Back To My Bullshit

Thoughts of a totally inane loser

[cokezero3timesaday]

I’m Jewish and we’ve had “the holidays” (Jewish New Years you eat, Yom Kippur you eat a lot before and after the fast, now sukkot you have two holiday eves so you eat a lot.) and I just ate so sucking much. Also in between there’s the traditional Friday Feast so we just eat a shit ton of food during this 1.5 months. Tomorrow is finally the last day. I’m going to eat 1,200 cals tomorrow, and after that I’m starting a diet. I will choose a cute fall diet ofc.

[ms-eyeofthe3d]

You went over your calorie intake? You fat pig. Go burn it off or something. Disgusting.

Take some workouts

Don't Mess Up Again

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I’m literally sitting in front of my pills and procrastinating killing myself

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You burn 250 cals if you smoke a pack a day???

I smoke about half a pack let’s go

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So it’s been a while..

But I can’t take it anymore

Tomorrow morning I’m weighing in to see the damage recovery has done.

I’m back

[cokezero3timesaday]

I’ve decided to go completely crazy

A few hours after that decision, I’m depressed now, decided that maybe actually putting some effort into this blog might be a cool idea

Im mostly inspired by Alice Oseman’s book Solitaire, about Tori Spring

I hate kids. There, I said it. I don’t have any idea why I wanted to work with kids in the first place, or why have I decided that having a little sister is fun.

I’m losing my mind rather quickly. Please don’t hate me.

[cokezero3timesaday]

Thinking about stopping my morning meds because they made me gain weight

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Do you ever feel like you’re losing touch with your ed?

Like my ed “comes back” every once in a while but then starts to disappear again, I don’t want it to go

Help me out

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I cracked and finally ate after 96 hours, be proud of me

Update: purged all of it

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Hit 90 hours fasting, please praise me because no one cares in the ward

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Been fasting for 50 hours, let’s see how long before I get kicked out from this ward

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What’s your fav diet?

I’m doing a fast to see how long I last but I wanna do a diet after that, so send me any diet and I’ll pick one and update how I’m doing!

Love y’all

[cokezero3timesaday]

Things I’ve learned on how to fast

-DRINK WATER. Or zero cal drinks, or coffee or tea, just drink up. More than 2 liters. You’ll thank me later

-go on light walks but don’t exercise after 24 hours, your body is burning enough already.

-again on walks, DO IT. It’s helpful, it will get your digestive system going and help poop out the rest of the food

-make sure to rest a lot, you burn a lot of cals while asleep plus post nap skinny is the best feeling

That’s just a bit of my knowledge, stay safe

[cokezero3timesaday]

My psychologist said I need to eat something that I like

I ordered a pizza

I’m terrified

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If I ever get terminated I’m coming back with the same name with a 1 at the end lol

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Me: maybe I could eat dinner even tho I ate lunch

Also me: or you could stop being a fat pig and starve

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I was torn between eating a full day of meals and not eating all day, you know what I did?

I spun a bottle

The bottle said no food today

Guess who’s starving today :)