perpetually exhausted millenial writer

jas | she/her | mentally 108 | bi | destiel | SALS Ao3: cafeconcurls22

[nezyy78]

hi it's nezyy! 🩷💜💙

my ao3 is cafeconcurls22

i write for spn & destiel, but I don’t judge. i adore yapping away so feel free to send me your asks 💙💚

my wips:

Living in the Memory of Our Song: season 15 fix it

Reflections: a bunch of dean's try to save cas

Fallen and Found: s9 rewrite/a mission to find cas’ grace

other collections:

my short entries on AO3 for #restraintstiel week where a bunch of creatives put that angel in a situation!

coming soon:

DeanCas Big Bang • Dean Winchester Big Bang • SPN Mpreg Bang • DC Pinefest • DAURBB • The Benny Bang

[nezyy78]

😱😱😱Going to quietly (not quietly) lose my mind over a new @zephyrhearts fic that just dropped!

Go read My Dad’s Best Friend now please 🥰🥰🥰

I need to finish with these sponsibileries so I can binge this 😫

[nezyy78]

Is there a trope you hate to love? I mean like, it infuriates you, but you keep coming back to it anyway because it's useful, or more fun than you want to admit even to yourself, or it Just Keeps Happening? And then you're like, "Goddamn it, Author, you're better than this!" while writing down the cursed plot line?

Oh this is such a great question! ☺️💙💚

I’d say a fix-it fic hates to see me coming! 🤣

It’s probably my most utilized trope in writing and I hate that I love it. I hate that I keep getting inspired to write more fix-its but my mind won’t let me stop.🤣🤣

Supernatural was so awful in its ending we can’t help but to fix all their errors but my go to has always been starting from 15x03 The Rupture, it’s such a deliciously angsty and emotional episode that I can’t help but make it worse to make it better, it’s my favorite starting point despite the psychological trauma it’s inflicted on my psyche. It’s such amazing angsty material, which if you know my writing angst with a happy ending should be my middle name🤣🤣

Once a week I get at least one more idea to fix things and I have to stop myself (for now at least). So I find myself jotting down little notes on new fix it fics for the future.

I also find it incredibly lovely to give the cw and Chuck another final fuck you courtesy of my traumatized mind 🤣🤣

I’m sure at some point my readers will hate it but i literally physically can’t stop writing them. Like what is wrong with me??? It’s honestly one reason I joined a few bangs 🤣 I needed to be forced to write something else! Still challenging creative wise and I’m enjoying the process however I’m still plagued by the fix-it’s creeping in the dark corners of my mind.

That doesn’t mean I won’t write more, on the contrary I plan to, probably forever 🤣🤣

Thank you so much for the ask my friend!!💙💚🥰🥰🥰

[lockedintheimpala]

the idea of dean getting himself killed, overcome with grief and the feeling of not wanting to be in a world cas isn't, so he makes it to heaven to relieve the memories he has of cas over and over again because he believes he can't have the real thing, only to discover that jack did renos and now dean can't even have that. he's surrounded by his loved ones, but the one person he wants the most he can't even see again.

[nezyy78]

😭😭I can’t take the torment 😫

[innerchildabortionclinic]

interesting kink assortment on the dash

[nezyy78]

This sounds so Dean and Cas coded. Because Dean would take 3 hours to eat a carrot and Cas would watch with rapt attention.

They’d be fucking weird in a relationship is what I’m saying (as if they aren’t already fucking weird)

[nezyy78]

that feeling when you’re 3k into a writing flow but now your work building is having a shelter in place emergency 🫠🫠

Back to the notes app it is.

***update all is clear! Yay 🤣***

Now back to work with anxiety level at 1000 🫠🫠😫

[solarsthoughts]

listen i may take 4 weeks to write a 3k word chapter, and i may take 45 minutes to decide whether i should use “laugh” or “chuckle”, but at least i don’t use ai and whatever you’re getting is pure chaos from a human brain

[nezyy78]

🙂‍↕️

[dogpuppy]

[nineteenyearoldmeblog]

im fucking crying

[nezyy78]

A few years into the future CAITH Dean would see this in the newspaper and tell Cas “look, it’s us.”

Cas horrified “I’m not that old.”

Dean visibly confused “but aren’t you like 70?” 🧐

“Dean I’m 50.” 😐🙄

(Insert confused calculations lady meme) 🤔🫪😦🤭

@sicksicksixx this made me think of CAITH 🤣

[heliocentric9]

Happy Ass Wednesday to the drug addict priest and his priest porn-writer boyfriend.

Here is Dean being spanked and fucked by his holy situationship. If you've not been following Benedictions by @mythopoetry, this is divine intervention to begin it now.

