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5 September 2023,

What’s really disappointing is, he NEVER has time for me. It’s always he’s tired or he’s busy. But when it comes to his friends or work, he’ll give them the time and day. Even if he’s tired after work. Me? Never. What happened to the “promises” to at least meet me for dinner if we can’t meet for that week? Gone. Gone & long forgotten.

I’m 23 now. It’s been a long time since my last update. A lot has changed since then. Stopped studying, started working. I don’t know if I’ve gotten better at controlling my emotions or worse. Some days I just want to scream at every living being. Some days I just want to sleep. Some days, I just want to interact with everyone(rarely). My boyfriend… idk… he’s not the same as when I first met him. Maybe it’s just my insecurities that’s talking. Or maybe he’s just busy. Why am I even writing this hahahaha bye.

#rant #idk

stay-close

“Someone can be madly in love with you and still not be ready. They can love you in a way you have never been loved and still not join you on the bridge. And whatever their reasons you must leave. Because you never ever have to inspire anyone to meet you on the bridge. You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love, more love that you have never seen, out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready.”

— Nayyirah Waheed

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“Take your time, but know I won’t be here forever.”

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depressionbound

You know what I fucking hate?

When parents are always wondering why their kids aren’t honest with them anymore, and never realize that their own non-receptive behaviour, or their failure to listen and keep. Things. Private. Are the reasons why. As if wanting to keep something completely normal to yourself is a crime. They always say you can tell them anything, but really they just want to know if they were right, or to ease their own suspicions, or because they are too controlling and needy for privacy.

And they think just because they raised you, that they should know everything about you, that you shouldn’t hide anything from them. But in reality they just never grasp the fact that some kids don’t want to share everything happing in their private lives. Like if their child doesn’t want to tell them something then they suddenly transform into a fucking Interrogation expert and bombard you with questions until you break down and tell them, and their fine with tiring you out until you tell them, they don’t seem to care, they’re just glade they know what you didn’t want them too,while you only told them, just to end the conversation. They see it as another win, but really they just confirmed that you will never be honest with them ever again.

worthless-misery

Dear diary...

I talk too much.

I need to shut up.

I'm annoying. I'm a burden.

Nobody cares.

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pussiesaregod

the reason i like staying up late so much is because between the hours of 1am-5am, the world is quiet and no one expects anything from me. i could stare at my wall for 4 hours and there would be no consequences. it’s so silent and calm. i love it