My toughts and my words

"Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it." — J.K. Rowling

[colormecrazyinsane]

SHUFFLE GAME

You can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to. Hit shuffle on your iPod/mp3 and write down the first 20 songs. No skipping ! Be honest.

Girls/Girls/Boys (Live) - Panic! At The Disco

It's Time - Imagine Dragons

Game of Thrones opening theme *yes, I seriously have this on my phone...for reasons*

The Ballad of Mona Lisa (Acoustic) - Panic! At The Disco

Stolen - Dashboard Confessional

My Sacrifice - Creed

Intermission - Panic! At The Disco

Tied Together With a Smile - Taylor Swift

Inseparable - Jonas Brothers

The Best Song Ever - One Direction

Right Round (Pitch Perfect)

Champagne Supernova - Oasis

Hate (I Really Don't Like You) - Plain White T's

I Swear This Time I Mean It - Mayday Parade

Nine in the Afternoon - Panic! At The Disco

Quasimodo - SHINee

Out of Reach - Gabrielle

Headlight Disco - The Click Five

No Matter What - Boyzone

Same Mistakes - One Direction

I have the most random playlist ever haha

[colormecrazyinsane]

High School crush drama

It was just an FB request & add (plus the poke back!!) but this made me so happy. He didn’t add just anyone then so it was like winning the lottery. I felt giddy for days and I know I might have sounded crazy then, but it was still the best <3 I miss the memories so much.

[crysthecookie23]

I know who this is greenheartnellie!!! :D <3

[colormecrazyinsane]

Hahaha di ba? :D daw buang ko sang-una nu? Daw naanu gid ko kuno bala aw. Nyahahaha <3 Di na kami gling friends. Ahuhubels. Cge lng ah hahaha

[colormecrazyinsane]

High School crush drama

It was just an FB request & add (plus the poke back!!) but this made me so happy. He didn't add just anyone then so it was like winning the lottery. I felt giddy for days and I know I might have sounded crazy then, but it was still the best <3 I miss the memories so much.

[colormecrazyinsane]

Hey nellie!!! :D may tumblr nako~!! :D ♥ hahaha!!!

Ey! Haha yes sorry bag-o ko lang gid nakita. Wala nag notif. ang tumblr na may message ko na new pero kagina ta mn lng ka nakita sa followers ko :D yehey! Ask mo lng kmi ni sha2 about sa follow2 or panu ang themes…etc. Buligan ka namun ah haha! Ang main blog ko pagid, Here kay amu na ang always ko gina gamit :) WELCOME TO TUMBLR my utod :D

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February 24, 2014

Random day with them :) Photos courtesy of Samsung's Samsung S4 on display, so thank you haha.

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December 07, 2013 - USLS Run for Wellness

(Late post 'coz I just feet like it) So we had to wake up real early for this one. At first we were told to arrive at 5:15 am and all I could think of was, "Who in their right minds would be at school that early? It would probably start late anyway." and since I am no longer a morning person, I woke up just a teeny bit late, went out of the house late, but arrived just as we're about to start.

The supposed to be Fun Run was mostly a Fun Walk anyway, and we also jogged for just a few seconds then went back to walking again. Then there's the paint. The first one was yellow, which we applied generously to our own faces, mind you, but the rest were all applied by the varsity players who were in charge. That's how we ended up looking as such. Anyway, we had fun. It's a fun-filled morning with colors, but I still don't like early mornings. 

[colormecrazyinsane]

I am not such a fan of pink things but I saw this yesterday and I just had to have it! So cute :D

[fueledbyicedtea]

September 11, 2013

With Marietha (chinfinity8teen) and Mark.

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October 13, 2013: Meeting some of the PHL Azkals

I met all of them for the first time except for Misagh Bahadoran (I met him last October 2011 during the MODA Masskara 2011 along with Roel Gener and Angel Guirado) but this was my first time to have a photo op with them all. *Happiness*

[colormecrazyinsane]

Why is COMMITMENT important?

Commitment is indeed important in our lives. It is needed not just in a relationship between a person and a person, but as well as a person's work or studies. Every time we start on something, we must make a commitment to it because it is what makes us focus on our goals. It pushes us to do something. I don't think anything could work or be accomplished if you don't commit to it. Without commitment, you can just abandon something or stop in an instant, and this would get you nowhere.

Commitment is also a choice that we keep choosing again and again. It is not about choosing one thing then after some time, you'll choose another. This is true to commitment in relationships. You only choose one person to marry and be with for the rest of your life. This is also not a one-way process, meaning, if one person is committed to you, you must do the same. In going to college, you choose one college program and work for years until you graduate from it. In commitment, there is loyalty and trust. You are loyal to your choices and people trust you to be committed in it.

