𝙷𝙾𝚁𝚁𝙾𝚁 𝚅𝙰𝙲𝚄𝙸 .

𝚖𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐.

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𝚊𝚛𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚍 . . .

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if u see me thinking abt archiving  &  moving shop JUST because my tags are a mess even though i literally rebranded everything including my url  &  softblocked 600 personals two days ago no u don’t

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resume :  list of accomplishments go me ,  whipping out my phone  &  pulling up my tunglr rp blog :  looK AT IT—

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i uhh might have a job interview today or tomorrow but i got soap in my eye in the shower  &  it’s all bloodshot so probably tomorrow ldmff BUT pls pray 4 me lads i live in a tiny ass town where work is scarce or shitty  &  i rly need money lol

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i’m gonna be using like five different fcs for my old!five verse because i cannot make decisions

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✎ . while i’m thinking about it ,  a  𝙿𝚂𝙰  of sorts is probably in order due to the amount of duplicates i've followed in the last several weeks :

          people who write the same character as me have  ALWAYS  inspired me in my own portrayals ,  &  while i struggle a lot with insecurities  &  shit when i keep tabs on others’ takes on the same topics i myself am invested in covering ,  i can never really bring myself to unfollow because i just ..  love seeing people love  &  appreciate the characters i do  &  how they interpret them ,  similarities  &  differences     —     i dunno why ,  it just makes me really happy to see .  it motivates me to be as creative as i see others being ,  to put in just as much thought  &  care ,  &  i also just big enjoy cheering y’all on at every opportunity because there’s almost a weird sense of solidarity when we’re both coming from the same sort of reference points ?

          HOWEVER ,  because of this ,  i see a lot of metas  &  headcanons  &  tidbits concerning characters i myself write  &  think about often .  i always try to stay vigilant i never steal anything ,  but at this point ,  a lot of stuff has the chance of worming its way in the cracks of my subconscious .  if you ever think this may have happened     (  or if you’re straight up just concerned i outright stole something from you ;  tbh that’s fair ,  we’re all just little pixels on our screens to each other for the most part  ) ,     please don’t hesitate to approach me about it !  moreso ,  if you’re  not really a fan of confrontation ,  please don’t feel bad if you ever need to soft or hardblock for the sake of your own comfortably .  ultimately ,  we’re all just here to enjoy ourselves  &  the fictional people we’ve invested ourselves in ,  &  you’re never obligated to stretch yourself thin for the sake of a rando you’ve crossed paths with  ❤ .

          sorry if this seems super unnecessary ,  but i still only just joined the rp tumblr scape a year ago  &  lots of these things just don’t even cross my mind until way later  &  i feel the need to make some kind of post about it just to get it off my chest .  if this is dramatic  &  pointless of me to post uhhh keep scrolling mdfksf u didn’t see anything ty  <3

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divergent verse where ......  five figured out how to time travel when he was still stuck in the apocalypse ...  &  just lands straight in the courtyard as an unhinged unkept smelly old ass man yep i’m thinking abt it

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my icon feels so pretensious now fndmf idk if y'all can even tell what it is but it took me like 3 hours to make so i'm Keeping it :/

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i hate thinking about the fact that five would've already had to mourn his siblings once upon learning he was basically stuck indefinitely in a time where they’re nothing but corpses but then when he finally got his hands on a copy on vanya’s book still in tact ,  he had to lose them all over again ;  a.  because he would’ve learned about the lives they lived without him ,  the good ,  the bad ,  the ugly ,  &  have to face once again that it all amounted to them failing to accomplish the one goal they were raised to ,  &  doing it together ,  apparently ,  but in the end just being cold ,  dead ,  piles of bones who died having barely lived a third of their lives ,  &  b.  he would’ve learned ben himself only lived for a handful of years more after he left ,  &  that he didn’t go quietly but bloody     —     a concept that isn’t foreign ,  due to the aforementioned  &  just the way they were raised as a whole ,  but to see it so plainly set in stone ?  knowing that one out of the two siblings whose bodies he could never find weren’t some fool’s hope anymore but another nail in his family’s     (  &  his own  )     coffin  &  that he wasn’t even there to try  &  stop it from happening .  he abandoned them on a whim ,  &  each  &  every one of their demise could very well be because of that .

i hate having thoughts  <3

[lifeinpoetry]

enough of can you see me, can you hear me, enough I am human, enough I am alone and I am desperate, enough of the animal saving me, enough of the high water, enough sorrow, enough of the air and its ease, I am asking you to touch me.

— Ada Limón, from “The End of Poetry,” Together in a Sudden Strangeness, ed. Alice Quinn

[fairestcharming]

We’re only lost children, trying to find our way home

567 ♡ THE LOST HARGREEVES

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the fact that there are zero sean sullivan icons or screencaps anywhere is a crime against me specifically  :/

[heretlc]

>: ＳＡＬＥＭ  “ＳＡＩＮＴ”  ＬＡＦＬＥＵＲ．

            【  𝚆𝙷𝙴𝙽 𝙸 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝚂𝙸𝚇𝚃𝙴𝙴𝙽, 𝙼𝚈 𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚂𝙴𝚂 𝙵𝙾𝙾𝙻𝙴𝙳 𝙼𝙴.                                          𝚃𝙷𝙾𝚄𝙶𝙷𝚃 𝙶𝙰𝚂𝙾𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙴 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙾𝙽 𝙼𝚈 𝙲𝙻𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚂.  】

>: ᴄᴏᴍᴍɪꜱꜱɪᴏɴ ᴀꜱꜱᴀꜱꜱɪɴ, “ꜰᴀɪᴛʜ ʜᴇᴀʟᴇʀ." 

01. ɪɴᴅ. ꜱᴇʟ. ᴛᴜᴀ ᴏᴄ. ʟᴏᴡ ᴀᴄᴛɪᴠɪᴛʏ. 02. ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ɴᴏ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴᴀʟꜱ, ᴏɴʟʏ ꜰᴏʟʟᴏᴡ ɪꜰ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ. 03. ᴛʜᴇᴍᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴠɪᴏʟᴇɴᴄᴇ ᴇᴛᴄ. 04. ᴅᴏᴄ ʟɪɴᴋ.

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if memories could bleed, if dreams could scream | m.a.w

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okay lads we got greatloss bc it’s sexy ,  &  temporalturncoat  &  doomsdelays because alliteration is also sexy pls share your sexy opinions bc i’m a disaster ❤

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i rly have urls like temporalturncoat  &  greatloss saved for nothing huh :/