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Factum est ^^

Erin's uncannily accurate representation of my friendship with Chris.

So I made a thing. It's not terribad.

I am self deprecating. I am aware of this, and I can see that not only is my negativity unproductive, but even harmful. Although I try to make #MissionPositivity an annual resolution, you can ask any of my friends, it hasn't been going so well. There are times when I am afraid of failure, but even more afraid of success. I would like to say, first and foremost, that my upbringing did not cause my lack of self esteem or confidence. It was myself. While success seemed as if it would bring me to the same level as those I admired, I could never help but fear that I would not be able to live up to the standard that they set. Comparing myself to others is wrong in this sense, because then I begin to feel unworthy of my successes and deem myself only fit for failure. Except that I'm an athlete and a competitor. The only thing more unacceptable than failure is not trying at all. And that is where my inner turmoil erupts: Do I have to? I'm expected to. I should at least try. I'll try my best. What if I don't succeed? What if I don't do as well as they expect? At least I tried my best. What if I do? Then expectations will raise. How terrifying. I can't meet those standards. I'm not as good as they think I am. I mean, I'm bad at everything. I should just not try. But I can't just do nothing, that's wrong. I need to ... No. I need to stop this nonsense. My self deprecating nature is destructive. It has been so for a while, I am perpetually exhausted from fighting with myself, having convinced myself that I am actually bad at everything and I have no redeeming qualities. But this isn't true. I learn fast, especially through observation. I have an abnormal amount of patience with little kids, and for some reason, many little kids look up to me as "Ate Tiffany" or "Tiffany 姐姐." I am trained in observation: noticing often overlooked details, and picking up on the habits of others. A good friend of mine insisted that I try this (you know who you are): for everything negative I say about myself, please let me know, and I'll try to come up with two positives. Maybe then I will learn to love myself the way others love me. Christ, give me strength. [Philippians 4:13]

#missionpositivity

When you thought that a photo was lost to the mists of time ...

"Heavy words never lose their meaning. Ignorant people are just too proud to see."

Went into the café at the train station for the first time. This place is so cute! ☕☕💕

I still can't figure out why she likes me so much, but I guess I love her too.

Home is where good ethnic food is.

I actually fangirl-ed a little bit. What can I say? His smile makes me happy 😘😘 literally the only person I'm watching AI for. Best of luck to Dalton on #AmericanIdol #FarewellSeason ! Check out his audition, where he sings Phantom of the Opera. Probably my favorite cover of the song to date. AI even plays a tidbit of his song Hercules at the end ^^ GO DALTON!!

#americanidol #farewellseason

Oh my heart. He actually auditioned for American Idol. This might be the first time I'm going to make a conscious effort to follow the show in years. Go Dalton! I believe in you! ...wow I did a poor job with the screenshot. My bad ):

My friends treated me to dinner and drinks for my 21st birthday. Thanks for celebrating with me!

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Purple Galaxy Quilt

Dark Blue Galaxy Quilt

Light Blue Galaxy Quilt

Dark Purple Galaxy Quilt

Blue Orange Galaxy Quilt

Red Galaxy Quilt

Starry Sky Galaxy Quilt

Dark Green Galaxy Quilt

Bright Blue Galaxy Quilt

Dark Purple Galaxy Quilt

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Awesome Sh*t You Can Buy

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Things to Remember When Complaining About HP Casting:

Daniel Radcliffe tried to wear contacts but they irritated his eyes.

Evanna Lynch was not promised the part if she beat anorexia, she auditioned and got it herself. J.K. Rowling was both pleased and surprised when she found out.

MOST OF THE MAIN CHARACTERS WERE CAST WHEN THEY WERE FREAKIN’ TEN YEARS OLD! OH MY GOD! THE FILMMAKERS HAD NO IDEA WHAT THEY WOULD LOOK LIKE WHEN THEY GREW UP! THEY DIDN’T KNOW EMMA WOULD BE SO PRETTY! THEY DIDN’T KNOW RUPERT WOULDN’T BE LANKY! AND THEY DIDN’T KNOW THAT DAN WOULD BE SO SHORT!

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the fact that they kept the same cast for eight movies is also pretty amazing

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Except Dumbledore

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college professor: i’m rejecting your evolutionary biology thesis me: wtf why dude college professor: you added “(lmao)” every time you mentioned the species Homo Erectus

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reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

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OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

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YOOOOOOO

I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS

LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL

IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

doryishness

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS.

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I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT

lenshade

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

themixedbagofwhat

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

wodkat

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

acstiel

THE BOY I FELL I LOVE WITH LEFT TO TRAVEL THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD AND HAS BEEN GONE NOW FOR 3 MONTHS. WE HAVENT SPOKEN SINCE BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO MAKE HIM FEEL TRAPPED TO ME AND NOT ENJOY HIS TIME SO I WAITED FOR HIM TO CONTACT ME FIRST. I SAW THIS ON A PARTICULARLY LOW DAY WHEN I WAS MISSING HIM SO MUCH I CRIED FROM THE PAIN, GUYS I REALLY LOVE HIM, SO I THOUGHT MEH WHAT THE FUCK, AND WISHED HE WOULD JUST LET ME KNOW HE WAS OKAY.

GUYS.

HE FUCKING CALLED ME 20 MINUTES LATER

20 FUCKNG. MINUTES. LATER.

GOOD THINGS DO HAPPEN. AND ITS IN THIS POST.

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I wish for someone to leave something in my ask.

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OKAY SO I ASKED FOR A HEDGEHOG AND NOW GUESS WHO HAS A PET HEDGEHOG

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worth a shot huh

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