vitals. It was determined that he had some trouble breathing on his own after the first minute. Not uncommon for an infant born early. So the nurses consoled us and told us he’d have to be brought upstairs to special care for additional attention. Because we knew this could potentially happen we really weren’t caught off guard. We had discussed that if anything were to happen where we need to be separated that I would go with him and we stuck to that. So I proceeded to follow everyone upstairs while Becky was finishing up delivering the placenta.
We get upstairs and I take a seat next to his bed while the nurses discuss their findings thus far. He was given an oxygen mask at first which was then replaced with a tube through his nose hooked up to a machine. The issue wasn’t really that he couldn’t breathe, it was that he wasn’t relieving enough pressure to sustain a breath when he inhaled and they didn’t want his lungs to collapse. Once the breathing tube was set up they proceeded to run some tests. The doctor in the unit told me that they wanted to be sure he didn’t have any infections due to Becky’s membrane rupturing so early on. She wanted to give him some antibiotics right away but the nurses had just hooked him up to an IV for fluid intake so they decided to wait a half hour. In that time another nurse tried to draw blood for a blood culture. But as we’ve said before Danny is one stubborn kid. She pricked his right arm looking for a good spot to produce enough blood. No luck. Onto the left arm. A tiny spot after the needle came out but not substantial. She moved to his right calf and got a decent amount flowing through the tube but even then it was a struggle. I’d hate to admit that I was amused, but I was.
Earlier on while I was sitting with Danny I received a call from Becky telling me that she had a lot of excess blood and was being brought to an operating room. But that was it. I tried not to panic but I was torn because I wanted to go see what was going on but at the same time I didn’t want to leave Danny. I had to trust my gut that the nurses would take good care of her and she’d update me when she could. Once Danny’s blood was successfully drawn and he was just chillin before the antibiotics were administered I asked one of the nurses with me if they had any information on what happened. They did not. The doctor advised that I go check downstairs since Danny was doing just fine at this point. And so I rushed downstairs and found a nurse who told me that she had some internal bleeding and a retained placenta but she was still in the operating room. I wasn’t allowed in there so I could either wait in the waiting room or go be with Danny until she was moved to a recovery room. I proceeded back upstairs and hung out with the little guy until I received a text from Becky that she had been moved. I went back downstairs and there she was – super drowsy, slightly frustrated due to the pain she was in, but overall she was okay. I felt so bad. Just when she thought she was pain-free and could spend time with Danny she had to go through a whole other operation. Maybe that’s what we get for her overall pregnancy being pretty easy.
Eventually we moved over to the final wing, postpartum recovery, where we settled into our final room in our stay. The only substantial difference to this one is it had a full size couch or more like a futon. I was excited in thinking I could potentially sleep better than previous nights but soon realized the cushions folded really awkwardly making it not that comfortable. We met our new nurse for the night and soon after a lactation consultant who talked to Becky all about breastfeeding and how to use a pump. Mind you it was now 10pm so we were both pretty tired but I paid attention as much as I could. Good thing because I ended up taking apart, cleaning, and re-assembling the pump the next few go arounds. She was given some more painkillers for the night to help her sleep and recover over time.
The next day was more of the same. She woke up feeling very drowsy and achy but it was her body recovering from everything. This day also brought on a lot of reflection from the past week and everything we went through. I think our go with the flow attitude was appropriate given the circumstances but we did fully intend on having a written birth plan to present to the nurses. To all you couples out there, I’d highly suggest getting one together sooner than later. If not, at least jot down the principles that are most important to you. It just allows for an easier time discussing with the nurses when they start pressing you for answers as things progress. So the nurses eventually came in to assist Becky in getting dressed and then we went back upstairs to see Danny. He was sound asleep but we got to take turns holding him and even doing skin-to-skin. Oh, this was also the morning that both my parents and hers were coming back to meet him so it was real important to us that Becky got to see Danny first. This would have been the first time since he was brought upstairs initially. Our parents came maybe a half hour later and I went down to escort them up. They had to enter in pairs of two because there’s not a ton of space which was fine. There was laughter, tears, and the like. This is the first grandchild for all so the attachment is real. Eventually we all headed back to our room where we shared stories about the experience, swapped some gifts, and found out about the shower we could not attend.
Eventually I left with my parents to head home and grab my car before Danny’s next feeding. (We had kept both cars at home to avoid high parking rates.) I was a little frantic on this trip home and back because we were cutting it close time-wise, but thankfully they didn’t start feeding without me. And Becky was actually still in the room. It was a busy morning for her between nurse visits. We headed back upstairs and saw our nurse was in the process of bottle feeding Danny. He looked so cute chugging away. At this stage he was doing much better with his breathing but they now had to focus on feeding as he wasn’t sticking to their feeding schedule and/or finishing the appropriate amount. Ultimately they ended up putting a feeding tube through his nose to administer any leftovers. If he could conquer his feeding then he’d be able to come home soon after.
In the following days we have come by to visit for anywhere between 5 and 6 hours each day. The staff is very warm and welcoming and know how hard it can be for parents to not be able to take their kid home so they have little restrictions on when you can come in. He’s now breathing room air all on his own and we’ve been lucky enough to catch him when he’s awake and play with him. (But not too much because we don’t want to tire him out so that he can’t feed.) Yesterday he made the most improvement in terms of feeding. He drank two full bottles throughout the day and breastfed with Becky for a solid 15 minutes. The nurse on call was so impressed and said he would probably end up with the feeding tube removed overnight or early today. That’s a HUGE accomplishment. She even said to bring in his car seat for the safety test which is one of the last steps. So it looks like Danny could be home with us by Monday if we’re lucky. He is so precious and loved by so many people already in his short time with us thus far.
To all you guys out there, hopefully my story can shed some light as to what you can expect. In our childbirth class it was amusing to see how we all felt similarly unprepared when it comes to giving birth. I don’t wish that on anyone. Whether you deliver at Newton Wellesley or elsewhere just remember to be supportive to your spouse, don’t panic, and trust your instincts. You’ll know what’s most important to you when the time comes.
A Shocking Turn of Events -The Husband’s Tale It was a typical work-from-home Wednesday for me. Becky had a burst of energy and decided to go out and run some errands when her OB office called and said they'd like her to come in for monitoring due to the discharge she had reported.