Reference: Carter Ford and Father Romeo: Penance (2020) | Palette | Image converter | Drawing program | Timelapse script | timelapse below

Forgot to start the timelapse then it stopped recording as I finalized, but you just missed an hour of me cleaning up stray pixels.

For clicking "read more" you get a fun fact about this piece—the background is a photo of my grandfather's bible, who was an elder. I was initially thinking of making the background white and casting a glow around the characters, but then thought of this. By happy coincidence the rainbow bookmark ended up serving as a symbolic halo. Love how it turned out, and it's my first art piece for a fanfic :)

[castiel--for--king]

wait fucking...i just realized that after all those 'hello dean's that cas' last words ever are 'goodbye dean'

[nezyy78]

😭😭 at 10am on a Wednesday is how you break my heart 😭😭

[gedandagiveemhellattitude]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

THE LAST TWO CHAPTERS OF MY FIC ARE UP!!!! THIS IS THE END!!!!!! <3 <3 <3

20k words total, 9 chapters, a Godstiel fic inspired by Hades & Persephone. Give it a read. Or like. Just look at this amazing art Bunn did and Ooh and Ahh with me. Oooooh ahhhhhh.

amazing art by @jackinyellow / @bunnwing

[laz2y5]

:3

[steelart]

yesterday? blorbo stuff. today? blorbo stuff. tomorrow? you'll never guess

[littledeviantsworld-deactivated]

Did you ever just feel so lucky for knowing someone you met online? Like.. I was one click away from not following you. I was one second away from never even knowing of your existence.I would never have been this happy!!!...

[in-your-wall-s]

@siriuslyobsessed394 I’m so glad I saw you and thought you were funny and started talking to you

[siriuslyobsessed394]

NO REAL OMG @sage-black-or-remus-lupin-90 MY DIVA TY FOR BRINGING ME TO WALLS I WILL THANK YOU PROFUSELY IF YOU EVER COME BACKKK

[artemisiamasterofnone]

Many friends but shoutout to @flyerguardian and @jacksfoxevangeline today

[flyerguardian]

Awwwww thank you<3333

This applies to literally all of my friends on here y'all are so cool vjksnfjwidqjd but speciaaaaal shout out to my ogs @caravalxjurdan240 @itzursafespace @wrensvoices <3333

[caravalxjurdan240]

OMFGGG THANK YOUUUU

@artemisiamasterofnone @itzursafespace @wrensvoices @booklover5111 @colourobserver @stories-i-guess @obsessivebookwormalert @obsess-over-ink-on-dead-trees @zais--doll--mine--expo @imjusthereforthecake LOVE Y'ALLLLL

[itzursafespace]

THIS IS GENUINELY THE SWEETEST THING EVER 🥺

TYYYYYY

@athreadofroses @flyerguardian @artemisiamasterofnone @feellikeasadsong @wrensvoices @obsess-over-ink-on-dead-trees @fawnbunny01134 @feellikeasadsong @xcruelprincessx @writingprincessblog @wordslikepoisonn @misdollie @aurora-reads-books @bookaddictedrose @b3anieperson @charlieloveshughbiggs @future-muse @jamezplayzmc @phantomfandoms491 @rainydays-5 @throneofem @the-silent-romantic

[artemisiamasterofnone]

omg ME? tyy

We havent talked much so im surprised...

@obsessivebookwormalert @amir-of-choccymilk-elias @caravalxjurdan240

[amir-of-choccymilk-elias]

wait what

@privygrid @zeta-finnish @killer-offical @ebulatheduck @raccoon-go-bweh @the-lotus-files @alastorscuntologydegree @anonmous-offical @obsessivebookwormalert @itsuwari-no-kibo-offical

[privygrid]

aww love you too amir

@viktorscuntywaist @the-girl-who-lives-in-delusion13 @cyxnmoon @kasane-poteto-chip @randomfandoms47 @welltimedtumbleweed @aixtra @ebulatheduck (sorry you got tagged twice)

yall are the first ones that came to mind ily all

[randomfandoms47]

@oh-no-love-youre-not-alone @privygrid @without-you-without-them @literallyjamesfleamontpotter @apcqlypse @3lectracuted @kasane-poteto-chip @gowaniios @the-girl-who-lives-in-delusion13

[3lectracuted]

Aw omg ily too

@laced-in-ruin @maliciouslittlewhiteboy @sootandspine @ghostlynocturnalspirit @b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m @bluecookiesbutterbeer @kissrosier @mlupinn @silvert4bby and many more

[b4rty-r0s13r-w1ll-fck-y0ur-m0m]

