living on a latte & a prayer

sc_online_t(480278,"humming the Big Bang Theory theme song in my sanctum.","#8988de"); Free Tumblr Users Online Counter Clare Edwards, 16 and no longer trapped in khaki, though I am still trapped at Degrassi. Journalism is my ambition, and anything involving a good book is a passion. The past two years have undoubtedly been a crazy ride, but this is going to be my year, and nothing and especially nobody is getting in the way of it this time around. You don't have to change who you are, everyone else does.

[columbiaclare]

yaelbrn:

If I only they were so easily convinced. Unfortunately, I’m currently typing this from my phone, hidden under my desk in math class. On the bright side, at least it actually is Friday now? I’ll be out of here before I even know it. I hope.

And now it’s past midnight, so you’re a day further from school and theorems, nice how these things work.

[columbiaclare]

owenmills:

This dance is probably going to be really lame, most of them are. At least I have a date so I can get a good hookup at the after party. She’s pretty banging too which is hard since most girls at Degrassi seemed to have gotten uglier over the years. And the only girl I really even cared about is gone now anyway. She would be pissed if she knew about my little side hobby. 

Gross and gross. Nobody’s forcing you to go, you know. May as well spare yourself from the horrors.

[columbiaclare]

lolapacs:

I can’t believe I procrastinated this long on getting a new dress for this dance! I’m normally, like, already two or three steps ahead of the game. But with all the hours you put in helping the Spirit Committee change one room into a magical place, it’s kind of hard to find some extra time to actually go out and look for some dresses. I’m really excited, though!

You could always sneak a costume dress out of the drama closet.

[columbiaclare]

yaelbrn:

I spent my entire day thinking it was a Friday only to find out it wasn’t as I was on my way out of Degrassi this afternoon. This week has felt like a million years and I’m so ready for the weekend. How am I supposed to do this all over again tomorrow when my brain is already convinced it did Friday already?

That was one of the most heartbreaking passages I’ve read in a long time, my heart goes out to you. Maybe your parents will think it’s Friday too, and let you stay home for an extended weekend?

[columbiaclare]

frankieehollingsworths:

How does someone turn down a baby goat?

Was someone offered a baby goat...?

[columbiaclare]

beckybprays:

I don’t think Luke is coming around…I just think that he’s protecting me by not telling our parents. and well…I don’t know how much he really knows, actually. So…I don’t know. It’s how they are, I’m used to it. They’ve always been closed minded, I guess it just never bothered me…because well…I believed them, and I was the same way. Or I tried to be the same way. I can only imagine. But it seems like you’re okay now…and things are okay between you and your new step family, yes? So I think that you’ve been in a good situation, even if it was hard at first. I can understand what you’re saying…when your entire world is shaken it’s hard to figure out how to feel anymore. Thank you, Clare. I really, really appreciate it.

That’s a good start, though. He’s already more understanding than your parents are being. My parents were like yours, and on the outside you’d never have known that things were starting to splinter until they were already detonating. The kids are usually the ones that have it hardest, because either you abide by every little standard they set, or you’re seen as defying them. I just needed to find my own path, and I was lucky enough to find a pretty good middle ground. I still believe in God, but I don’t walk on the eggshells that the bible laid out for us. Things are more than okay, yeah. It was a little weird to get used to since the dynamic is so different, but I love Glen and Jake, and I’ve never seen my mom happier. Of course. I look forward to happy updates.

[columbiaclare]

elijahgoldworthy:

Somehow that doesn’t surprise me. That guy’s going to have a stomach the size of a bowling ball. I need to keep in contact with him post-high school to see how that situation unfolds. So this is a bit of a segue but just out of curiosity, are you planning on going to the formal?

Probably so, and I’ll be the first in line to make note of it. I’ll keep you updated, maybe make a blog of it. Gut Watch 2016. Not sure how Jake’s eating habits brought you to that, but I don’t think I am, no. More likely than not I’ll end up having to set up for it with student council, but it’s not terribly enticing to me.

[jennamariemid-blog]

It’s just…scary. To see that my parents are the same way they always have been and so is Luke. But then there’s me. I feel so out of place at home, my parents are barely talking to me because of my involvement in the musical, and Luke is confused…but he’s trying to understand. I feel like i’m stuck between wanting to be a different person and having to pretend to still believe what my parents do because it’s what I have to do. I guess…when your parents divorced it was kind of shocking, right? My parents are never going to understand, Clare. My dad’s a Reverend. Following the Bible is his job, literally. And following his interpretation of it is what we’re supposed to do. Thanks, Clare. It’s really…amazing to know I have people on my side.

[columbiaclare]

I know. It’s gonna be at first, but it’ll be worth it. If Luke is coming around, then he must see sense in how you feel, so maybe you’re not as alone as you think. I still can’t believe your parents are acting this way... it’s awful, but you shouldn’t feel bad for doing something that made you that happy. It’ll pass, you don't have to change who you are. I mean, they’d been fighting for a while, so I knew things weren’t perfect, but it was a pretty big surprise, yeah. And it kind of shook things up since they’d always taught me that divorce was wrong, but what my dad did was a lot worse, so what was I supposed to believe anymore, you know? I know, but he’s supposed to be teaching forgiveness, and he cant do that while being hypocritical. I’m here if it gets hard, I’m kind of proof that you can survive!