[colormecrazyinsane]

My personal ads:

"Assume you have relational vacancies in your life."

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My Definition of a Friend

No Permanent Friend

A classmate of mine during my Elementary days asked me why I am like that. I forgot how I answered her but I agree with that. It was not because I was 'choosy' but things just happened that way. I had a friend when I was a prep student but since I transferred here in Bacolod when I was in grade one, I never got in touch with my friend-in-prep.

For some reasons, I could not remember who were my friends when I was in Grades 1 and 2, because I guess when you are young, you are friends with everybody or it doesn't really bother you who you are friends with.

I remembered my best friend in grade three. All was fine between us until we fought over a petty thing and eventually, we aren't best friends anymore. There even came a time when she would tease me a lot during my fourth grade but it stopped until we are friends again, but it was not like before. She became my classmate until I graduated high school, but our paths are definitely not the same anymore.

I also have a fifth grade best friend. It was fine but our friendship only lasted for that year only. She had to transfer to another school after that year, and I couldn't remember why we didn't keep in touch at all.

Sixth grade came and it was tough at first, but I met a new best friend (who happened to be a classmate of mine in 2nd grade) and two more girls. I was so glad to finally have friends and it feels like home. And sadly, we also got separated after our Elementary graduation. Unfortunately, I was the only one who decided to remain in LCCB. The three of them chose different schools. It was sad, but we try hang out whenever we can. Unlike my previous friendships, we managed to make this one last until now.

Starting high school was like a clean slate again. I was friendless, and it was very, very uncomfortable for me. Good thing I became friends with classmates who used to belong to another section. Then I became close to this new girl and as time passed, we became close with a few others more. Before I knew it, I had found a new group of friends. Four years is long. Some didn't stay, and we became close to others that we didn't expect to be close with. I am just happy that despite my record of having non-permanent friends before, I kept a lot of them and they stayed my very best friends up to now. They're home and they're family.

I only look for simple things in a friend. I am really different when with others, but once I'm comfortable with you, I am entirely different again. I want a friend or friends that I'm comfortable with. I want friends who share something in common with me, or if not, then we respect and understand each others' interests. A friend who would listen to me when I am feeling down, and would be patient if my mood is a little different or I happen to talk nonsense, or talk little. I just want a friend who truly understands me and would be there for me as much as I would be for them. Thankfully, I have found that in my high school pals, and I hope that time would not make us drift apart but make us stronger and closer instead.

Now a new chapter in my life has begun. I have met my college friends and I hope that this would also last long, for we have yet to go through a lot with each other in this chapter of our lives.

[colormecrazyinsane]

About Me (E-prime)

My birth took place here in the city of Bacolod, 11th of November 1995; Angelie and Neil Cuevas’ first-born. Because we did not have our own home yet, I lived the first few years of my life in La Carlota City with my grandparents. In the year 1999, my parents finally bought a home. They decided to get me back and I started my 1st grade in La Consolacion College Bacolod. Ever since then, I always loved books. I used to spend my time in the school’s library while waiting for my parents to retrieve me from school. I also borrowed a lot of picture books or fiction books from the library. I also joined the Booklover’s Club in my 4th grade. That same year, I also bought the mass market paperback copy of Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, the first novel that I owned.My love for books continues up to now. I keep saving my money so that I could buy a new book, but I still reread my old books. It also makes me happy whenever I complete a book series, and I always have my eye out for new titles. Aside from being a booklover, let me mention that I really love the color green. Like every other female kid, pink used to be my favorite color but I found it too girly later on. Also, I despise Math a lot. I became bad at it after my 2nd grade. I like English better.

[colormecrazyinsane]

The Influences in My Language Development

MY GRANDMOTHER

I stayed with them when I was younger until I finished Prep school. It was probably my grandmother who familiarized me with the alphabet while I was slowly learning. She used to be a teacher as well, so she was always the one who was helping me with my assignments. She was one of my early 'tutors', aside from my parents.

TEACHERS

Since then up to now, I continue to learn a lot from all the various teachers I have had. My English teachers have taught me how to pronounce words, spell words correctly, and the proper grammar.

