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people keep getting mad at akk for blowing hot & cold with ayan, and all it tells me is they've never been in his position.

not even in terms of being queer-

(which of course is an entire different battle)

but being the only child in your family that 'has a chance'.

being the one that could 'get out'.

and you're not necessarily the oldest, or smartest, or only child

but you're the one that got saddled with/landed this opportunity

the one that could be different. or the repeat sucess.

the one that really wants it, because you're told to want it, but also wishes they could give it all up, or give in, because the pressure is just too much to bare

but the weight of being a disappointment is heavier, so you power through even though it makes you unhappy, or makes you miss out, or makes you misunderstand-

especially when there are constant reminders: your parents and their pride

or that one teacher who knows 'you can do better. you are better. you could be the greatest if you just-'.

and having that, your lack of privilege, what you see as your greatest weakness, being used against you, to further and ideal, an agenda

that you used to see as righteous, and just, but are finding it harder and harder to connect with

well

that would be so so so so much for anyone, let alone a teenager, who's barely discovering who he is.

warnerenthusiast

the infamous heartbreaking number 4 scene captured perfectly, also look at the EMOTION in the eyes

artist: @/koldangrey_art

lorddetaur

Stray Bad Dog

hungerpaste

I was genuinely worried at the end of WoR that the narrative was going to start Adolin on a dark descent after he killed Sadeas. Cause that's what so many books do, like you kill a person who had it coming and it's an inevitable slope into evil. So I held my breath all through Oathbringer but the slippery slope never came. The plot moved forward, Sadeas' faction became small fry side plot and Adolin continued to be a perfect golden boy.

And there's just. So much commentary in that LACK that it makes my brain jitter. Instead of a boring purity of action narrative it explores idealism vs practicality. Dalinar's idealsim saves himself and everyone at the end of Oathbringer. But Adolin's pragmatism(even tho its motivated by passion of the moment) GOT Dalinar there by eliminating a clear threat to unity and safety before the book even starts. Can you imagine trying to face Odium if Sadeas had still been running free attempting assassinations and hoarding resources? Kaladin couldn't kill Sadeas without betraying the ideals he relies on to live, same for Dalinar's who additionally has the weight of leadership and example on him. But Adolin doesn't have either of those, he represents a different format of morality that is more about personal decency. Most of the early books he feels stiff and restricted by his dad's clearer cut codes of conduct, and only followed them out of affection for his dad. But when left on his own he weighed the ideals his father loves and the unabashed low handedness of Sadeas and realized that you don't play nice with opponents who won't return the favor. He betrayed the ideals of his father but by doing so helped them survive another day.

It's interesting to me that the story has barely addressed it, it's just moved right past. Sadeas loomed as a constant threat and he's practically disappeared at this point b/c sometimes the best way to deal with an asshole is to just stab him in an alley.