mind conditioning. destiny searching.

Athena. Student of the law. I am the best and I am also the worst, and that is up to you. A dreamer. Soul searching, trying to find her place in the greater scheme of Life. Changed, involuntarily by Chance, voluntarily by Choice.

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My Quarantine Musings:

(1) How important our lives are:

-for ourselves and Our Maker: because really we never know when we are going to die and as uncertain that maybe we should...

(2) Make every moment count with our loved ones. Hug, kiss them while we can. Tell them we love them. 🤗😘

(3) Faith and science are not contradictory. No black and white there. It just is. Kung ayaw mo maniwala, balakajan.

(4) Debate on right to free speech and free press, fake news and public officials’ blunders. Discern. Disregard anything and everything that is not towards - finding the cure, protecting our frontliners and getting help to our people. Totoo naman. The economy will survive but lives will be lost forever. Magdiscern kayo, wag paniwalain. 🤓

(5) Take THIS FUCKING VIRUS SERIOUSLY. 🦠🔪🪓💣🧨⚰️

Read up. Watch those videos. Arm yourself with knowledge and fight this virus for yourself, but more importantly for your loved ones. 👶🏻👧🏻🧒🏻👦🏻👩🏻👨🏼‍🦳👵🏼

FOLLOW PHYSICAL/SOCIAL DISTANCING.

WASH YOUR HANDS.

BE CLEAN.

BE MINDFUL OF YOUR SURROUNDINGS. BE AWARE.

SLEEP WELL.

EAT WELL.

EXERCISE.

PRAY.

(6) At the moment of a person’s death - at his dying breath - does his life flash before his eyes? What comes to his mind?

(a) I just don’t want anything left unsaid. I hope this reaches you wherever you are.

I am not going crazy or losing my head.

(b) I want to thank everyone who gave me moments, bits or parts of their life so mine can be complete. Maraming salamat sa lahat ng naging parte ng buhay ko. Lahat ng pamilya ko, lahat ng kaibigan, pati na rin yun mga nagagalit sa akin at tinawag ko na kaaway. Salamat sa pagpapasaya sa akin, sa pagpapadama ng inis, galit, sakit, tuwa, lahat. Maraming salamat kasi hindi mabubuo yun storya, kung wala ka.

(c) I just want to say sorry for all my shortcomings, for all the harsh words, for all the anger, the temper I have shown. For being unkind, inconsiderate. For not listening and for not caring. I know I am not the worst person but I might as well be to you at that moment. I am sorry for not speaking the truth. I am sorry for severing ties with you. I am sorry because I want to be free from all the pain and the anger and sadness. I am forgiving myself and admitting to all that I have done wrong. Sana mapatawad niyo rin ako.

(d) Mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat. 😘🤗 Maaring isa lang ang puso ko, pero mahal ko kayong lahat.

(e) Magdasal po tayo at mag-ingat palagi. Iniintay ko po yun araw na pwede ko na po kayong maakap (hugger kasi ako and love language ko yun) kasi may cure or may vaccine na. 💊🧪💉

(7) Thank you Lord sa aming buhay, may we praise You with the work of our hands, as You have willed. We pray for the end of this pandemic. Ingatan mo po ang aming mga frontliners at gabayan mo po ang aming mga leader - give them discernment and wisdom to do what is right and just for the good of all. This we ask in the Mighty Name of Jesus. Amen.

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To make the right choices in life, you have to get in touch with your soul. To do this, you need to experience solitude, which most people are afraid of, because in the silence you hear the truth and know the solutions.

Deepak Chopra (via psych-facts)

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Events and people come and go in our lives for a purpose, too. There are events in our lives that make us happy. There are events that make us realize how vulnerable we are and we get hurt or feel sad. We meet people whom we are able to affect in a positive way and we feel good. We meet people who break our hearts and we feel devastated. Don’t think that these are wasted moments. Events and people may not be permanent in our lives but by making an impact on us and making us better people, they have served their purpose.

Mae Ignacio, Didache

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No trial has overtaken you that is not faced by others. And God is faithful: He will not let you be tried beyond what you are able to bear, but with the trial will also provide a way out so that you may be able to endure it.

1 Corinthians 10:13

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“Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking.”