MWAH ILY

@darlingmylovethatsmurder @istillwishforyouateleveneleven @viscountessnila @7975348473 @rara3swhimsy @darknesswrappedinfallcolors @vivaciousmessypixie @kissrosier @mlupinn @laced-in-ruin @maliciouslittlewhiteboy @fictionalsimp09 @lex-marks-the-spot @huckleberrysigh @randomlittlewhatnots @emotional-traffic-cone @evil-twink-reg @thestarsshineevenwhenhidden @urfavsherlockholmeskinnie @sspadfoot @poetscherry @leninthestarlight @space-girliee @bartysgreenstripofhair @miniaturespirestorm AND ALL MY MOOTIES <333

[randomlittlewhatnots]

Awww <3

@a-chance-of-raine @abs0l3m @sootandspine @printer-reads-505 @werewolfadmirer @timdrakescaffeinesupplier @sidequest-official @dishonorable-poet @foxysbred @laced-in-ruin @cryinconstalations @makeitfast9052 @twixxystick and all my beloved moots whom I cannot remember the exact handles of or am lowkey too scared to tag :)

[foxysbred]

That's so sweet! We didn't even interact than mutch but thank you !!

@themaliciousfarfadet @rosiervalentine @wafflesanddonuts @awhimsicalwhirlwind @disney-girl1 @patroclus-is-the-bigger-person @rara3swhimsy @trans-regulus-black

[disney-girl1]

Awww tysm (★^O^★)

ALL MY AMAZING MUTUALS...I'LL TAG JUST A FEW

@pikminnnnnnnnnnnnn , @emily-the-fae, @this-wretched-thing123 , @the-snails-want-blood, @constantlysleepdeprived, @drax-the-vampire-king, @ineedsleeplol0-0, @jxmimac, @looneylokidna, @maravderrp, @ninahufflepuff, @omicronvulkarch, @randomlittlewhatnots, @rosiernotrosie, @sidequest-official, @sunnylexi7, @saturn-a-0007, @wraya-the-ethical-wombat,

[drax-the-vampire-king]

Definitely a lot of people on here that I've loved getting to interact with. And so many of them i only got to meet by pure chance. Just wanna say I love you all even if we dont get to talk much.

@somebeaver-offical @sneesnoop @sexy-people-contests-2 @lostinthewrongfandom @pretentious-liminal-vampire @the-stew-goblin @reaper-of-light-12 @caffeinatedspitegod @wellcome-to-chaos @anyti-megan-gsta

[mimosa-sexypeople-contests-2026]

Awww thanks Drax, also same to all of my mutuals, I don’t say it enough but I love you guys

[th3grunchler]

All of my moots ❤️

With special shoutouts to:

@nezyy78, for being one of my first Tumblr friends, and the one to keep me involved in the public discourse via asks and tags and just generally being awesome (and a prolific and thought provoking writer to boot)

And @saintmarysunshine for so quickly becoming such an integral part of my life. Gentle hugs and kisses, lovey, and may everyday treat you with the softness and kindness you deserve.

[nezyy78]

To all my moots 💙💚🥰🥰 y’all have made the last 7 months so wonderful, with your creativity and kindness, I wish I could kiss you all on the forehead and tell you how wonderful you are. Because it’s true, you make the world a better place.

I adore you all and am so happy to have you as my mutuals, even if we’ve never spoken or we’ve only liked each other’s posts know that I think of you fondly. 💙💚☺️🥰🥰

@th3grunchler thank you for being such a kind light in the fandom. You’re amazing and your writing is so lovely. Your words definitely made me tear up crispy early in the morning 😭🥰🫂

[carryonauthor]

Greetings, fellow Destiel Fans!

Do you love fanfiction? Are you curious about how some of your favorite authors make the fics you know and love? You're in the right spot!

Carry On, Author is delighted to bring you a written interview (the very first!) from @tanis-in-a-trenchcoat

In this interview on Ao3, Tanis discusses the intricacies of her fic, A crack in everything (that’s how the light gets in), her writing process, and how she got into fanfiction and fandom in the first place!

Interested in having one of your fics featured on the program? Send a message, or an ask, here on Tumblr to request a slot on the show.

Come join the Discord to discuss the interviews and episodes, or drop a link to one of your fics in the recs and promotions tab!

Looking for the podcast? The first episode will drop later today!

[zephyrhearts]

Good morning World. Just read @nezyy78 's most recent update on her fabulous story and I'm like... A MESS. Great update friend!

[nezyy78]

😅😅So glad to have added to your morning 🤣🤣

I promise nothing bad will happen 🥰🥰

[graveyard-cowboy]

(Kids - MGMT)

More of the Angel brothers :3 shitty doodle break from artfight while visiting family