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I hate nights like this

Nights where I'm really depressed and too anxious to sleep.

Nights where I can't seem to keep myself distracted enough.

Nights where I pick at my skin

And pull at my hair

I hate it

I wish I had friends close enough to talk to about how I feel, or friends even in the know of my life at all to even word vomit to.

I've noticed recently, it's like I've forgotten how to talk.

And it's killing me inside.

#me #personal #i know i need therapy #but like #I'm still lonely as hell #fuck #how do I relearn how to talk?#I hate myself right now #I know I'm recovering but fuck.#no wonder i used to drink so much

Thump thump~ line it up, speed bump

Razor blades, broken straws, booger sugar, pick-me-up

Thump ~ I'm never sleeping, blazing pipes-droppin' tabs, always tweaking

So dosed the walls are melting-I'm floating-woah colors change

Thump ~ I get so high I can't remember my name

Cigarette smoke in my unkempt hair

Grinding teeth-not that I'm aware

Thump ~ spun on amphetamines-eyes clouded by smokescreen, droppin' acid while my mind melts away.

Thump thump~ no amount of weed, acid or speed will melt why I want you to stay.

#me #drugs #idek #word vomit I guess?#personal #weed #acid #lsd #amphetamines #speed #adderall #depression #anxiety #adhd

go-for-egg

My boyfriend Aiden and I went to Denver Pride in true nerd fashion not that long ago, him cosplaying an even more gay than usual Wonder Tweek, and me just being a nerd and showing off my Kenny tattoo.

0-aki

Ahhh!!! We’re so cute!

#south park #wonder tweek #denver pride #kenny mccormick #sp kenny #sp tweek #tweek tweak #sp twenny #we are basically twenny tbh #Casey #we're so fucking cute agh!

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Windy uber was windy ~ https://www.instagram.com/p/BzGprvbA3Bz/?igshid=9in16qq5jpxa

#denverpridefest #denverpride2019 #wondertweekcosplay #wondertweek #gay

velvetclovers

hey everyone! it’s not a big thing in the news right now, but the town i live in is underwater https://www.tulsaworld.com/news/local/angry-residents-west-of-sand-springs-say-they-didn-t/article_aa3b9d02-484f-5b07-b51c-6653e780ae1d.html . no one was given enough warning to evacuate, only giving us around 5 hours of warning. houses are basically gone, mine included.

i’m safe and staying with a friend, and so are my family and pets, though my family is staying at a different house than i am, but we don’t have anything except what we managed to grab in the rush out. all i’ve got is my switch, laptop, 3 days worth of clothes, and my drawing tablet. anything still in the house won’t be salvageable.

we need help. my family lost everything in the flood, and are going to have to rebuild from scratch. our house is still underwater right now and i wont be able to go home for a while, like i dint even know when i can go back. anything you can give means the world to me, and if you can’t donate, just reblogging and getting the world out helps. you can donate here:

payapal: [email protected]

thank you so much for your help and for sharing!

heres a picture of my house right now

kittastropheart

Robbi has been debating posting this for a few days–it wasnt until this weekend that water entered their house, and now it’s nearly to their roof… And the waters continue to rise. They wouldn’t be asking for help if things weren’t pretty bad. They are super stressed right now with everything going on, so any help is appreciated! Even reblogs!

(I am the friend they are staying with by the way)

saccharinesoda

Please. Share this everywhere. Even if you don’t live in Colorado. She’s MISSING. We need to get her home. I miss her and if I never get to tell her I love her again I don’t know what I’ll do. I don’t care if it doesn’t match your theme. THIS GIRL IS MISSING AND ITS SO IMPORTANT SHE GETS HOME.

biamondpickaxe

!!!

0-aki

at Columbine, Colorado https://www.instagram.com/p/Bx51t11gqDh/?igshid=hbsw2di1eepz

coffee-beans-n-astronauts

Oh look my glasses came in

#me #self #colorado #gay #idfk

Time to drop some acid and clean the fuckin' room

#productivity #is this how you handle anxiety #i think so #fuck it #drugs #cleaning room #me #personal

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☀️ (at Columbine, Colorado) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxdZH5YAaAe/?igshid=7w69wu3omfjv

#me #it's fucking bright out #i love my sunhat #colorado #bloop

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☕ @_@ (at Columbine, Colorado) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxdGKs-AILu/?igshid=ce5cinz5739f

#good morning #me #coffee #south park plushies everywhere #lmao #my room is gay af

Ffffffnnnnnggghhfjdjsjshishsbnmnnsnnn~

#ahh #AHHH #♡?#♡?!#me?#is.. is..#ahhhhhhhhhhh

I don't know how to talk to people..

I wish I wasn't so fucking weird.

#me #meh #just self loathing don't mind me #lonely #am I annoying?#why does no one want to talk to me?#i just wish i knew what i was doing wrong so i can stop

Oh no Ric is here r u n

If I ever become delusional enough to draw his requests just shootmeplz

#srslyomg #he's such a time #ask #south park #ric122 #I dont mind Stendy but...#Bendy all the way yo #sorry not sorry everyone in SP is gay #get used to it

I must say that your drawings are really cool and I love your technique! Could I ask you to draw sam marsh? I'd love to see him in your style Ok here's what he looks like, he has shaggy black hair and has blue eyes. Wears a brown jacket with a purple scarf and dark blue jeans with black shoes.

Hi ric

#south park #asks #ric122