Cocaine Heart

[ilovekcassidy]

[cocaine--heart]

[hayden-clemons-blog]

Today feels like a drinking day.

[cocaine--heart]

Everyday feels like a drinking day.

[cocaine--heart]

Well Chicago, it looks like I'm back.

[cocaine--heart]

Gregory Malone likes me rather sober. But he never said a thing about alcohol. We haven’t had a propre drinking night in so long Lucy.

[lucyxward-old-blog]

Well I say it’s about time that we fix that, don’t you? Wanna see if we can make a record of amount of bars hit in one night?

[cocaine--heart]

I'm in. Let's drink all of Chicago!

[timeismovingfast-blog]

My place feels empty again.

I had to return Julius Caeser and Othello to their cruel mother, Lucy Ward who calls them….degrading names.

[cocaine--heart]

Well that can only mean one thing. You need to invite me over.

[cocaine--heart]

Well Chicago, it looks like I'm back.

[cocaine--heart]

Really? From what I heard, you have been having fun with Chicago and it’s many girls.

[dimitri-trusov-blog]

Had. As in past tense. That’s old news… almost all lost my interest. 

[cocaine--heart]

Well, to be fair I've been away for a while. Chicago gossips didn't seem to get where I was.

[cocaine--heart]

Well Chicago, it looks like I'm back.

I might be sober, but you’re still as boring.

[dimitri-trusov-blog]

Agreed. 

[cocaine--heart]

Really? From what I heard, you have been having fun with Chicago and it's many girls.

[cocaine--heart]

Well Chicago, it looks like I'm back.

I might be sober, but you’re still as boring.

[lucyxward-old-blog]

Well who likes being sober anyway? I haven’t been able to have a proper drinking night in too long. Care to join me?

[cocaine--heart]

Gregory Malone likes me rather sober. But he never said a thing about alcohol. We haven't had a propre drinking night in so long Lucy.

[malone--connor-blog]

Either credit card limits are getting lower,

or I just hit an all time record speed at maxing out a card. Probably shouldn’t have bought drinks for the entire bar, ohhh well. 

[cocaine--heart]

You're right. Next time you should buy them only to me. It's been a while Connor.

[cocaine--heart]

Well Chicago, it looks like I'm back.

I might be sober, but you're still as boring.

[timeismovingfast-blog]

Today is boring.

[cocaine--heart]

Could it be because I could die of an overdose tomorrow and no one would noticed for days? The other tenants would probably complain of the smell before anyone else bothers to come see what’s up. Or maybe because the blow is actually the only reliable thing in my life? At least I get to be the one using, not the one being used. So yeah, I really don’t see why my days would be empty James. So why don’t you enlighten me, since you seem to know so much.

[timeismovingfast-blog]

I…I had no idea you felt that way, Savannah. I’m sorry. I won’t ramble on because I know whatever anyone says won’t take the hurt away. But I will tell you this. I know how it feels and I’ve been there and it’s horrible. But you have to understand, you’re NOT forgotten. Or alone. People don’t use you. Maybe you feel that it’s worse because they don’t. You feel cast out, always searching for someone to talk to, or someone to pay attention to you. Coke only fills you up so much. But it disintegrates and you’re left empty again.

[cocaine--heart]

That's all pretty words James, but they look as empty as me. 

[timeismovingfast-blog]

Today is boring.

[cocaine--heart]

Boring. Why would they be empty?

[timeismovingfast-blog]

Oh, I don’t know Savvy.

[cocaine--heart]

Could it be because I could die of an overdose tomorrow and no one would noticed for days? The other tenants would probably complain of the smell before anyone else bothers to come see what's up. Or maybe because the blow is actually the only reliable thing in my life? At least I get to be the one using, not the one being used. So yeah, I really don't see why my days would be empty James. So why don't you enlighten me, since you seem to know so much.

[timeismovingfast-blog]

Today is boring.

[cocaine--heart]

I don’t see why this one is different. They’re all boring to me lately.

[timeismovingfast-blog]

Boring or empty?

[cocaine--heart]

Boring. Why would they be empty?

[timeismovingfast-blog]

Today is boring.

[cocaine--heart]

I don't see why this one is different. They're all boring to me lately.

[malone--connor-blog]

Coming home to a eviction notice and a padlock.

[cocaine--heart]

You can always crash at my place if you need.

[malone--connor-blog]

..what’s the catch?

[cocaine--heart]

Well, you'd have to put with me. But other than that, nothing.

[malone--connor-blog]

Coming home to a eviction notice and a padlock.

Lovely. Fuck you too.

[cocaine--heart]

You can always crash at my place if you need.

[cocaine--heart]