TV SHOWS or MOVIES

I was exposed to English movies and TV shows when I was young. I would pick up how they pronounce words correctly. One that I remember is always hearing the word retina as 're-teen-a' from my teachers but I later heard it on a TV show and it was pronounced as 'retin-a'. This is why TV shows and movies helped me as well.

ePIP

During my 1st year in college, we had our ePIP program for our English classes. It helped a lot because there are some words that I thought I had pronounced correctly, but hearing the recorded pronunciation, I realized that I have been saying it wrong all along. Fortunately, this didn't happen with every word I have encountered, but ePIP did teach me a thing or two. It's also helpful with the way I read things aloud.

BOOKS

I think books influenced me greatly. I always remember loving to go into the school's library when I was in Grade 1 and 2. I would always borrow books as well. This continued up to the present, until I reached the 'novel' stage now. I continue to treat books as my best friend and I save up money so that I could buy one again. Books helped me with my vocabulary and grammar. Whenever I encounter a word that is unfamiliar to me, I grab the dictionary and look up the word so that I'd know what it means. Very recently, I have encountered the words flummoxed and confusticate while reading The Hobbit.

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Gender Differences in Communication

Men tend to communicate differently than women. According to an article by Susan Sherwood, "Women communicate through dialogue, discussing emotions, choices and problems. Males remain action-oriented—the goal of communication is to achieve something."

Men know what they want most of the time so they say things straight out, and women can be the opposite. That's also true on how men and women make decisions. Then women tend to use more words whenever they communicate and express more feelings, and men use less words and express lesser feelings as well. If there is something that they want to talk about, women tend to talk about it with other women and men mostly keeps it to themselves.

Men don't need to exactly communicate more like women, because sometimes it could help if they are more straight to the point unlike women.

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Listener and Speaker: Whose responsibility is it?

“The responsibility for listening well is on the listener.”

I believe this is the truth. If I am the listener, I should be responsible on whether I would focus my whole attention on the person speaking in front of me or not. There are even instances in class when my thoughts would wander off somewhere, thinking about things completely unrelated to the class and when I try to focus on the teacher again, I find myself lost and confused as to how and why this became that.

It is only us, as listeners, who could control our thoughts. We could always choose whether to think about another thing, or focus on the speaker instead and process what he or she is saying.

There are also times when you could only ‘hear’ what the speaker is saying but you don’t truly understand what it is about, so this could also mean that you are not actually listening. Listening requires your full attention because it is what you need to fully digest what you have listened to.

“The responsibility for being clear and interesting is on the person doing most of the talking.”

I believe that this is also true. The speaker should also make sure that he or she has gotten the full attention of the person or persons that he is talking to. To be able to do that, he should make the talk more conversational other than just him doing all the talking.

Like if there is a class reporting to be done, other students would most likely not listen if the speaker would only read from his book, hand-outs, or even his presentation because this makes the whole thing rather boring. I have done that once, and I reckon that even the teacher got bored. If the reporter would supply more information by giving examples and asking the audience questions, this would make the report interactional and more people would most likely listen. If it’s not really too formal, humor could also be added to lighten up the mood and get the attention of the audience.

So all in all, I think that both the speaker and the listener have responsibilities. The speaker can’t be the only one responsible to carry the conversation if the listener is not even giving his full attention, and vice versa.

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Dove: Self-Esteem and Beauty

After viewing the ads about self-esteem and beauty in class, I realized that the media has a negative effect on self-esteem. Of course their main purpose is to simply sell the product being advertised, but the effect they have on everyone should also be considered.

Such an example of an ad that had a 'negative effect' on self-esteem (in my own opinion), is this lotion ad that I've seen in our local TV. The girl is tanned and she never gets noticed by her crush. Then her friend advised her to use this lotion, she got fairer skin and voila, her crush suddenly noticed her. The ad was to sell the lotion, but I think the message it is trying to portray is not having a positive effect at all. all I could see there was if you have a dark skin, you're not pretty enough to get noticed by the object of your affection...or something.

Also, I think that there are varying pressures for women and men. Women always wanted to be smaller and men bigger (or with muscles, rather). Women would always work hard to get a slimmer body, and sometimes it even drives them to starve themselves so they could be stick-thin. Men on the other hand would always work hard to get those muscles and those six-pack abs so they would become 'hotter'. 

I wonder where all these started. I wonder what truly twisted our idea of the perfect male or female, or the perfect body. I wonder who was the first woman who wanted to be skinny and who was the first man who decided to hit the gym so he could get a hotter body. All of us should be equal in each others' eyes, they said. All of us are beautiful in our own ways, they said. But don't we get judged anyway?

I too have my own insecurities and it robs me of the self-confidence and self-esteem that I need and yes, perhaps my idea of beauty is twisted too. I am hoping that this would not be the case anymore because how many people should we see starve themselves just to be more beautiful, when they already are?