[elijahgoldworthy]

Already falling into typical sibling behavior? I’m willing to bet that your fridge is far emptier now than it was before Jake lived there. You guys probably have to do a ridiculous amount of shopping. Ah, I get that. This could be your new calling, Edwards. I should have mentioned this last year.

[columbiaclare]

He’s just the same as when we were kids, I swear. No missed beats. You’d win that bet, but there would be no money it in since it all goes towards groceries. I can’t wait until he’s forty and his metabolism blows up. Hmm, watch your back when it comes to the Winter show, in that case.

[kcsguthrie]

Typical Clare Edwards, totally acting like she hates the way I am, when she’s so in love! Why’d you ever date Eli in the first place? We all know where your affections lie! :P Oh, come on, you’ll have tons of fun. I’ll distract you from any non fun things. There might be breadsticks again, and hey, maybe I won’t get shot this time.

Too soon?

[columbiaclare]

You know me well. Ugh, let’s not go there, I wouldn’t call it dating. I’d have been better off with you-or anyone, from the start. I don’t see where the fun comes in, but we’ll see. Alli and Jenna usually force me along anyway. The bread was pretty good.

Yikes, here’s hoping we can avoid that?

[columbiaclare]

✉ⓙ | Jake

Jake: We could but then when we look back on this ten years from now, it won't be as funny of a story to tell. I don't make the rules. Yeah, yeah. I need to swipe your flashdrive or something, just to make sure.

Clare: There are things from ten years ago that I still can't laugh about, thank you very much, you were a brat. If I has nightcrawler porn, so you really think I'd keep evidence of it?

[columbiaclare]

So it served its purpose, then.

English has always been my thing, I guess. Darcy and I weren’t all that close, so I spent a lot of my time creating my own fantasy. That probably explains how I turned out, ha. My schedule isn’t unbearable, though I’m sure that’ll change next year. Student council and newspaper is about the brunt of it. Maybe I’ll take up directing next to kill some time.

[elijahgoldworthy]

This probably sounds terrible but since I’ve never met Darcy, I always have to remind myself that you’re not an only child. You two still keep in close contact though, right? As if those two aren’t already a good workload. It’s extremely time consuming; I’d recommend it if you’re hoping to dedicate hours to editing and obsessing over minor details.

[columbiaclare]

Nope, even though it felt like it sometimes. I think I have more of a traditional siblingship with Jake than I did with her, but that's not always a good thing. Contact yes, but I wouldn't say close. The time zones are weird and it's expensive for her to call. We email as much as we can though, so that's nice. It's not really work if I'm enjoying it, right?  I'm good with minor details and  at obsessing, it's a wonder I haven't make my transition yet.

[columbiaclare]

✉ⓙ | Jake

Jake: You asked a question, I gave an answer and therefore we had this cool thing people call a conversation. Neither do I and I feel too sleepy to even trace it back in my head. I still don't believe you but sure, sure. Uh huh. No frisky vampires, riiiiight.

Clare: We can have a conversation without my shower habits being brought into it. Convenient for you, mister. You don't need to, God sees all and knows that my vampires are more brooding than frisky.

[columbiaclare]

✉ⓙ | Jake

Jake: Anytime, little sister. Uh, I'm pretty sure you're the one that started this whole conversation so the blame really sits on your shoulders here. There's nothing to resent. It's perfectly normal. I can promise you that you wouldn't be the first or the last person to go digging for that stuff. Oh, sure. I've heard tales of what fanfiction is like. I don't buy that for a second.

Clare: I asked a simple question, it wasn't an invitation for you to make a production out of it. I have no clue how we got to this point, but I assure you that my searches are well meaning. It's not the type of fanfiction you're thinking of, stop that.

[columbiaclare]

✉ⓙ | Jake

Jake: Glad you're aware then. You are the writer after all. There's hope for you one day, Clarebear. And this has successfully merged into a very weird area of conversation between us. Let's blame it on the hour. Yeah, it is. You can't tell me you haven't been curious about stuff. I refuse to believe you haven't dabbled into that world at least once in your life.

Clare: I'm pretty okay with having all the water to myself, but I appreciate your... support. Let's blame it on you since that's really where it lies. I resent that, and if you must know, the worst I've delved into was during the Twilight craze, and even that was moderate enough to pass for innocent.

[columbiaclare]

✉ⓙ | Jake

Jake: It's way more fun to give you a hard time though. I thought that went without saying. Sud buddies. That has potential to catch on be a thing. Not a list, necessarily, but at the very least one name. Oh come on. Do you honestly expect me to believe that you've never looked up something that wasn't considered wholesome?

Clare: It does, believe me. Points for creativity? Sorry to disappoint, but my showers remain as solo as ever. I do, is that so hard to believe?

[columbiaclare]

✉ⓙ | Jake

Jake: Well, yeah. She's not /my/ mom so it's different for me. Oh...that was surprisingly rated G, my bad. Moving right along now. I would hope so or else I'd have to buy this ghost its own laptop so it can search other damning things in private like everyone else.

Clare: And he's not /my/ dad, and yet it's still not entirely okay for me to think it was him. Moving on. Did you expect me to have a laundry list of sud buddies to air to you? Everyone else is a loose term, some of us research more wholesome things, thank you.