THE FACT THAT I KIN HIM IS THE PROBLEM
I adore his laughter, his cute sharp upper row canines, his eyes, his sense of humor, the way he bounces off of his guests, the way he's so excited to be in front of a crowd.
And it pains me so so so so so much to see him like. Hesitating, filtering himself, making those square videos— I donno, I feel so miserable because you can tell he's just.
I remember listening to his song, Grey day, was it? Made me cry. Even MSR didn't make me cry...
I often think to myself that if I fix my own problems maybe some magical string of fate would pull him out too....... Like, oh. Boy I want you to be living your dreams. You deserve better than this
I wish I could go to his show just to stare at him like this 🥺 silently because I wouldn't be able to say anything even if I saw him afterwards, thinking of all of those fanfics I read and wrote about him.
Nooo don't say that, he shouldn't know, he'd be so sad...
He rlly does just need time I think. The amount of traumatic events he went thru vs the amount of time it took for them to occur is objectively crazy, I'd need time to unpack that shit too. And while he still has a lot going for him, especially when u consider like... the economic state of the world rn, I still understand why he'd struggle with gratitude rn lmfao.
Also like, ik he jokes about it, but you can literally watch in real time as he tries not to let his extreme decline in viewership fuck with him. My poor kicked puppy eueueue... he feeds on other ppl's energy so hard it's like I'm watching him waste away..
I rlly hope he can discover his confidence again tho, I miss it dearly.
He's still like,, beloved tho, especially when u consider the crowd he was rolling with with, and the crowd he is currently rolling with. 💀 I hope he gets to a point where he can take a step back and see how much worse things could've been. They could've been a whole lot fucking better too, though.
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