Steve Jobs

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Big Girls Don't Cry

Big Girls Don't Cry I shed a tear or two today, while I took a drag on my cigarette. I am so tired. And while I may still look cheerful and of course beautiful. 😂 This is what I called bone-tired, yon nanunuot sa butong pagod. Minsan nakakafrustrate, minsan kumukurot sa puso, minsan nakakaqiqiL (😂), pero madalas masaya at fulfilling, isang ngiti, taos pusong pasasalamat ay solb na solb na. Iba talaga yon alam mo na may natutulungan ka. ❤ At iba pa rin yon may challenges. 💪🏻😎 Pero naiyak ako kasi namimiss na naman kita. Nakakamiss yon may mag ba back up sa'yo. 💯 Yon sasabihin sa'yo na ako ang bahala sa'yo. Don't worry. Laging may thank you at kahit wala man, yon silent look of approval and of pride. Sobrang namimiss na kita, Tay. 💔Gusto ko sabihin na, inaaway nila ako, wala na akong kakampi. 😢 Alam ko tatawanan mo lang ako, tapos sasabihin mo na kayang kaya ko naman at kahit kailan di ako mawawalan ng kakampi or mag-chika muna tayo, life talks pampa-tanggal stress. Pero sabi nga, big girls don't cry. I got this down pat. Ako pa ba? I was taught by the best. I will make you proud! I miss you soooo much. Written June 29, 2017, 11:38 P.M.

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The Lord has used my adversity to restore me. I have no doubt He will do the same for you.

Boggs Burbos, Didache July 26, 2017

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Been very emotional the past few weeks. Felt joy, disbelief, happiness, anger, disappointment, gratitude, frustration, sadness, disgust, helplessness, melancholy and said too many goodbyes. Far too many goodbyes. 💔💔💔 Taking a pause this weekend to take in everything that happened (blitzkrieg weeks); feel the feelings I should have felt (work gots no time for emotions), evaluate my actions and reactions to become better, as always; read (the chill pill); maybe watch some KDrama (HAHA); and write to process it all; cause on Monday, its on to better things for me. ❤❤❤

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I’m not sure what I’ll do, but— well, I want to go places and see people. I want my mind to grow. I want to live where things happen on a big scale.

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Ice Palace (via bookmania)

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WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU FAIL is a new guide to dealing with not-success, which i think we can all agree happens and sucks but can’t be the thing that stops you from trying again???

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Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking.

Steve Jobs

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Fast-paced week, deadlines beat, quotas reached and Herculean tasks having been accomplished, I have to say that this is one productive week. 😎👌🏻 Thus, the need to stop and reflect. This week's take-aways: 1. We all started from nothing, be humble. 2. Focus on the good things. 3. God makes all things work for our good. Yes, no matter how cliché you may think this is, all in His perfect time and in His perfect plan. 4. Bloom where you are planted. You are where God wants you to be. 5. Be a blessing. Pay forward the kindness given to you. 6. Be grateful. 7. Be with people who enrich your life, people who will inspire you to be the best you can be, people you can aspire to be. 8. Aim for the moon, even if you miss, you will land among the stars. Strive for excellence. Let me end with an excerpt from Max Ehrman's Desiderata: "With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy." Happy long weekend, everyone! ❤❤

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Too many ganaps this week. I feel like a train ran over me *cue Bachelor Girl* 😂 A friend died from leukemia, too many goodbyes and closed doors. New boss. New opportunities. This week's take aways: 1. Life is too short. Pursue what sets your soul on fire. 2. Choose your battles. 3. What is, will be. 4. Pressure can't sink a ship, until it gets in. 5. Do the things that you love, with the people you love. 6. Hard work beats talent, when talent doesn't work hard. Hustle. And hustle hard. 7. You are more than what people say you are. 8. Enjoy the journey, more than the destination. 9. Love yourself.

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Writing again to de-clutter my brain. Doing some real soul searching. Planning for life, well at least in the next five years. Lord, help me. I have gone so far away from you.

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Come follow me. God came before us. God is already in your future. God is your advance party. God is yesterday, today and forever. Pray while waiting. God knows your past present and future. He is in control. God has things all figured out. After you do your best. Trust.

Bro. Alvin Barcelona

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Experience is not what happens to you.

Bro. Alvin Barcelona

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For He who is in you, is greater than he who is in the world. -1 John 4:5